I feel oddly comfortable waking up this morning. I know I'm still completely naked but, I don't care. I'm with the man I love. I finally said it, I wanted him to know.

After telling him everything, I felt like he was the one guy who would understand me. He makes me feel loved. I've known what love used to feel like but, being with Tan is different. I am so happy I ran into him in that stupid frat house and I have Brooke to thank for that. He didn't freak out about dysfunctional Amanda at all, and I love him for it.

He makes me smile constantly, laugh endlessly, horny and hot all over, and most importantly; he's the person that I can talk to, about anything. I'm not one to open up but he reads me better than anybody. I can't lie to him and he can't lie to me, we know each other so well.

I know that even if we never work out, he will always be the first and only man I have loved this way. I let him in, and he's my world now. He's everything and more of what I want from a man.

I'm terrified we moved to fast but looking up from his chest to his still sleeping figure I know one things for sure; I undoubtedly love him. He wiggled his way into my heart and life, I tried not to fall for him but his attitude, personality and smile make me fall more and more in love everyday.

I could not be happier about giving my body, virginity and soul to someone. He took such good care of me and promised to make me feel good and he did, he made sure I was comfortable and safe before even taking his own needs into consideration. I finally had an amazing orgasm and it's because I gave up all tension in my body and let go for him to take care of me.

He stirs from his sleep and sighs while nuzzling his head into my hair. I'm currently on full display while laying across his chest. He has to know that I'm awake just laying here with him.

He's on his back holding me with his left hand on my butt and right hand on my side. We migrated to each other all night and I made sure he was breathing serval times. I was scared my body weight would be to much for him to handle. I don't think we could get any closer now though.

My leg is thrown over his muscular thighs while his naked body heat is radiating through me. I know without a doubt that if we would have put on clothes last night we would be sweating. He is on full display and the view between his legs and his chest is quite nice. My favorite part of him though, is his perfectly sculpted face.

Tanner's beautiful, he's more than beautiful. He's everything a girl would want and it took me weeks to realize that. He's kind, he's loving, he's soft for me, but has a hard spot for everyone else, he's athletic, he's muscular, he's loyal, he's charming, he's attractive, but most importantly he makes me feel like I'm the only girl he's ever been with. I know he's slept with other girls, and I know that he's told me about what happened in the past, but I know that Tanner would never cheat on me. Something about him, I just know he wouldn't. He wouldn't do it, I know he wouldn't. He makes me so happy, and he loves me, something that's been lacking from my life for a while. And I know that when we were talking last night it was all hypothetical but I can see myself marrying him, I can see myself having a family with him, and I can see us in thirty years with our grandchildren loving them.

Leaning up and kissing him on his cheek, I make my way down his neck. I lick below his ear as he grunts from sleep and pulls me closer. I know he's probably tired from his football game yesterday, but he looks so hot right now I have to kiss him.

The clock beside him says 11:30, who knew we could sleep so long? But, after what we did I understand why. He worshiped my body, he made me feel so loved, he even kissed away the pain from being stretched by his ten inch man monster.

I couldn't help the tears that left my eyes as I was so full and stretched, I knew that when we came together never losing eye contact I loved him, I've been denying it but I do, I really do.

I didn't even know that dicks were big so big, he's freaking huge. I squeeze my legs together just thinking about it. In no way am I going to be able to walk today, thank god it's Sunday and I don't have class until Monday morning. I just needed to know that this connection was here and we have formed a bond so tight that I don't think anything could break it.

He stirs again from sleep and squeezes my butt in his palm. Is he awake or just coping a feel?

He grabs my waist while opening his eyes to see me starting up at him. I smile as he leans down and seals our lips together.

He grabs me in his arms and pulls me over him until I'm straddling his very erect and hardening member. I feel it's girth under my thighs. I can't believe he's mine. He's my boyfriend, my love.

He speaks "Good morning blue eyes" while kissing down my neck. I wonder why he calls me that so randomly?

I lean forward and kiss him and start "I love waking up on top of you and your perfectly fine chest. You're birthmark is oddly shaped, I guess that will be my heart." while running my hands across his muscles and to his small heart shaped birthmark across his lower abdomen. He laughs and grabs my thighs, sliding his hands up to my hips.

"Trust me baby the feeling is more than mutual" he says and he kisses me again this time while biting my bottom lip.

I laugh into his mouth as I lay directly down on top of him. "Why do you call my blue eyes? You've always done it, and why do you call me trouble?"

He flashes me his panty dropping smile and says "Well, I do recall when you stepped through that bedroom door at the frat house, you got close towards the light in the window and the first thing I saw on your face was your beautiful eyes" all while I blush harder that ever.

He continues "I also knew in that second that no matter what happened I'd do anything for you, therefore you were trouble. I don't think I've ever wanted anything more than I wanted you in the moment. Not even my damn football scholarship." He tells me smiling as I kiss his cheek.

"I was scared but, I felt like I should talk to you. Honestly though, you freaked me out when I saw how mad you were" I tell him.

"I was so mad. I felt that way towards other people though, not you, you are the most selfless, beautiful, smart and amazing girlfriend ever. I'm so lucky I got you Ellie" he says against my lips.

"I love you." I whisper to him as I beside him and cuddle myself into his shoulder as he kisses down the side of my neck.

By the time he's finished my eyes are teary from emotion and I lean forward and kiss him, he responds by placing his tongue on mine. This feels different though, there's no rush we just kiss and kiss until our lips are numb. He pulls my butt while I grip his hair between my fingers.

"How do you feel?" He asks me pulling away as he rubs my thigh softly and then reaches up to my chest as he sees all the hickeys. I have them all over the inside of my thighs as well.

"Good, stretched." I whisper as he smiles at me and rubs my head.

"Lay back." He whispers to me as he slips me off of him next to him into the pillow. I rest into the pillow as he moves in front of me and pushes the sheets off my body to see me completely naked.

"Are you sore?" He asks as I nod softly and he rubs my thighs. "Give me five minutes" he tells me and before I know what's happening his head is dropping down between my legs. I close them as I grab his head.

"Tan no, I bleed last night." I whisper softly as he lays his head down on my stomach looking at me and grips my hips.

"I also cleaned you up. Nothing is stopping me from loving you Ellie." He tells me as he kisses my flat stomach and rubs my hips. I lean down to his height and grab his head before kissing him.

I moan into his mouth and break away for much needed breath, "I love you so much" I tell him.

"I love you more baby, you mean the world to me" he responds back kissing me. He's got my heart in his hands, I love him so much.

I kiss him back as we heavily make-out. We don't stop for fifteen minutes. I can't stop, and I don't want to. Tanner's my world and then some, he's my man.

"Tanner?" I ask rubbing his shoulders as he pulls away. He uses his elbow to support his body weight beside my head as he rubs his hands across my thighs massaging the soreness from them. I turn to look into his face as he continues rubbing me. He nods as I rub my hands through his mess of thick hair and down to his back.

"I want a life with you. I mean that, I know we talked about marriage but I couldn't help but think all night long about what this would be like in the future. Just us right now, living together and maybe even moving into other phases of life." I whisper to him as he grins down at me.

"Are you asking to move in here?" He asks as I shake my head no immediately smiling at him.

"No, not here. I want us to do that whenever we're ready." I whisper to him as he moves his hand up to my hip and pulls my body closer to his.

"I'm not asking. Move into my room. Chad won't bother you, he's never here. You can keep all the big stuff at your dorm but keep your clothes and stuff here. That way we don't have to walk ten minutes to see each other. I mean it, why not wake up to me every morning except for Monday through Friday at 5 AM." He tells me as I laugh. His football schedule will be hard to work around, but I know we can do it.

"You're serious?" I ask as he nods. "As me marrying you." He tells me as I look into his face. I never thought I would meet a guy, the first day I moved to college, and a few weeks later I'd be doing this. But it all feels so right.

"Okay." I whisper softly as he blushes and kisses me. I don't know how long we kiss but that turns into a sex round two, three, and four and I don't stop him, I don't care about how sore I'll be. I just want him. Forever and ever and I know that I will never get tired of this.

~~~~~

After laying in bed all day naked while ravishing each other bodies, I'm so sore I can barely even walk. I'm laying in Tanner's arms and chest, both of us are still naked watching his TV as we practically sleep in our spots.

I'm so freaking exhausted. Tanner's fit, and his endurance to take me into every position doesn't even amaze me anymore. He's not even tired at all. My stomach makes a large growling noise as I laugh and hug Tanner's pillow over it.

"Fart on me then." He whispers behind me as I slap his thigh making him kick the side of my leg as I do it back. I kick him back and before I realize what's happening he's flipping me over and securing me under him so I can't move while he laughs.

"I didn't fart!" I yell as he attacks the side of my body tickling me until I feel like I'm about to pee onto him. He continues tickling as I squirm and grip his head before pulling him away. He lets me win as I flip over and wrap my legs around his waist pinning him under me as I straddle his hips. I hold his hands above his head as he stares at me smirking and looking down at my naked body.

He totally played me. He's grinning at me naked when I realize he wanted this. "You dick!" I demand grabbing his pillow and hitting him across the chest with it. He laughs as hard as he can when he grabs my waist in his big hands.

"Dear now don't be like that, when you look this good I have to see." He tells me as he reaches for my boob and I reach for his nipple and twist it as hard as I can. He squeals as he looks at me and I place my hands over my breasts so he can't do it back.

He tackles me into the mountains of pillows as blankets go flying across his room. "Tan, for real though! I'm so hungry!" I demand into his chest as he rubs my head.

"Get on your knees then." He tells me as I gawk at him and push his chest making him laugh as he falls to his side of the bed. I take the pillow and put it on his chest before I sit on it and hold him down.

"Take me to get some food. Please? My cars making funny noises and I'm scared every time I drive it." I tell him as he nods softly.

"I know, I'll look at it this week. I think the radiator is about to go out." He tells me as I shake my head no.

"Don't tell me that. How much does that cost?" I ask as he sighs. "Couple thousand." He tells me as my heart drops to my ass.

"No, please god no." I demand as he nods. "They don't have used ones?" I ask as he rubs my face.

"El, it's not that much. I'll pay for it to get fixed." He tells me as I shake my head no. "No, I will not take money from you. I'll just get a bike to use on campus or something." I tell him as he rubs my hips softly.

My phone instantly starts ringing from beside us as I look over and see her name. Amanda.

"Don't worry about it. I'll get it and this better stop happening right now." He tells me grabbing my face and pulling my lips up to make me smile. He's talking about me frowning. He rubs my cheeks as I lean down and kiss him softly.

"Don't answer her call." He whispers to me as I nod. I wasn't planning on it anyway. "I'm not going to. She's not my mother." I whisper to him as he rubs my head and kisses me.

"You know my mom's there if you need anything." He tells me as I nod. "I know, but I don't want to talk about it. Amanda isn't my concern." I tell him as he grins.

He smiles and as if it was planning it my stomach makes an audible rumbling. "Now let's go eat" he says.

He gets up quickly before throwing on clothes. I try to walk towards the bathroom to get my shoes but stop when the pain finally hits. It feels terrible, I'm so sore my body hurts, I need to get used to this.

I guess that's what you get for having sex five times within the last 24 hours.

He sees my discomfort and walks to the bathroom half dressed. He comes back with my bag and shoes. He kisses my forehead before dropping to his knees and slipping on my pants and white shoes.

I smile at him and lean forward kissing his forehead and running my fingers through his hair. He states "Tell me what to do, were do you hurt the most? what can I do? what do you feel baby?".

I look down and grab his hand placing it directly on my heat, cupping his fingers around my core. I wish he can feel it through his hand sadly he can't though.

I start "My legs are sore, and my thighs hurt terribly, but this" I say placing my hand on top of his pushing it against my dripping core, "This feels like it was spilt in half, and it feels horrible, I don't regret what we did, but I did not know how bad it would hurt later" I rant out.

He looks up at me and drops his hand coming to my face from his knees. Even though he's only about five inches taller than me I still have to look up to see his face. "I'm sorry, I-I tried to be gentle, I promised you that and I hurt you, I'm sorry".

I smile up and him and say "But, the pain I feel right now is nothing, I've never felt more happy or connected with you than right now and you were gentle, you were amazing, best I've ever had" while laughing.

He smiles and says "Damn straight, and all you're ever gonna get" before kissing my head and walking back to his closet to get dressed.

I sit on the down on the bed and a few minutes later he walks over to me. "You ready to go to Zaxby's?"

"Absolutely!" I yell at him. We walk out the door hand and hand very slowly for my sake, and make it through the building and towards his parking spot in the parking lot.

We hop in and head to Zaxby's while his hand clutches my thigh, rubbing it with his fingers up and down.

Looking over at him I know, I definitely love him, everything about him.

~~~~~

We make our ways back to his truck and hop in. He instantly asks"So now that your full, what do you wanna do?"

I look down at my clothes and my long hair that is extremely tangled and start, "Tan, will you take me to my dorm so I can take care of this mess?" While pointing to my hair. It looks like a birds nest, I forgot my hair brush and it's terrible.

He laughs and smiles"I like it this way, you look like your man's been taking care of you" while tickling my side.

I flip him a bird and slump in the seat as he drives to my dorm. He plays with the radio before settling on a country station. I look over at him and ask the question know he's not ready for. "Was I good?" The question that has been hiding away in my head all day.

He looks over at me confused and responds, "You were so perfect I almost leaked out of the condoms from filling them up, you do not worry about that and never will" he tells me.

"You do know you're my first kiss, my first everything right?" I ask softly while reaching over as I rub his hand.

"I know and I love it more than you've only done this with me." He tells me rubbing my hand back. I reach up and try to take my hair as I open his folding mirror from the top of his truck only a picture goes flying out.

"Ohh, that's umm." He starts as I reach into my lap and pick it up. Only I instantly start smiling when I see a picture of us together. I'm sitting on his lap while he's in a desk chair rubbing my side. Brooke took this when she walked into my room asking about my underwear embarrassing the hell out of me. She saw us and instantly took our picture together.

"What do you have this for?" I ask as I look at it and he smiles. "Because I love you." He tells me as my smile brightens and I put the picture back before grabbing his head and kissing down his neck.

"Get us back right now Tanner." I demand into his ear as I kiss his cheek. He looks at me funnily before I rub his thigh.

"Why?" He asks speeding up as I grip his hand. I move it to the beginning of my shorts as I move my underwear to the side and slip his fingers into my panties. He moves them out of the way as he strikes my clit and I instantly moan.

"Because I'm so wet I'm leaking onto your seat and I need you inside of me right now." I whisper into his ear as he steps on the gas and takes his truck to eighty on the freeway.

We make it back to campus and my dorm a few minutes later. Grabbing my hand, he walks me inside the building and to the elevator attacking the sides of my neck.

He grabs my butt several times and I swat his hands away at least two times before giving up and letting him rub and play with my butt cheeks. I know it's not tiny, it's rather large but his obsession with it makes me feel more confident in my tall, curvy body.

He picks me up daily and lifts me like I weight eighty pounds and when I actually told him my weight he said he didn't believe me. I'm like 150, but I know my height helps with it.

It reminds me of last night, when he took care of me after our first time, he made me feel so good. I love him so much more for that.

Squeezing my legs together to dull my ache in my core he walks out the elevator. He grabs my hip and kisses me long and hard as I hold his head in both my hands. I kiss him back as he keeps walking to my door and then stops as I pull away to kiss his neck.