it's not as fun to lie anymore

but making think she knows him is

better than ever

he knows somewhere inside that he should feel something

but there is only

nothing?

when she smiles at him or

kisses him or

brushes the hair back from his eyes

there is just

nothing?

or is this persistent thumping

this irregular beat

telling him something?

he can feel the little jump in his heartbeat when he sees her

she likes

to take his breath away

is it fun for her?

this game

of making him feel

he want's to ask her

is it fun?

i want to breath normally again

but I wouldn't give this up for anything in the world

because I like

that

persistent

stutter