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Elliot P.O.V

It took everything just to get myself out of bed. I spent the first 5 minutes lying in bed, another 30 in the bath lowkey trying to drown myself lol, 15 trying to decide what to wear and choosing to bum out rather than actually dress up. I was about to walk out the door with my glasses, some slippers, and messy hair but Levi practically threw me up the stairs telling me I didn't look presentable and what not. By the time I finished arguing with him about it I was already an hour late for school and too tired to argue so I ended up listening.

" Are you depressed?" Levi asked as we get into his car. I stop, saying nothing only looking at his face before turning to the window not answering.

" Is that a yes?" When Levi realizes I'm not going to answer he sighs and drives off. When we reach the school I ignore Levi and get out his car slamming the door behind me. I know I'm not actually mad at him and I know it's me I'm mad at but I can't help it. I'm just so angry that I don't know who or where to put it.

"hey, what the hell?" Levi yells getting out the car and grabbing me.

" What's going on with you? Why are you so angry??"

" Please Levi don't. Not here." I say quietly.

" Elliot seriously if not now then when?? What's going on with you?"

" Nothing, really I'm fine I'm sorry I just didn't sleep good last night. I never meant to snap at you." Levi cups my cheek in his hand resting his forehead in mine. All my anger washes away in seconds and I cherish his embrace.

" It's okay, I get it. I'm here for you Elliot, please just allow me to be here for you. Don't push me away. I don't care if your mad just don't push me away please." Levi says hugging me tightly. I wrap my arms around his neck and before I even realize it I'm crying. I wanted this I needed this, I needed him and I wanted to make it clear.

" Take me home, I want to be yours." I say in his ear. Levi picks me up throwing me into his car. He drives off and every time he reaches a red light kisses me as if not wanting to lose the feeling. When we arrive at the house he doesn't even turn his car off, he grabs me holding me to him. I wrap my arms and legs around him like a koala and he chuckles kissing me sweetly. Levi walks up the stairs dropping me to my bed and getting on top of me. We begin making out and Levi is touching every part of my body. It's hot but it's sweet and I'm loving every minute of it.

Levi P.O.V

Elliot's face was red and full of lust. He was so sexy minute by minute I was gradually getting harder. I can't believe this beautiful boy is with me and I can't wait to make him mine. I take off my shirt then Elliot's slowly planting kisses on him. First his stomach, then his chest, then his neck, I reach a spot behind his ear and he shivers. I smirk and begin suckling on it. Elliot moans holding me tightly. Gosh I could listen to him moan for days. After leaving a hickey..or five on his neck I once again begin making out with him. I unbutton his pants and take them off as he unbuttons mine. Once we're both in our underwear I look into his eyes. He is the most beautiful person I've laid eyes on and in this moment most definitely the sexiest.

" Are you sure Eli? I want to make sure you're okay with this."

" I'm sure. Please Levi make me yours." I waste no time pulling Elliot's underwear off and kissing him hungrily. I know I need to be gentle since it's his first time but I also really want to ravish him. I pull Elliot's leg up and put some lube on my finger. I kiss him then slowly start inserting my finger inside. Elliot flinches tensing up.

" L-Levi it hurts."

" I know babe I'll be gentle I promise. Just scream Code Red if it gets to be too much okay?" I say kissing him. Elliot nods and gives me permission to precede. I start moving my finger inside and after a little I get it all the way in. I then begin sliding it in and out and after 2 minutes Elliot's painful groans becomes moans. I insert 2 fingers then 3 and I know he is ready.

" You ready?" I ask. Elliot nods wrapping his arms around my neck. I kiss his neck and lips as I begin inserting myself in him. I'm pretty big and the tears and expression in Elliot's eyes shows me how much pain he's in. After the tips in I stop allowing him to adjust. He breathes relaxing and then nods so I can continue. I then start inserting the rest of myself, after another 2 inches Elliot begins crying.

" It hurts it really hurts." he says holding me.

" I know I'm sorry just tell me if you want to stop." I continue going it but Elliot keeps tensing up.

" Elliot you gotta relax or I'll hurt you."

" Ugh it really hurts I can't. It won't fit it's too big." That only turns me on more and now I just wanna fuck his brains out.

" I know baby I'm trying I'll keep going slowly." I'm about 7 inches in and Elliot's doing better than I thought as I pump his hard on in an effort to make him feel better. Finally I'm all the way in. Elliot's sighs in relief finally relaxing.

" Fuck Elliot." It feels so good in him he's so tight and I want to wait and be gentle but I can't. I start thrusting slowly savoring the feeling of being inside him.

" W-wait Levi I'm not ready." I ignore him continuing to thrust when I feel he's loosened I go faster and harder thrusting in and out of him.

" Ack Levi stop wait please! It hurts." I don't listen pinning his arms down. Everybody likes it a little rough.

" Code Red. LEVI CODE RED!!" I stop immediately looking down at him. Elliot's crying hysterically and I pull out to see blood on my dick and coming out of him.

" Omgosh I'm so so sorry I didn't mean to I-" Putting my palm on his cheek I attempt to soothe him but he slaps my hand away.

" Don't touch me! Get out!"

" But Elliot I-"

" Leave me alone! Get out! Get out now!" I grab my stuff and run out his room. I've never felt like such a douchebag. I don't think I can contain it anymore.