Alexa's Pov:

I can already imagine his reaction. Luca was shocked and out of words, when I told him. He knew that this was coming out of such a plan of marriage. He knew that I had hidden goals to achieve but never ventured and asked. Luca sat on the kitchen stool earlier with a mouth hung open. He didn't know how to respond. He ended up blaming me for rushing with such ideas and said that Blaze will be furious. Blaze for sure will never accept what I am about to tell him. I am actually breaking one of his rules. I am tying him down on a whole new level. I can imagine him freaking out and running to the moon or beyond. Dear god, how is he going to react and why didn't I speak to him about this earlier?

Blaze had been missing , as usual for the whole day. I need to come clean about something but he is still not here. I knew that the boys and him were out for drinks. Nina started dating this new guy and Eric was fuming with jealousy. He sounded angry whenever Nina spoke about her new guy yet kept on denying his feelings. He apparently hates the guy because he is changing Nina who surprisingly accepted her new committed relation and seems to have the biggest crush on her boyfriend.

" Lexi?" I heard the voice that I am scared of the most right now echoing near me. Blaze sounded sweet as always but shivers and fear still found a way into my soul.

"Blaze, I am here." I mumbled trying to sound as sweet as I can but I still sounded rough.

"How are you?" Blaze questioned in a tired tone then sat beside me. This is the right moment, I hope. I have to come clean.

"Blaze, I have something to tell you. Promise me to stay calm and collected." I begged him and his eyes shot open. Tiredness was long gone and he seemed alerted and confused. His eyes did a double take of my body as if looking for any sign of injury or harm. Finding nothing, they shot back and connected with mine making me clearly shiver in fear.

"Are you hurt? Did anything happen to you? Did you also meet someone? What happened?" Blaze questioned rapidly as he sat himself directly in front of me and I had to collect my breathes and words to tell him the truth.

"I actually met someone." I honestly said and saw he went rigid

"Someone?" He repeated in the lowest tone possible

"Not like someone, someone." I tried to explain "I just better go and get him"

"You brought someone here ?" He yelled instantly " Didn't we agree that this is our safe zone ? Didn't you promise me to never bring a guy here?"

"It is not like that. Just wait for a minute." I promised trying to sooth his anger a bit but nothing worked

"I swear you girls are driving us insane." Blaze yelled as I left the living-room and went into my room to bring my special someone to him.

As I opened my room's door, my shakiness evaporated into nothingness. When my eyes fell on my bed and I saw my new adopted baby, my heart skipped a beat out of happiness. Today, while visiting my orphanage, I was informed of a new baby boy being submitted. His mother brought him declaring that her life is too messy to keep him alive and happy. Austin , the baby, is seven months old. He has curly black hair and a pair of the bluest eyes I have ever seen. He kind of reminds me of Blaze a bit.

Since I held Austin, he wouldn't let go. He would cry whenever I try to put him down. I fell in love with how cute he is , since I laid eyes on him. He reminded me of my wish list. My top goal is to adopt a kid. Since I was eleven, I promised myself to adopt a kid when I grow old and independent. I opened an orphanage with the help of my family yet never felt this attached to any kid. Austin though made me feel motherly, for a reason.

I talked with Luca and informed him about my decision. He fought me over the phone saying that is selfish because I didn't discuss this with Blaze about adopting. He clearly informed me not to write Blaze's name as the adoptive father and I didn't. I knew that Luca was right. Filling the papers, I didn't mention Blaze in any way. I did what I have to do not to leave Austin alone. I talked to the director of the orphanage and knowing fully that I can support Austin, she allowed such rapid adoption.

Carrying Austin slowly and holding him near my chest, I tried to calm my breathes and ease my nerves. Blaze will throw a tantrum for sure. I just felt my heartache for Austin and couldn't leave him. I for sure don't want Blaze to get angry at me. I care for him a lot now and feel like we are on good grounds. I hate to mess our friendship. I just hope that he won't freak out and push me away.

"We are going to be okay." I assured Austin or myself as we came in sight with Blaze who gasped loudly as he saw the baby that I am carrying

"Who's baby is that? Who is the father? Is that why you married me to cover up a past of whoring around? I won't cover up for you mistakes! Give the kid for adoption. I want not kid you should have known that by now! Why did I ever think that you were different" Blaze spat at me and venom was clear in his tone. His words made tears well in my eyes. They felt like stabs. His loud yelled made Austin stir and whimper a bit , so I hugged him closer assuring him his safety.

"Austin is my adopted son. I adopted him ,today. I did nothing wrong for you to cover up for. I just wanted you to know about him. You have no relation to him. I am his only parent. I am not asking you to spend a dim or any time or effort on him. He is my son alone. Act as if you are his father only when our families are around, other than that act as if he does not exist." I informed allowing my tears to fall freely. My life is such a mess and I deserve this pain because I didn't weigh my options. I hardly ever do.

"Dammit Alexa. I never thought that you can be this selfish. I want not kids, here. I hate their cries and messes. My lifestyle and plans include no kids. Dammit, my plans included no kid or wife but now I have both. " Blaze frustratingly uttered and sat down letting his head falling between his palms.

"You feel our existence, I promise. Act as if you don't have us both" I said feeling my heart twisting in pain and tears falling heavier

"Dammit, Alexa!" Blaze lowly spoke clearly fuming in anger and I was ready to apologize again but what happened next shocked me. Blaze's hand suddenly rose and came to contact with the glass table shattering it to tiny pieces. Blood oozed from his hand and a loud sob escaped my lips echoing through out the whole house. I am responsible for such a mess and pain. I burdened Blaze with a lifestyle that he does not want. I messed our new acquired friendship. I lost everything.

Somehow Austin only stirred a bit and didn't wake up. I seeing Blaze flinch at the pain unfroze from my state of shock. I went back to my room and placed Austin on my bed then walked to the bathroom so I can grab the first aide kit.

"Give me your hand." I hushed at Blaze who continued to ignore me "Blaze, please give me your hand. Your hand is heavily bleeding. Maybe I just need to call a doctor. Blaze?" I continued to beg but had no reaction at all making me cry harder " If you want I can file for a divorce that way you won't have to deal with me anymore. I know I am selfish. I didn't think a lot I just fell in love with Austin. He reminded me of you. My heart broke at the thought of leaving him alone. I am sorry Blaze. " I rumbled on and on but had no reaction whatsoever " Say something." I begged again

"Just fix my hand so I can to sleep." Blaze ordered and I nodded

"I didn't think that all of this will happen." I informed as I cleaned Blaze's cuts but he kept a rigid face and no apparent expression at all

"I hate kids. You knew that." Blaze insisted angrily

"I didn't put your name as his dad. You can file for a divorce if you want." I offered again feeling my heart finally shattering. I honestly hated the idea of Blaze ending whatever we had going on but if Austin and I going away meant his happiness then who am I to stop him?

"Return him" Blaze said in a stingy tone as if ordering me

"He is not a product. He is my son, now." I slowly explained looking at Blaze's stormy eyes

"What if I made you pick between me and him?" Blaze stubbornly asked

"I cannot do that. Both of you are important to me. I value you so much and he deserves a home and a loving mother. I also always wanted to be a mother..." I informed shyly and saw Blaze's eyes softening a bit

"One day, you will be..." He promised " Once the right guy finds you." he continued and my smile seized. Why do I feel pain whenever he mentions someone else being my perfect guy?

"I will but he will also have to accept Austin." I replied standing up " Your hand is fine now. I will change your bandages tomorrow. Think about this situation and tell me if I should pack my things and Austin's. Meanwhile, we will make no sound whatsoever." I promised and started walking to my room

"Good night, Lexi" I heard Blaze mumble and I just nodded at him