The environment was just perfect. I couldn't have asked for anything more on a fine Friday night. Spending the night here with the matching outfits with my person, having new gifted Jordans on and and and having makeup done by me for the first time. Everything was just amazing, falling into places.

There are times when your brain just forgets about your past moments and tries desperately to create the new ones. Wanting to atleast live for once and that's what i was trying. i genuinely wanted to forget things and look forward to the new sunrise with my favorite person. with him besides me i wanted to be stronger than the last night or last week or last month. just better in some way.

I relished his warmth and him particularly. Carwyn Araztimuno was one perfect piece of my scattered world and I wasn't ready to give up on him. Not now not ever.

I smiled at him when he pecked my forehead lovingly. His arms caging me and looking at me with utter affection. Oh how I loved this!!

"ma'am your order" the other guy called out to hand me my order. I reached my hand forward to take it when he looked down at my bare hands and looked back at me with scrunched nose and weird expression.

My eyes widened at the realization. I I didn't wear my gloves and and people would judge me for something I couldn't and still can't control. I don't know what happened but I just went still. Silent.

"fuck off you pathetic bitch" Caro took the tray in one hand balancing it amazingly and my hand in his another. His angry tone made people look at us in confusion and the guy cowered back.

He dragged me to the farthest corner table and sat the tray on it, talking a place besides me.

"Avha, listen to me baby. Look at me" his soft voice washed over my panicked silent state but I couldn't reply. My eyes were still widened and I slowly looked at him but no words left my mouth. It was really very hard to even speak. like i couldn't speak at all. I didn't know how to. "That's right baby. Breathe come on. don't hold it back. Inhale and exhale. come on my good girl" he stroked my cheek with his warm bare hands.

"No no don't go there. don't stretch yourself. Baby inhale. come on" his voice finally reached my head and I wheezed. Caro stroked my forehead lightly and I took some deep breaths.

"You make me proud Avha. So fucking much" He hugged me making me sob in his chest. "It's all fine my sweet girl. All okay." I listened to him and tried calming down.

"I-I am sorry" I sniffled trying to control my stupid tears. "No! None of it. We are going to calm down, bring back that smile and continue this. No sorrys and shit. None of it" he scolded. I hesitantly nodded a bit and quickly looked away from him.

Caro took my face in his hand and spoke again. "Lets have your favorite burger now, yeah?" he grinned a little, giving me the burger, fries and the sprite.

Opening the packet with shaky hands, I tried calming down and ate the burger. "It's good, isn't it?" he asked keeping the fries towards me. "It is" my voice coming out really small. i smiled lightly, relishing the taste of the amazing burger.

after a moment i decided to speak up. knowing he was giving me the space, comfortable space and silence to calm down and process it all. I knew I had to break the silence and that's what i did. "Tell me something" I said making him raise his brow at me. "About your work. What did you do today?" I added sipping the cold sprite.

"Today I missed you" he said smiling cheekily at me. "Psshh, corny" I said hitting him with my elbow. "Damn, Avha! You just discarded my feelings" he said mocking me. I smiled further. "coz that's what you get after saying that corny shit" my eyes widened as the words left my mouth.

"wait wait wait" he wiggled his brows at me.

"I cursed" i whispered lowly.

He threw his head back laughing at me. "you said 'shit' now let's try other words" he said and i smacked his head. "That was a mistake you buffoon" I replied eating my juicy burger.

"Fuck fuck fuck. repeat that" he smiled continuing eating his meal. "come on. Atleast once. It's just f-u-ck-. Try it. besides, shit doesn't even count."

"No" I said sternly. "Ahh such a bummer" he shook his head continuing to eye me. "Will you stop that?" titling my head i spoke back.

"stop what sweetheart?" he feigned innocence.

"Oh stop playing" rolling my eyes i shook my head muttering some gibberish words under my breath.

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"I love this" Carwyn smiled faintly kissing my hair. Both of us were now sitting on the grass in each others arms eyeing the people around us and the sky glistening with the shiny stars. I loved this too. Being in his arms brought a sense of calmness in me that I only felt with my mom. Esmeralda, was her name. That sweet soul deserved better than she got in her life. She deserved better people in her life, one who would have supported her unlike my dad. The same dada who abandoned us initially and only took me in coz he had no choice.

"Hmm" I hummed closing my eyes and enjoying the warmth that encaged me. His muscular arms around me and those favorite bare hands rubbing circles under my boobs, on my ribs. The carnival was just what one would imagine- perfect. Perfect in all sense. I had never come here before, never got time and had to work extra and my overwhelming brain couldn't process coming to a crowded carnival alone. It was just too much, but not now. Today it all seemed perfect. All of the things falling into places with my special person. He had turned me into a happy person and I had no regrets thinking back to the day when I introduced myself to him. Infact I'm glad I did. Never did I ever think I'd have a special male in my life, an amazing friend who was crazy enough to drag me to a strip club and interacting with my idol and unintentionally having a girl-crush on her and having some good other men who are all crazy. All this coz somebody pushed me to be a a bit better every day. Take a step every day, even if it was small, it mattered. And I was proud of it.

"did you enjoy today, Avha?" his voice washed over me breaking the train of my thankful and appreciative thoughts. "Hmm?" he looked down at me. His black storming yet calm eyes filled with affection looked down at me.

"I did" smiling at him, I reached forward and connected our lips. A groan leaving his lips at the sudden contact. His arms tightened around my ribs pressing me further into his safe cocoon. Carwyn's lips moved softly against mine. Was it wrong to say, I don't want this night to end? That I wanted his lips on mine for as long as possible and that I never wanted to leave this safe cage?

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