After shedding the tears the ravenette was not able to control, he stood up and looked at the diary lying on the table. With shaking hands and damp eyes he picked it up and looked at it like it was some explosive that will blast and burn everything within its radius.

He was just going to read a diary of a girl who loved him with her everything, who gave her life because of the ravenette and coincidentally, that girl happened to be Taehyung's sister....the boy Jungkook loves with his everything now and will not hesitate to give his life if the blonde needed him to.

Everything was same, only the characters changed. Like Seon loved Jungkook with her everything, the ravenette loves Taehyung with his everything and like Jungkook didn't reciprocate his feelings, maybe Taehyung does the same now. The story doesn't include the girl directly but she has came in between a love story which seemed to be ending before it could ever start.

The ravenette opened the diary slowly, feeling every emotion and pain the girl must have felt all the years ago. The first page was decorated nicely and the year was mentioned in bold letters. Jungkook took a deep breathe and turned the page.

The margins were messily decorated, like she had been thinking so many things while writing this and just put it in cartoons and flowery designs at the margins but the content written inside it was neat.

She must have had a beautiful handwriting.

Dear Diary,

Today, I saw the most handsome man in this world and I can bet that no one can prove me wrong. He was just out of this world. In a meeting, I saw him for the first time. He looked so powerful and dominant, the most feared man of Italy but I couldn't feel that fear. I felt my heart beating. I felt myself getting attracted towards him. I felt myself drowned in those dark eyes which looked at everything like it is not worthy of his attention. His presence demanded submission and nobody dared to look at him on eye. I never thought I liked bad boys till now.

I never believed in love at first sight, but now...I am sure I have fallen for him even when he didn't even look at me. It hurted a little, just a little but I hope he will notice me someday. I will always keep trying my best to make him fall for me too, but that is possible only if he noticed me ever.

Hope I will meet him soon again.

Love,

Seon.

With shaking hands, the ravenette turned the page again. Every word was written about him with so much love and affection that It hurted Jungkook to carry on reading, so he skipped some pages but Taehyung's words echoed in his brain.

Seon also has the right that Jungkook read his every feeling, know what she felt for him, know how she waited for that one moment in which Jungkook notice him, how she wrote every feeling in that diary in a hope that someday, Jungkook will read it.

Today, my boss took me to a meeting where he was going for some business stuff and I was so surprised seeing Jungkook there. My boss had a meeting with my dream man today. He is the most influential man of Italy and everybody needs to be on good terms with Jungkook, I think that's why boss was there to meet him.

Till now, I have always seen him from afar but today, my boss introduced me to him but like always, he didn't pay any attention to anyone. He merely looked at me. I was so hurt. The man I was dreaming about now a days didn't spare a glance at me. It hurts.

I don't know how much longer would I need to wait for him but my heart don't give me permission to move on. I'll do everything to make him fall for me too.

It will take some time, but everything will be fine. I know that.

Love,

Seon.

Jungkook felt like the girl was writing his feelings years ago when he didn't even thought that he will fall in love. Every word, every sentence, every emotion seemed like it was describing Jungkook's feelings. He felt like he was being punished.

Punished for not noticing the girl years ago by making Taehyung hating him now.

Karma is a bitch.

His knees gave up and he plopped down on the chair with that diary still in his hand. He don't know which boss this girl was talking about but he don't remember meeting or seeing Seon ever.

But it was his fault too. If he hadn't took everything as a mere formality and gave people some importance, maybe Taehyung would be giving some importance to him now.

Till he reached the last entry, his cheeks were stained with tears. A Mafia leader whom the world fears was crying reading a diary of a young girl who beautifully carved his feelings on a piece of paper in a way Jungkook will never be able to do.

Jungkook...

I wish things were different. I wish I was capable of making you notice me even once. I wish you loved me like I love you with my life. I wish we had spent hours seeing stars together. I wish we had cuddled after your long and tiring day of work. I wish I could have took all your stress and problems away from you. I wish you had let me in and show me what no one has seen.....a side you don't want this world to know. I wish everything was alright. I wish my heart wasn't bleeding seeing you going back to your island with a new girl everyday. I wish we would have been something....something I wanted to cherish, to celebrate, to protect.

I wish I loved you enough to let you go.

But I don't have in me to see you with other girls anymore. I am tired of trying again and again....I am depressed. I don't know how to live without your thoughts. I can't sleep every night without thinking about you and don't wanna wake up again to see you ignoring me again. I am tired, Jungkook....I don't wanna play this game anymore.

If only once you had given me even a little attention, I wouldn't be forced to do what I am going to do now... I love you and will keep loving you always.

Love,

Seon.

After that, there was no other entry. Maybe she committed suicide after writing it. Jungkook didn't had it in him to wipe his tears as he sat there with the diary in his hand and mind and heart cursing him for not been thoughtful enough to save a girl from ending her life.

He snatched everything from Taehyung, his innocence, his sister, His friend, his only family, his happiness, his career and what not. A person he wanted to always keep happy was living a life in isolation for years, only because of him.

''I am sorry for making your life miserable, Tae....but I promise you, I will give you everything I have snatched from you. I will give you all the love and care you missed, I will be your family and we both will make a home together....a home you had dreamt of.'' Jungkook wiped his tears with determination and stood up, placing the diary on the table carefully, as If it was something very precious, he walked out of his office.

Knowingly or unknowingly, he was the reason behind Seon's death and Jungkook knew it. He was determined to correct every mistake he has done in past.

With long strides, the ravenette walked towards Taehyung's room all determined to make everything right. It has been enough. They both have suffered enough. Its time for happiness to dance around them.

The door to Taehyung's room was open and the ravenette walked inside but his determination broke when he saw Taehyung packing his things in the bag as tears ran down his cheeks. It scared the ravenette to moon and back.

He can't imagine living without the blonde.

He walked quickly to the blonde and snatched the clothes from his hands.

''W-What are you doing?'' He asked terribly scared.

''Packing my things...'' Taehyung replied in annoyance. His work is finished here and he should leave now.

''Why?'' Jungkook asked again.

'' The only reason I was here is over now. There is n-no point in staying here.'' Taehyung said making Jungkook look at him hurtedly.

''Really?....Was it the only reason?... Is there really no other reason to stay now?'' Jungkook asked throwing the clothes on the floor as he stepped closer to the blonde who stepped back in return but the ravenette didn't stopped. He kept walking closer until Taehyung was backed against a wall as the mafia leader searched Taehyung's eyes to see something that can comfort him even a little at the moment.

The blonde looked at Jungkook through his tears, his heart racing at the close proximity.

''Y-Yes.'' The blonde lied weakly making Jungkook punch the wall in anger flinching the blonde who shut his eyes in fear. He will not be able to control his emotions if he kept looking at Jungkook from this close where he can hear Jungkook's heart beating against his chest.

''Wow, doll....I th-thought we have something that was special, t-that was different...that w-was precious for not only m-me but you too....Was I- I wrong?'' Jungkook asked sarcastically making Taehyung whimper a little. He felt his heart crying.

" That something didn't matter.... I can-cant stay at a place where I have to s-see my sister's murderer everyday.'' The blonde didn't protested. There was actually something special that Taehyung wanted to cherish but he can't. Jungkook is a person his late sister loved.

Not only loved, but she also died because of him.

''Do you really think I am the real culprit?.. How can you blame me when I fucking even didn't knew anything?'' Jungkook yelled.

''That's the thing... You never tried to know anything. If you had, she would had been alive.'' Taehyung yelled back.

'' You can't blame me fully for her death, Tae.'' The mafia leader shouted again. they both argued but none of them tried to back away, they were still close, their bodies pressed against each other.

"But you were the reaseon behind her death."

" You can't blame me for something i didn't even know about." Jungkook yelled back.

" You never hold yourself responsible for anything...any Fucking thing!!....you snatched everything from me yet you are standing in front of me and telling me that you are innocent." Taehyung blamed the ravenette and pointed his finger to Jungkook's chest.

" Okay...." Jungkook tried to calm himself down.

" If you really think that i am the reason for your sorrows...i am ready to compensate for them...i am ready to give you everything that you longed for." Jungkook said as he tried to cut Taehyung's face but the blonde didn't let him.

" Can you give me my five years back?...can you give me my sister back? Can you give me my dreams and the years of sleep i missed?...can you fucking turn the time and make everything right?" Taehyung yelled, tears rolling down his cheeks.

The ravenette didn't know what to reply to that. He is ready to give him his happiness, a family, a home but what Taehyung was asking wasn't possible.

"You can't...right?." Taehyung asked chuckling but the ravenette don't know what to do. Here, he was trying to put all blame on himself even when he isn't the real culprit to make Taehyung feel better but the blonde isn't ready to listen to him.

And it was messing with his mind.

'' If you can't undo anything then fucking let me GO.'' Taehyung yelled again making Jungkook angry. He can't help it, anger is a non separable part of him.

''NO...YOU AINT GOING ANYWHERE, YOU WILL STAY HERE.....WITH ME.'' Jungkook shouted punching the wall again. If there was someone in place of Taehyung right now, he would have been six feet under the ground by now.

''You can't keep me here against my WILL.'' Taehyung shouted even louder, tempting the devil again but Jungkook didn't let it overtake him.

''You will stay here, you want or not. I DONT GIVE A FUCK.'' Jungkook shouted, his eyes turning darker again as he clenched his fists.

Don't blame Taehyung though, Its not his fault. It can be possible that Jungkook wasn't the one behind Seon's death, but just think for a moment, if you were in place of Taehyung and your only sister, your only family committed suicide because of someone, wouldn't you feel what Taehyung was feeling, not only that, he felt betrayed by Jungkook also as the ravenette was playing games with him.

Jungkook didn't deliberately did anything but Taehyung fell for him....and then came to know that Jungkook always knew what his motive was and still kept it hidden. What else will he think if not that Jungkook played with his emotions....that he used his heart as a weapon to destroy his enemy?

'' You are a monster.'' Taehyung yelled when Jungkook didn't let him go. He tried to push the blonde who hold both of Taehyung's wrist to stop him from struggling as both of them cried in pain.

''I know but you will have to stay with this monster forever, now.....You can come to this Island by your wish but you can't leave it without my permission.'' Jungkook growled. He was already facing problems confessing to the blonde and now, he forgot everything in anger.

''I will run away.'' Taehyung protested.

''I'll search you out from anywhere. You can't be away from me now, Taehyung and that's your destiny.'' Jungkook chuckled, his inner beast taking over him slowly.

He can't live without blonde and he will do everything to keep him with himself, even if he had to force Taehyung to stay with him.

'' Why? Why can't you leave me alone?... huh? Tell me, Do you want to make my life even more miserable?. Do you wanna punish me for thinking about killing you?...tell me, Jungkook...I-''

'' COZ I FUCKING LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH THAT EVEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF ANYMORE. I AM HEAD OVER HEELS FOR YOU AND THIS IS THE MOST COMPLICATED FEELING....I DON'T WANNA FORCE YOU BUT I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU....DID YOU UNDERSTAND NOW?...I AM DOING ALL THIS BECUASE I LOVE YOU, NOT BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID PUNISHMENT, TAE'' Jungkook shouted making Taehyung shut up.

The blonde stilled for a moment, his mind went blank as it tried to process Jungkook's words. His eyes widen in shock and surprise as he looked at Jungkook, both of his hands still in Jungkook's hold as the ravenette cornered him against the wall.

His heart was jumping in happiness and the butterflies in his belly fluttered again but his mind still tried to take in the information.

If Jungkook had said those words to Seon, his sister would have been alive.

He don't know what to feel, should he be happy about Jungkook having feelings for him because somewhere deep, he also feels for the ravenette or should he be sad about being happy on confession which should had been meant for his sister.

Jungkook looked at him with a weak smile. He felt so light after saying out loud what he had been trying to say since days. He left Taehyung's hands who stood there like a statue, his eyes still glued to Jungkook's face whon now cupped Taehyung's face with both of his hands.

''I am sorry for everything, baby...but I never wanted to hurt you. Even when I came to know that you have some motive to come here, I never wanted to hurt you. I don't know why but I was always weak for you. The first day I saw you at the club, I never thought I will be so in love with you.... I never played with your emotions, with your feelings, with your heart because I was feeling the same things too. It all wasn't because of some stupid game, it all was because I couldn't stop myself from falling for you..'' Jungkook paused. He waited for Taehyung to say something but the blonde was too shocked to speak.

'' I know I hurted you and if you want, you can punish me. I am ready for any punishment but please.....please don't leave me. I can't live without you.'' Jungkook confessed as he put his forehead on Taehyung's, tears streaming down his face.

He would do anything to make Taehyung stay.

Thousand of emotions swirled inside the blonde. He felt so happy yet sad, contented yet restless, complete yet alone.

Jungkook pulled back when Taehyung didn't protested. He smiled widely.

''I k-knew it that you would understand me. I will give you so much love that you will forget every pain, princess, I will give you everything that you lost.'' Jungkook promised and caressed Taehyung's cheek who was still in a state of shock.

He didn't know what was right and what was wrong.

When Jungkook tried to hug him, the blonde came back to his senses and pushed the ravenette away making him confused,

''Tae-''

''LEAVE.''

''Listen to me-''

''I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT.'' Taehyung yelled making Jungkook's heart shatter again. He looked at Taehyung for a moment but all of his hopes broke when Taehyung kept looking at the wall rather than at him. He wiped his tears harshly and went out, not forgetting to shut the door with a loud bang as his eyes searched for something he can let his anger out on.

Jimin noticed Jungkook going towards the gym wiping his tears. the short heighted boy was coming from ravenette's office and he was shocked to see that photograph lying on Jungkook's table and curiosity made him read a few pages of the diary.

Realising what it all was about, he searched for Jungkook to tell him a very important thing but now, the mafia leader was walking towards the gym angrily so the short heighted boy run after him.

''JK'' He called out but Jungkook didn't stopped.

''Jungkook....'' Jimin called again and stood in front of the ravenette who looked lifeless making Jimin feel the worst of pain. He had never seen Jungkook crying like that after his mother died.

''Kookie?'' Jimin whispered making Jungkook hug him. Jimin stood there stunned seeing Jungkook hugging him and crying his heart out like a child, just like the way he used to do when they were kids.

''He is leaving, Hyung...h-he is leaving me...he d-don't love me..he..'' Jungkook cried hugging Jimin tightly making the boy hug him back with unsure expressions.

''What happened, Kookie?'' Jimin asked rubbing Jungkook's back to comfort him. He still wasn't over the fact that Jungkook just called him Hyung.

''He think I k-killed his sister. I ne-never knew about her, Hyung....How can he b-blame me?'' Jungkook cried making Jimin angry.

First, thousands of emotions which rose inside Jimin as Jungkook has called him Hyung after so many years made the boy protective towards the ravenette and second, Taehyung was behaving childish. He was making Jungkook suffer for a crime he never committed. It all made Jimin so angry.

''Everything will be fine, Kookie...he isn't going anywhere. He will not leave you. Your Hyung is here.'' Jimin comforted the ravenette who pulled back and wiped his cheek and look here and there.

He didn't want to show his emotions to anyone. He has been hiding them since years and today, when Jimin saw him crying, Jungkook felt uneasy. He nodded and walked away leaving Jimin standing in the corridor.

'' You can't leave, Kim Taehyung. He needs you and I wont let you go. I promise Jungkook.....He will not be going anywhere.''

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