《The Thoughts That Weren't Suicidal》12 | Writer in the Dark
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Ten years from now, I will never be able to say I had a lot of friends. One because I'll be dead and two because I don't like people. At every school I've ever been to, I made at most one friend and then occasionally talked to their other friends. However, that occasion would only pop up if my singular friend was present. Other than that, I was pretty lonely.
Like now.
You don't have to sit here by yourself; Kris left the seat next to her open. What part of "we're avoiding Kristina today", don't you understand? The avoiding part. It means we aren't making any contact with her today. I know what the word means, I just don't understand why.
I like to believe that Cole knows what was best for me. Even when I don't like it, I still do what he says (most of the time) because I believe in him. Right now though, my gut felt a lot more right than him.
"Adrianna, I would like you to choose a seat and stick with it."
"Yes ma'am."
"Good morning Adri."
"Don't talk to me Kris. Just for today."
I think that I looked desperate for a split second because for a moment Kris's face fell uncharacteristically serious. Then after a few seconds of silence, Kris just nodded at me and turned back around.
I felt better already.
Δ
I've made a mistake. Like a really big one. I really didn't think that today would end up like this. I was so calm a few moments ago and then all of that calm jumped off the tallest cliff possible, without a parachute, headfirst into a swarm of peace eating sharks.
"Adrianna put down scissors the before you get into trouble!" Kris yelled before trying to pull me back from behind, but all I had to do was take a swipe at her hands with the scissors and she was instantly two feet away.
I then turned back to my very pale target who was shaking so bad that she could probably start an earthquake.
How did we end up here? Well.
It turns out that Kris doesn't need to talk to me to annoy me. All she has to do is exist and about five veins are popping out of my head. Kristina's unfortunate talent of annoying me isn't what got us in the middle of a hallway with a pair of scissors though.
Kris and I were heading towards the cafeteria when our path was interrupted by the last person I wanted anywhere near Kristina.
"Hey Adrianna! Why are you hanging out with..." Nate shot Kris a dirty look, not even bothering to say her name. "I thought that you were sitting with me today?"
I shrugged. "Changed my mind. Sorry."
I didn't around to see his expression, but Kris apparently did because I heard her laughing behind me. A threatening growl fell from someone and I instantly turned back around glaring at Kris. I did not have the patience for her to start anything today.
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"Kristina let's go," I called out to her satisfaction. She gave Nate a parting smirk and then fell into step next to me.
"You know that she's a dyke right!? She might try to rape you!"
The whole hallway fell silent and I sighed, stopping in my tracks. I need to take a few moments to figure out how to react. Hitting, biting and yelling are all off the list of possibilities. Plus, if I do decide to stick with a verbal response, it couldn't be homicidal. That didn't leave me with a lot of options.
Cole kind of does suck sometimes.
I took the deepest breath possible before I turned around to face Nate.
"I believe that the right word you're looking for to decide Kris's sexual orientation would be lesbian. And given how I am also a lesbian and Kris's stellar reputation, I highly doubt that it would end up being rape."
I think that I handled that nicely. Sure, but you might as well start looking for a new school now. What kind of encouragement is that? The kind that has seen this happen way too many times.
I didn't think that the hallway could get any quieter or that Nate could get any angrier, but I was proved wrong on both counts. I only stayed to bask in the satisfaction for about five more seconds, because my stomach growled and reminded me of our original mission. This time I didn't have to yell at Kris to follow.
"So you would give me a chance?" She asked hopefully, once she had caught up and I gave her my best death glare. I'm giving you a chance to shut up before I stab you. Does that count?
My patience hasn't always proven to be the best, but before this whole Nate thing that just happened, I was doing pretty good today. Now, I'm not doing so hot.
"No talking. I have a headache." I dismissed, quickening my pace. I just need to hurry up and eat so that I could take my afternoon meds. Then maybe the homicidal thoughts will go away.
Things thankfully fell silent between Kris and me again, and I began to slowly calm down. As much as I hate the quiet, it is easier to talk myself down from attacking Kris when she isn't annoying me to death.
We were right outside the cafeteria doors when our second interruption came along.
"Kris!" Someone (at least I think that they're a human being. They sound more like a dying animal) screeched from down the hallway, making us stop in our steps.
Oh my god, she sounds worse than Claire. Which is why we are going to leave Kris to deal with this herself. We can't just leave her here to fend for herself! Why is that? That girl sounds crazy. So it will be crazy against crazy; she'll do fine. Adrianna do not leave her.
"Kris I've been looking all over for you." The girl exclaimed, standing very close to Kris, not even acknowledging that I was there (not that I can say I mind). I tilted my head scanning the girl until the light bulb in my head went off.
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It was the girl that Kris dragged off this morning after she saw me with Nate. The same girl who she probably did very bad things with, in a closet. That same girl was standing right here in front of me.
It is definitely time for me to go.
Kris's hand instantly shot out and discretely grabbed my arm as soon as I tried to back away. I sent the back of her head a glare and tried to pull my arm away from her. There is no way that I was going to stay here.
"Olivia I saw you 4 hours ago and you didn't have anything to say, so what's different now?" Kris asked in a steady, emotionless voice that made my stomach drop and she wasn't even talking to me.
"Well, you didn't give me a lot of time to say anything earlier..." Yep, puking now. Any form of appetite that I had before was officially gone.
"What do you want Olivia?" Kris asked in the same voice, and Olivia's face fell just a little.
"I was wondering if you wanted to come over after-"
"No, I'm busy."
Now Olivia was starting to pout, and she showed no sign of taking the hint. "But don't you-"
"I said "no" Olivia. Now leave me alone." Kris ended with finality before beginning to turn around to leave. However, Olivia had the bright idea to grab her arm and keep her from moving.
"Is it because you'll be with this..." She asked, with distaste clear in her voice.
Oh, so she does know I'm here. She clearly doesn't know that I'm crazy though.
I advanced towards Olivia with intent, but Kris pulled me back with a playful smirk.
"Ah, ah, ah. Adrianna let's go." There's the Kris that I know and hate.
I pulled away from Kris, but not too hard because I like this decision. My patience is not at an all-time low, and unless I take my meds in the next hour, I was going to be stuck like this all day.
"Get away from Kris! She's mine."
I hadn't remembered that Kris was holding on to me, due to the fact that there were bigger problems at hand. But when Olivia tried to pull me away from Kris, it wasn't Kris touching me that I was worried about; I couldn't care less. Olivia touching me on the other hand. Now that's a different story.
Good thing I keep scissors in my pocket.
"Adrianna listen to me." I heard Kris call behind me, but my eyes stayed on Olivia as I approached her slowly.
"What do you think will happen to you if you hurt her? You'll get in trouble. You don't want to get in trouble do you?" I also didn't want people touching me, but we can't always get what we want.
"If you give me the scissors, I'll order Sebastio's, and we can go to your house and play some board games. Wouldn't that be fun?" At that, my hand lowered slightly, and my expression faltered.
"Yeah. It would be a lot of fun." I conceded, relaxing just the slightest
Kris appeared by my side, and I saw her nodding out of the corner of my eye.
"But if you get in trouble for hurting Olivia, then your brother won't let us do that." She reminded me.
I suppose that Kris had a point. I mean, all that Olivia did was touch me.
The number one thing that I hated people doing to me.
"She grabbed me!" I yelled, attracting a few people's attention, but all I was worried about was the girl in front of me right now. Kris nodded again, and slowly moved in front Olivia, blocking her from my view. Just not seeing her face anymore took a lot of heat out of me.
"I know, and she's awful for that, but she's not worth it Adri. Give me the scissors."
Kris gave me a stern but caring look. The kind that Cole wore when he wanted me to do something that he knew I had to do but didn't want to.
I glared for a few more moments at Kris, before placing the metal in her open palm. She sighed in relief before enclosing me in her arms. I saw Olivia immediately run off down the hall, and I glared at her back.
Now she knows how to not deal with a crazy person.
I didn't return Kris's hug nor did I push her away, because I was just a little too done with today. I'm running late on my meds and my head hurts ten times more than it did before. I feel like Kris knows that, but she continued to hug me anyway.
Something is seriously wrong with this girl.
"I won't tell Cole if you don't." Kris joked, as she slowly pulled away from me. I gave her a blank stare in return.
"If you tell him, I will stab you," I said with a hundred percent seriousness, and she smiled at me.
"I know. Tonight, when I come over, I'm going to confiscate all of your sharp objects. You're too pretty for jail."
I ignored the last part. Well, I did anyway. My face, on the other hand, turned 10 shades of red.
"Were you serious about the pizza and board games tonight?"
Kris held the door open for me. "Of course, it'll be fun."
"Thank you Kristina." I said without looking at her because otherwise, I would have self-combusted.
"You're welcome Adrianna. Now," She threw an arm around my shoulder. "Let's get you some food so that you can get your meds."
"Remove your arm before I cut it off. I have more than one pair of scissors Kris."
See she is so good for us. I suppose. So does this mean that we're sticking around? I suppose. Do you think that tonight is going to be fun? I suppose. Do you like her now? Go die.
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