I never expected school to be this hard. Everyone is up your ass about everything, assignments are flowing nonstop and most of all, it leaves me no time to see my friends. No time for parties and no time for fun. I remember how last year I would rant about how school sucked, but I take it back cause it just got worse. It's like each grade you go higher, and school gets more stressful.

On weekends, everyone is studying. On weekdays, we are at school. We have no time to let go and have fun. I've seen my friends in school and we talk every now and then, text before we sleep and when we wake up; but it's not more than that. I do miss them a lot.

In hallways, I'll see Jisoo and Rosie hanging out by one of their lockers together while I'd see Jennie and Lisa somewhere else. We all are different individuals so we have different interests, that means not all of us have the same classes together. Jennie and Lisa are studying arts which includes music, dance and drama. On the other hand, Jisoo and Rosie are studying physics. Yeah, they somehow managed to get the class but I'm not surprised, they have always been smarter than the rest of us. Jisoo is taking drama as well since she has interest in that topic but Rosie is taking music.

And then there is me. I'm taking chemistry and biology and this term I also decided I wanted to take dance, for fun. Concluding it, you can already tell all of us are busy with our own subjects to study from. But there are classes like dance that I get to see Jennie and Lisa. But I don't share any classes with Jisoo and Rosie. It kinda sucks. I wish it didn't have to be this way.

Although, today is a break day. The school finally decided to give our grade a break. I insisted on studying at home even more but mama wouldn't let me. She threatened to beat my ass if I didn't go see my friends and let my brain relax for the day, well, I know she wouldn't beat me either way but it doesn't mean her threats aren't any less scary.

I quickly apply some concealer under my eyelids to hide the faint eyebags I have before getting my lip balm and applying that as well. I get my cross body bag and throw it on myself before going downstairs. With a quick goodbye to my parents, I wear my sneakers and in no time - I'm already out the house.

We all decided to meet at the park we used to hang out in as children, it holds some of our greatest memories. While I walk in the streets to the park, I recall the memories of us as kids, playing in the park.

" Jennie yah, rosie is hiding there, I saw her!!" I yelled, pointing at the huge yellow slide inflicting Jennie to instantly run behind me

" Okay, you take the left, I will take the right" She spoke and I nodded, I quickly ran to the left side of the slide while she ran to the right before we slowly creeped up behind the yellow slide.

" BOO!"

" AHH!"

All of us screamed, giggling as we caught rosé and fell down on the floor, laughing to our hearts content. Our cheeks stinging from how much we were smiling but instead of stopping, we smiled and laughed even louder.

" You guys still need to find lili" Rosie spoke making me and Jennie realise that, we instantly stood up and went separate ways, finding the last hider so we could win. I searched the back of the playground, behind the fences and trees, trying to find Lisa when I heard a scream coming from behind, a scream that sounded like Lisa's.

I quickly ran to the opposite direction and found Jennie and Lisa laughing beside the swings.

" We won!!" Jennie cheered before rosé came to us, pouting while crossing her arms.

" No fair, Jennie is the best seeker!" Rosé pouted adorably, it was too hard to resist so I poked her cheeks. She resembles so much like a chipmunk, my mum says so too.

" Your cheeks are as soft as cotton candy, hm probably even softer" I spoke before laughing, almost crying tears of joy at my own joke. The others didn't find the joke funny but started laughing cause I was laughing until mum called us.

" Kids, it's getting dark, let's go home for dinner" Mama came to tell us, I pouted sadly as I didn't wanna leave the playground

" Just 5 more minutes, please mama" I begged, showing my puppy eyes in attempt to make her say yes...and indeed it worked.

" Fine, no more than 5 minutes" She sighed and sat back down on the bench again causing me to squeal while we all played rock paper scissors to decide the next hiders and seekers.

I smile at the memory once I arrive at the park and stand in-front of it. It's sad how time has passed so quickly. As kids we were so free and had no worries. Now we are growing up and life keeps throwing obstacles our way to face. Life is a test afterall, they say.

I walk through the park gates and immediately see Jisoo and Rosie on a picnic mat just a few feet away on the grass. I run towards their direction and squeal, tackling Rosie on the floor with me on top of her as we all laughed. Probably one of the few laughs we have shared in a long while.

I roll off her body and she props herself onto her elbows, watching as I pat my hands through my hair and take a seat on the mat.

" I missed this." Jisoo comments, I nodded along with her. We sit there in silence for a while, enjoying the peace of being with each other with the background noises of kids running.

" Where are Jennie and Lisa?" I asked, noticing they weren't here and I was like 15 minutes late to the time we agreed to meet. Rosé gave Jisoo a look which I didn't understand but Jisoo cleared the air.

" We didn't invite them." Was her simple response. Of course I was shocked, my eyes widened and I was confused since this was one of the few breaks we got and Jisoo told me we'd all meet together at the park. I mean, she did tell me the plan on DMs instead of our group chat so now I was even more confused.

" Why? You said we would all meet up." Jisoo just shrugged while she began to take out sandwiches from the picnic basket for all of us.

" We wanted to spend time with you, alone. We never get to see you, but you get to see Jennie and Lisa in dance class so it's only fair." Now something didn't seem right here. Was I hearing jealousy in her voice? There was no way she could be jealous over Jennie and Lisa, we have established that envy and jealousy is something we are not allowed to feel when it comes to the five of us.

" Nope, this ain't fair, choo." I pull my phone out from my back pocket and I'm ready to dial Jennie and Lisa when my phone is snatched from my hand by Rosé before it's thrown at Jisoo who quickly puts it in her pocket.

" Give it back. We aren't being fair to them, you said it would be all of us." I place my hand out, gesturing for her to give me my phone back but she doesn't budge, just shakes her head.

" No y/n. You've spent a lot of time with them and we only get this break. Just leave them alone and spend some time with us, we can deal with their anger tomorrow at school." Rosé answers this time. I don't like this jealousy they are expressing. I've never felt them express it towards one another.

Of course I'm mad at them, I'm pissed. They told me they would be here but they didn't invite them cause of their jealousy. It's unfair not only to me but also to them. I comment a few times on how they aren't being fair but they don't budge and tell me to just enjoy the moment since I'm not getting my phone back. With that being said, I don't want to ruin the one day we have a break so I sigh and give in; enjoying the time with them as they said.

It still doesn't mean I forgot about this jealousy forming in them though, I'll have to get to the bottom of this. And soon.

Present

Pain.

I'm in so much pain.

I don't even remember how I got here but now I'm laying on a bed once again with my hands and ankles cuffed to all four bedposts. I must have blacked out because the last thing I remember is hearing a gunshot, looking at Jennie's darkened gaze before I appear on this bed. And it doesn't help that I'm literally naked. The only piece of clothing around me is the cloth that is tied from my mouth to the back of my head, muffling my screams of pain.

I can't even move, I don't dare to. I see the shatters of glass piercing through parts of my body and the blood stains the baby blue bed linen under me. I'm begging for someone to come here, to let me go so I can at least fix the wounds on my body.

I'm practically seeing stars from this pain. My vision is too blurry that I don't bother properly making out the room and my surroundings. My head only shoots to the left when I hear a door open. Tears are still streaming from my eyes and my body shakes slightly from the pain.

I can't make out who enters the door but by now I know it's either Jennie or Lisa. I feel the bed sink from where my legs are and with lots of strength, I blink my eyes repeatedly to get rid of the blur and I finally see Lisa in sight with a first aid box in hand. I'm begging her to let me go but she doesn't hear it as my words are only muffled. I watch as she scrunches her face up when she looks all over my naked body, second hand pain being visible on her face.

She then opens the box and takes out a pair of plastic gloves which she puts on and then she takes out a set of black tweezers, sanitizing it before she practises her plucking with the air. She then leans down slightly and positions the tweezers slightly under my kneecap where a bigger piece of glass is piercing through my skin, and with that she gives a warning.

" This will hurt."

I scream in pain and my whole body jumps up when she pulls the shard of glass out before quickly getting a bandage and wrapping the white cloth around my knee cap to stop the blood from flowing out. The white material gets soaked with the red blood in a matter of second and I feel the pressure when she ties the bandage tightly around the wound.

There are cuts all over my body but only a couple places where the glass has pierced me, but knowing the pain I just to endure just for one spot, I couldn't do it. I scream and pull from all my cuffs, moving my legs from her grip with however much I can while she tries to steady me. When she realises I'm not going to stop screaming or moving, she lets out a frustrated sigh before screaming,

" Jennie!" Her name is enough to send a shiver all through my veins and it only takes a second for Jennie to barge through the door, seeing me and then Lisa.

I'm scared of Jennie, more so now than ever. But the pain is taking control of my fear. I don't even care about any ounce of intimidation radiating off her body cause I can't bare this pain anymore, it's too much.

" I need help, she won't stop moving." Jennie takes in the situation for a second before she's out the door and as soon as she was out, she was back inside with a needle in hand.

Not again.

She came near me and took the cover of the needle off, pinching the syringe slightly before she leaned down to my screaming, shaking body.

" Stop moving, this will help numb the pain." at her words, I stop moving and freeze for a while. Letting her do this to me if it means the pain will go away. She leans lower and injects the needle through the side of my neck, a pinching sensation causes me to wince but soon, I'm already feeling the blackness crawl through the sides of my visions before my body slowly stops trembling.

I hear faint counting from Jennie, after each count; the blackness takes my vision even more and my body stops shaking. It's at the 15th count that my whole body relaxes and welcomes whatever drug that was put into my body, going deep and dark in the shadow.

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A pounding in my head is what causes me to grasp the consciousness. I shoot my eyes opened and find myself staring at a white ceiling. It doesn't even take me a while to remember what happened last and I groan loudly in soreness when I try getting up.

" Don't. Your body needs to rest right now." A hand covers my stomach which is now clothes with a tank top and gently pushes me back down to what I now make out as a couch. I look to my right and see Lisa who just spoke and sitting beside her is Jennie on a chair.

Surprisingly, I'm not cuffed anymore. There are no restraints on me, I'm free - I think to myself. But I know that's a long lost hope that will never be true. With the pain now gone, I finally allow myself to process what happened with Jisoo and Rosé in the car which makes me once again, remember that gunshot. It was Rosé who had a gun in her hand and the noise could only come from her weapon right? But then why are Jennie and Lisa still sitting beside me right this moment. When it hits me.

No, no, it couldn't be.

" Jisoo and Rosé, w-where are they?" I ask. I see Jennie's eyes darken before she shrugs, leaning down and gently moving the hair that fans my face, away. Her touch is dangerous, not one part of me feels safe but my body is in too much pain to move. Too afraid to go against Jennie knowing what she is capable of and what she did.

And it's then when I realised my heart stopped at her next words. My whole body tensing and my brain goes numb.

" Gone, they're dead."

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