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Time flies by quickly and I see very little of Leo. In all honesty, I've tried to keep my distance but without hurting him.

It's best I keep things this way till I figure my shit out. I haven't been too close with Keanu either lately, this she's picked up one.

Instead I've tried focusing on school but that gets boring quickly.

I eventually give into the boredom and make a very regretful decision, I go to the mall with Keanu.

Now I'm sitting at a Starbucks just thinking while she goes up and orders her drink.

"Okay," she says as she sets down her drink and pokes her pink metal straw though it. "I need to buy a new bathing suit and some cute summer clothes for the trip before all the winter crap starts going on sale."

"Yeah, you told me already," I say. She repeats things a lot.

"Alrighty then lets go," she says. "Oh actually, I've been wanting this Kate Spade purse for a bit. It's nothing crazy I just need a red purse to go with my red summer dress. Of course I could use my black or white one but I like my purse to match my outfits."

"You just got a Louis bag? You need more?"

"You boys won't ever understand."

I sigh.

"While we're here lets buy you some summer clothes."

"I have some."

"You have worn down, alcohol stained t-shirts from summer. Your mom asked I drag you to Ralph Lauren to pick you up some polo's."

"Cause I need more of those." I roll my eyes.

"You're such a twit to shop with," she groans.

"You're not too fun to shop with either."

She sighs dramatically. Half our conversation has been one of us sighing or groaning.

"We leave January fourteenth to the twenty first," she says switching the topic as we walk. "You'll be eighteen."

"That's... what... three months away?"

"Something like that. You going to do anything for your eighteenth? I don't know what to do. I went to New York for my sixteenth. I'm thinking I'll go crazy this time and try to convince parents to let me go to Bora Bora with friends."

"Yeah, I don't know."

"Do something fun. It's an excuse to go on a vacation."

"You realize we have school right? We're already missing a week in January."

"Fine, ask them for another car, I don't know."

It's quiet for a bit till she eventually starts talking up again about school.

I walk with her barely paying attention as I realize I don't seem to like her anymore.

Of course over time I've started to be more distant but at least I still missed her at times and wanted to see her. Doing this like this was boring but I did them because I enjoyed her company.

I don't enjoy her company.

As awful as it is, I want to rip my brains out as something to entertain me. I'd rather shop with my mom.

I have absolutely nothing in common with this girl other then we're spoiled twits. We never have conversations. It's always her ranting, me listening.

"Kea," I interrupt. "I just got a text from my dad," I lie. I would say mom but her and Keanu are too close. "I'm super sorry but there's a problem with Nano."

"Oh," she says. "Is he okay?"

"I'm not sure. You good to uber home or I'll just leave you with the keys."

"No if it's important you shouldn't have to wait for an Uber. It's okay."

"Okay thanks," I smile weakly and she smiles back. Her soft smile makes me hit myself on the head the whole drive home.

How can I be so selfish and do this to people? I need to break up with her but I can't.

I always pictured her in my future and I don't know what things will be like. My parents would hate me for doing this but I'm just leading her on at this point.

I can't do anything before the trip otherwise it'll be awkward but I can't keep going on like this, that is clear to me now.

That's three more months.

Okay. I can do that. I can act like everything is fine for three months.

Three, whole, fucking, months.

I rub my head as I pull into the driveway and text Leo. He texts back by the time I enter the house and I invite him over. I would go there but I can't run the risk of Keanu knowing I dropped by.

I read for a bit while I wait impatiently for him to come over. I get bored and every two minutes check how much time has gone.

Finally, there's a knock at the door.

I run to the door childishly and slide on the tile floor in my socks. "Welcome, welcome," I smile once I open the door.

"What's your middle name?" He asks walking past me.

"What?"

"Yes, Andrew What Pollock."

"It's James... why?"

He shrugs. "I realized I didn't know and I was curious."

"Okay, then what about you?"

"Kaipo. It was my grandfathers name."

"Kaleo Kaipo Medero."

"Yes. My grandma chose Keanu and I's names and so my mom made our middle names their names. Kaipo and Malia."

"Where were they from?"

"Well, I'm Mexican so both sides of my parents are originally from Mexico but grew up in Hawaii before moving here."

He walks over to where the couch is and sits down, looking at me. It's ridiculous how much I've missed this human.

The mere idea of someone hurting him makes me want to punch someone. It kills me to know I hurt him, and I really don't care how much I hurt Keanu to make sure he's happy.

"Do me a favor," he says.

"Sure."

"Come sit down with me. I hate you so much but I miss you."

I smile softly before moving to sit next to me. "Why do you hate me?"

"Because you're doing this behind my sisters back and I want you too," he mumbles as he snuggles his head into my chest. "You can't keep doing this y'know?"

"I know. I will break up with her. I just can't do it till the vacation because that'll make things all types of awkward for our family. Speaking of which, are you going? Please say you are."

I feel him nod his head. "Yeah. I don't think I'm passing up a week with you in a bathing suit."

I laugh.

We will end up sharing a room too I'll bet. Unless they get their own house.

"Three months eh?" He says looking up at me. I look down at the brown eyed, curly hair boy. "That's a long time."

"I know. Just pretend that doesn't matter. Just for now."

His mouth is close to mine.

I lean forward and close the gap between us, connecting my lips to his. He moves so he's sitting up and leaning on me and into the kiss.

He slips his tongue in and I feel sparks. Nothing like with Keanu.

He sits on my lap with his hands in my hair, one of mine on his hip and other on the side of his face.

He pulls away and whispers in my ear. "Wanna know a secret?"

"Sure," I whisper back.

"I used to see you around the house, last year. Always thought you were cute."

I smile, feeling my face a little red.

"Yes, I remember Leo in the beginning. A fucking mouthy twit."

"Yeah, I'm a prick aren't I," he says turning his face to me and smiling.

I run my fingers through his hair before he leans back in, pressing me harder against the couch.