hey guys funny seeing u here ;)

i've never spoken out on this book as the author before w/o it being an authors note, but i'm halfway into writing chapter forty one and i felt like i needed to say this rn so AS UR BELOVED AUTHORRRR, bear (🐻) with me for a sec

OK SO THE ENTIRE POINT OF THIS LITTLE WEIRD INTERVENTION WITH U GUYS IS BC OF THE FACT THAT IM RE-READING MY ENTIRE BOOK BACK RN FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER AND NOW IM REALIZING WHY PEOPLE ARE SO CONFUSED BY THE NATURE OF THIS BOOK???

in the beginning chapters tate gives very much... creepy vibes... WHICH IS THE PURPOSE BECAUSE IT FORESHADOWS HIS MENTAL ISSUES & HIS CHARACTER BEFORE BUT LIKE i just don't like the way i started this book and some of the stuff that tate says in the beginning just rubs the wrong way as i'm re-reading it trying to imagine what all of the ftr experience when they read it for the first time. BUT LIKE AT THE SAME TIME AS MENTIONED BEFORE ITS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO THE FORESHADOWING OF THE STORYLINE i don't know im having conflicting thoughts rn but it's also like 1am and i'm overthinking this entire book LOL

you might see less frequent updates as i'm considering changing / editing a majority of tatums words in the beginning chapters, so pls forgive me!

if i decide to leave the book alone how it is with the foreshadowing then the updates will remain consistent and steady how they are now that i've been back, and i'll keep you guys posted on my message board & i'll also let you know in the authors note of chapter forty one with what i decide to do!!

that's all for now guys i'll see you tmrw when chapter forty one is up, love & appreciation to those have stuck around for this book as always