It's school day. I was kinda happy since Jungkook would be away with IU since they've been together so much last weekend.

But...surprisingly, she came with us to school too because she said it's lonely and boring to be alone at the mansion. I don't even know why she suddenly came to the pack and decided to stay for few weeks. This is making me irritated. Specially when all she does is cling with Jungkook.

I feel really heavy. I don't like this. I never thought seeing Jungkook being happy with someone would hurt like this. I can't breathe.

We were eating at the cafeteria and I just can't stand the sight in front of me. They look good together.

"Kookie! Don't leave your veggies! C'mon say ahhh~"

"Give me that...I can feed myself IU."

I want to get angry at Jungkook but I can't. So instead of getting mad, I want to cry. I just don't want to see them right now. It really hurts.

"Uhmm...guys, I'll just go somewhere."

"Where Taetae?"

"Uhmm..just to get some fresh air."

"I'll go wit-

"Ahh~ Kookie, don't leave me! He's not a child, don't be overprotective on him and he's a guy y'know."

What she said is painfully true. I felt the sharp pain in my chest. Like a thousand blades stabbed me. I couldn't take it anymore.

I looked at Jungkook and forcefully smiled.

"Y-yeah, she's right. Don't worry, I won't take long."

Then I ran to my favorite place.

I leaned on the tree and let out a deep sigh as I hold my chest tightly.

"Ohh...my sweet Taehyung what's wrong?"

"M-Minho?"

"Yes baby boy, I'm back. Miss me?"

I just stood there and was frozen. The next thing I knew, I was already pinned to the tree behind me. Goshh...why does this always happen to me!

(deeply inhaled)

"I missed your scent baby boy but....why do I smell another wolf on you?"

He grabbed my neck.

"I said, Why the fuck do I smell another wolf on you!"

" (grunt) W-why d-do you even c-care? I am n-not your mate Minho."

I managed to speak despite his tight grip on my neck.

Minho looked at me and he giggled. I swear he looked like a very creepy psycho.

"I know Taehyung. I know you're not my mate."

"Wh---?"

"Because I already found my mate. It's Taemin."

My eyes widen in surprise. Yes I'm surprised because they're both alphas but I'm more surprised because Minho harassed me in front of Taemin and he's okay with that!?

"B-bu- You...r-rejected him?"

"Of course not. Rejection is the worst feeling a werewolf could experience. It's too much of a hassle so we didn't reject each other."

I'm just so confused..why? what? how?

"You know Tae, I don't believe that if you find your mate, you're going to love each other. I mean...yes, the sexual satisfaction you get cannot be compared to others but that's that. Just a physical thing. This mate thing is just stupid, right Tae? I mean what if you already love someone for years then when you turned 19 you found your mate and got attracted just because he's your destined mate. Isn't it unfair? Hahahah just reject your mate and go to the one you love! Anyway, pathetic people say that love is more important than lust right? Hahahahaha"

For some reason, his words pierced my heart. What if...what if Jungkook loves IU? Is he going to reject me for her? Will I be able to accept it?

......No, I should accept it. If it's for him.....I-I will try my best to a-accept it.. I-I wouldn't have a choice right?

"Yah! Tae? Why are you crying? I-I haven't done anything to you yet....yah!"

I couldn't help but burst out into tears when I realized what he said is painfully true and might happen to me.

Minho loosen his grip and tried to look at me. He was caught off guard so I pushed him and I ran not giving a care if someone saw me in tears.

I was stopped by someone grabbing my arms.

"B-Bogumie hyung!!!!"

I buried my face on his chest crying my heart out. I couldn't take it anymore..I just need someone, anyone to comfort me.

He wrapped his arms around me and his hand gently tapped my back.

We stayed like that for a moment until I can cry no more. I slowly let go his shirt as I slightly backed away. He grabbed my chin and lift my head, facing him.

"Tae, you're eyes are red and puffy. Listen, Tae, I won't ask any questions and I won't tell anyone about this but on one condition."

He said while he gently rubbed my cheeks. I slowly nod while still sobbing a little.

"Let's ditch our classes and go for a run."

I was surprised at his request. A top student ditching his class? But I found it cute.

We went to the woods near the school. We removed our clothes, but I didn't have to worry since we are surrounded by tall grass and he already knew I was an omega ever since the incident at the cafeteria, so no need to worry right?

I changed into my wolf and so did he. He's fur is a beautiful mixture of gray and white.

We ran into the woods. We rolled over the muds, chased other animals and cleaned ourselves at a fall, then we went back to where we left our clothes. It was really fun. I forgot about all my worries.

We changed back to our human form and wore our clothes.

"Tae, you are so beautiful...both your human and wolf form."

Bogum hyung said as he cupped my face. I blushed at his statement and just giggled.

We went back to school and I was shocked seeing all of my friends at the entrance.

Jimin looked so worried, Yoongi was kinda relieved, Hobi hyung just smiled and Jungkook....he uhmm... looks mad?

Jimin ran and hugged me tightly and blurt out stuffs about him worrying so much while Bogum hyung apologized to them repeatedly.

Bogum hyung also apologized to me and he kissed my forehead.

Then I looked at them and properly apologized then I turned my head to see Jungkook glaring at Bogum hyung and another one caught my attention, IU looking at Bogum hyung with hearts on her eyes....maybe that's why Jungkook was angry? Is it because he's jealous of how IU looked at Bogum hyung?

~•~•~••~•~•~

We arrived at the mansion without me and Jungkook having any conversation and once we got inside, he immediately went up to his room not caring about IU. Maybe he's really mad?

It hurts me to see him like this. He didn't even went down to have dinner.

I softly knocked on his door but I didn't get any response so I slowly opened the door and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed while his head hanged low.

I gently closed the door and leaned my back against it.

"Uh-uhmm J-Jungkook?"

He looked at me. And yes, he IS angry.

"S-sorry for w-what happened this afternoon."

"Sorry? Do you know how we felt that time Taehyung? What if someone attacked you huh!? What if what happened last time happened again!?"

Jungkook shouted for the first time. He....he's really angry. My tears welled up and my wolf is already whimpering inside as Jungkook took slow steps towards me.

He raised his hands and slammed them both on my sides and I released a gasp and my eyes blankly looked down.

"J-Jungkook? I-I-I'm really sorry but Bogum hyung was with me so-"

"You're a fucking omega Taehyung! You wouldn't be able to protect yourself. Stop being a burden to everyone!"

Burden? So that's how he looks at me? It hurts to hear that from him. I know I'm worthless and vulnerable but do you have to say it that way?

I couldn't form the words I wanted to say. I kept sobbing and I felt my voice get stucked in my throat.

"That Bogum, he pisses me off. Why'd you have to be with him huh?!"

"I-I-I know how y-you feel about him b-but h-he's just b-being nice."

I managed to speak between my sobs. I really couldn't breathe.

"You know how I feel?"

He then faced me, eye to eye.

"Taehyung........you don't"

He said as he forcefully pushed his lips against mine.

I can't move. My mind went blank. I'm confused, hurt, angry and sad at the same time. I feel my knees getting weak and I can't breath.

He paused for a moment then he linked our lips again.

I tried pushing him but he's too strong.

He grabbed my wrist and pushed me to the bed. He climbed on top of me and ripped my polo open as he landed forcefull kisses on my lips going to my jaw and neck.

"J-Jungkook-ah! P-please..s-stop."

My voice cracked as I pleaded for him to stop. My tears continued flowing and my whole body was shivering. I'm scared. I don't want this. I don't like this.

"Mmm..hah..a-AH!"

A loud moan escaped my mouth and I shut my eyes tightly when he sucked the sweet spot on my neck.

"Jungkook..please..stop..I-I'm sorry. I'm very sorry. Please f-forgive me...please..s-stop."

Jungkook stopped and looked at me. His eyes widen as if he's also shocked at what he did.

"Leave."

He said in a stern voice.

"J-Jung-"

"LEAVE!"

I was startled. He even used his alpha voice.

I quickly ran outside the room.

It hurts...it hurts...his harsh words...his glare...his cold hands...his rough kisses...e-even though that's my first.

I thought firsts should feel great and romantic?

I cried and cried as I transformed into my wolf, not caring about my clothes and ran at the pack forest.

My mind went blank and all I could feel is that it hurts...

like being stabbed by one blade......

......but a million times.