By the time that I have finished telling him about it all, we have already finished the food and with some minutes to spare I help him clean and put everything in the dishwasher. "I'm sorry you had such a rough life" He tells me. Steel has been trying to make me feel better from the moment I told him which only have been a couple of minutes though, but he says that he never wanted me to relive it by telling him, and he feels ashamed about asking me to tell him. "It's all right, you didn't know" I say to him.

I had told him how my childhood was and how horrible it was. I grew in a family that barely even cared for one another. My mother was forced to marry my father through an arranged marriage and never cared about him, and she did not care about me either. She would cheat on him all the time until he finally threw her our, but she still wanted to be in contact with me, for the sake for own family. And as much as I hate admitting it, she was the one that got me into ballet when I was a child.

However, my father barely even cared about me either. Sure there were some parts of my childhood that he played dress up with me and taught me how to fish, but he never truly cared. He repeatedly told me so. Said "I never wanted a stupid child" to me so often that I can still hear his voice echoing through my head. My father was a businessman, a powerful one and often he got into deals with shady people. Sometimes he would let those people be around me and even touch me in ways that I did not want.

I was five years old when it first happened and I can still remember every single thing that happened and ever since then I have always been afraid of my father and what he can do, or what his friends can do. Now, my dad normally just wants me to sign some deals to let some other people do things to me. To sell me and my body. It is what he wants for money, and he will do whatever it takes to money. That is why I ran away when I was sixteen and have never looked back.

Being that my dad is so powerful, and he does have allies he found me a day later, but he never wanted me home, he said that I needed to learn how the world works, so I did everything that I could to become the person that I am today. I got three jobs before just so that I could pay for my ballet lessons and once I started doing them and get money from the ballet I stopped. Yet, ballet is something that I love and I don't want money for it, which is why I have another job.

And that job makes me feel like I can do anything that I set my mind to, it reminds me of everything that I have suffered through and it makes me the person that I am today. While dancing is what I love, I need to be something else. I sigh as we have finished cleaning everything and I start walking towards my bedroom and take my phone and my keys when I start to feel myself grow dizzy. I sit down as my vision is starting to become dark. I look at Steel and I see that he's behind me holding me.

He says something but I can't hear it, I can barely see. I feel my body grow a weaker with every second that passes by and I don't know why. The tears are shining my eyes as they are falling down my face. My hands and my feet barely have any strength left and I can't seem to be able to keep my eyes open for long. I try to speak but the words get all tangled together and don't even form words at all. Everything is so strange and my head is spinning endlessly.

It's like I'm dancing but instead I'm spinning for a long time, each circle making my head feel worse and my stomach turning over and over again. Everything is so blurry and the darkness is starting to take over my vision that I have a hard time even seeing. I feel myself fall down to0 the floor with Steel beside me but I can't see him clearly to know what he's doing. I don't know what is happening nor do I know what I'm supposed to think. The world looks so strange and weird and I don't make sense of anything anymore.

"What is happening to me" I try to speak but I don't know if the words were ever heard or if I did just think about them, I don't know anything about it nor am I sure what is happening. I can't see Steel anymore but my heart can feel him. There is no pain going through my body and I wonder if this is what death feels like, I wonder if I'm going to be dying soon. Though as I start thinking about it and as I close my eyes I find myself dancing across the darkness.

Allowing the light to guide me and become the center of my world. Just dancing and laughing and feeling the joy take over me like never before. That thought is something that I keep in my heart as my eyes are closed and I can't feel my body anymore. I can't feel anything but that doesn't matter to me because I have that thought and I see it so clearly that one would think that it is the reality and perhaps it is reality and perhaps it is truly happening. The laughter comes from me as I dance but the darkness then decides to swallow me whole.