"Are you sure the tickets were free?" Rich questions me once again about the tickets.

"Billie got them for us! They are free to us, for the last time Richard!" I explain to him one more time.

He nods his head as we continue walking with the security. I take a sip of my water as I walk with them. They say it gets crazy so to bring water, and I know I'll be further away from the actual crowd but I would probably still bounce up and down with the music.

The big men continuing to walk past the tired, yet still running with excitement, supporters who scream as they see me.

"Oh my god y/n!" "I love you y/n!"

I smile and wave quickly walking to catch up with the big "alpha" males.

—

Once I walk inside I could tell this place was big BIG. And it was definitely a place I would never be able to preform at. The greenrooms were probably as big as the stage I last played at!

"Earth to y/n!" Rich says, making me focus as I realized the security and Rich were waiting on me,

"Sorry y'all, gotta admire the view before I die you know." Rich just shakes his head as the two men don't say anything and continue walking.

—

We were all finally at our destination. Billies green room.

"Thanks for the tour boys but I got it from here." Finneas says as he opens the door.

"Finn!" Rich shouts as he goes to hug the other tall man. The two hug as I stand there awkwardly waiting for my hug from Finneas.

"Come here you!" Finneas says with a smile.

I wobble towards him and get a tight embrace.

We all wait for the short little stump to come out of her room when Finneas says,

"Billie will be out in one sec, she's just finishing up-"

The door to Billies green room opens again to reveal......Billie!

"Billie will be, what?" She asks as her brother turns to her. "It's nothin Bil,"

"Well come on in!" Billie says in a cute baby voice.

I smile as I walk behind Richard. That tall fucker got ahead of me somehow.

—

We were all just chilling when the door opens to show Maggie and Patrick.

"Oh Billie! You didn't tell me y/n was coming!"

Maggie says as she hugs me tight. I hug back of course.

"I didn't?" Billie questions to herself, her dad cutting in her thoughts, "No, I did. She just wanted to be nice."

"Hush Pat! I'm having a moment!"

We all share a laugh and Maggie lets go of me.

Then, someone knocks on the door, "Thirty minutes til show time Billie!"

Billie rushes over to were the water bottles were supposed to be, finding none over there she lets out a stressed sigh.

I take my water that I only took one sip out of and walk over to Billie.

I tap her shoulder. She whipped her head around as I hold the water to her.

"Here, have mine." she hesitates before take the bottle and whispering 'thank you'.

"don't drink that all, you have to go on stage soon!"

Maggie reminds her. She nods her head as she already drank a lot of it.

Maggie just shakes her when she turns around to see Billie almost done with the bottle.

"Billie you have no more water! And y/n was nice enough to let you have hers. Now for the last time, quit it with the stupid bottle!"

"Quit it with the stupid bottle!" Billie says in a weird voice as she mimics her mom.

I turn my eyes to the couch and see Rich almost pissing his pants. I walk over there and hit his shoulder. Rich just lets out a hard cough from laughing silently for so long.

"You okay there son?" Pat says as he puts his hand on Richards shoulder.

Rich shakes his head as tears roll down his cheeks.

Finneas smiles, then signals Billie to come on and go.

She follows and walks out the door with her brother.

"Well come on guys! We'll show you where we will be sitting!" Maggie cheerfully says as she holds the door open for us.

—

Rich and I were walking behind the old couple, following like lost dogs.

I slap the tall mans shoulder. "It was not that funny Rich. I thought you had humor."

He looks at me, "No it was Patrick and Finneas. They said something funny to me and Billie just added on to it." He quickly explains.

I just nod my head. "Whatever you say. Richard."

Rich gasps dramatically. "How rude!"

I smile and laugh at his antics.

—

And the fucking show begins.

And for some reason i'mnervous. Just seeing the big crowd, wondering how Finneas and Billie could do that. Hats off to them I guess.

"This view of them is sick!" Rich says as he sits on the reserved chairs that had family written on a piece of paper stuck to them. Really high priced fancy shit, I gotta tell ya.

Sarcasm, it's a thing.

"you can sit if you want y/n." Maggie says, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Oh! Yeah, I was just watching the view." I say as I sit myself down in between Maggie and Rich.

"Is this your first show?" Patrick asks me.

"One of Billies?" they nod their heads yes.

"Yes. She's never really brought it up." I lie.

What I wanted to say was that their daughter hasn't stayed together with me long enough to bring me to one because she either cheated or left me.

But you see why I chose to say what I said instead of that.

Everyone just nods. I know it wasn't their fault their daughter can't make relationships last, or even know how to start one, but it's whatever.

I agreed and to be honest I've never went to that many concerts growing up, so this chance is not one I would turn down.

"Something on your mind?" Maggie whispers to me.

"Uhm," was all I could say before she cut in, "Billie told me not to tell you, but," Maggie looked over to Rich who was behind me, then looked back. "S-She just uhm, wanted to say to stay safe and drink some uh water!"

Well that was weird!

Why would Billie not want me to know that?

It literally has me involved!

I nod my head and turn towards the waiting crowd.

This show will be crazy, I can tell just by the way the crowd is waiting for it all to happen. They obviously are waiting for something good, waiting for her to start the big show.

—

The show is so close to starting!

And i'm super excited! It is more fun then I thought it would be, and also like, come on, it's Billies show it has to go hard.

"Go Billie!" Maggie screams as she takes out her phone to record.

I look over to Rich to see a huge smile on his face.

"What's got you all shits and giggles huh?" I mess with him.

"Oh it's nothing y/n." He responds, that smile never leaving his face.

"Okay then," I say under my breath.

What's got everyone so secretive? Am I missing something? Do I have a something stuck in my teeth? Maybe my hair is messed up?

I sit panicking in silence while everyone's eyes are on the stage, waiting for Billie and Finneas to show up.

—

The show is just starting and people are flipping their shit.

"Fuck! I can't wait brooooo!" I say Impatiently as I lift myself from my chair and go to the balcony to see the stage better.

Since the view was fucking perfect I even got to see a little Billie waiting for her cue to go out.

"Go bitch!" I wave to her, she obviously couldn't see me but I tried anyway.

I sigh at my failed attempted to get Billies attention.

I turn around to see Maggie done recording.

Well shit, shes got that forever.

"Nice language over there young lady."

A security guard said sarcastically as he passed by our section.

"I also have a nice finger too!"

I said as I flipped him off.

He looked disgusted but walked faster.

I looked back at the sitting group and they all had smirks or smiles on their faces.

I put on a good show I guess.

I was going to sit down when I heard the cheers for Billie get louder. You couldn't even imagine how fast I whipped back around.

Just what I had expected, Billie was out on stage, waiting for the first song to play.

Finn was out there too, waiting in his little section.

Billie looked up at our balcony and smiled.

That's when I realized that Maggie, Patrick, and Rich are right next to me.

We all waved and she did a quick wave back.

That's when people noticed where we sat and started pointing and stuff. But that dialed down quickly after Bad Guy started blasting through the speakers.

Oh the shit has begun!

—

Let's just say that when you jump around for a while you get a little lightheaded.

And then you have to be forced to sit down and act like your a child in time out for ten minutes. Yeah I never experienced it either. Totally didn't just bring momma Rich out. Not at all......you're the one pouting and crossing your arms while Patrick films you because you're "just so cute not to film it!"

But! The show so far was fucking insane! It was so...good!

Like the visuals were amazing, singing was on point, and just everything was so perfect.

And since i'm totally not in time out and I just wanted to sit down, that meant I couldn't see the performance as well as Maggie and all of them did.

So I had to shout my love for the show sitting down instead of jumping around.

"Go Finneas! You legend!"

I practically scream my lungs out to Finneas down on the stage.

He looks up shocked with a smile, but continued to rock out.

Oh they can definitely hear me. This is going to be fun!

Rich sits down next to me.

"How you holding up? Do you think you can stand back up?"

Rich asks concerned as he holds my arm loosely.

"Yes mom, I think I'm ready to be potty trained too!"

I say as I stand up and go over to the railing on the balcony.

He rolls his eyes and goes over to me once more.

This time he stayed silent and was just quietly vibing with the music the whole time. Respect.

"Hello everybody!"

Billie says after Bad Guy was finished.

"I just wanted to give a quick thank you to the people who made this!" she pointed to the whole stage and audience, "happen and I am just so exited to give you guys a good fucking show!" she continued as she walked around the stage.

"Thank em' mamas!"

I shout, which made a lot of people laugh in the crowd. Billie had a smile, Finneas, Maggie, Patrick, and Rich! they all either smiled or laughed.

"That's the wonderful y/n ladies and gentlemen!

Go bitch!" She said into the mic as she turns around to walk in a different direction.

Everyone laughed again.

Oh so she did hear me! That sneaky little fuck!

"Curse you super hearing abilities!" I say as I continue to watch. Pretty sure everyone was confused, but when's there is no one to entertain, you entertain yourself!

"Now can we get this show started?!"

Billie yelled.

"Wooooo!" Me and Maggie cheer!

So did many others but, they weren't first like me and queen Maggie, so, sucks to suck!

—

IDWBYA!!!!!

That shit went hard as fuuuuuuck!

Oh my lord! Oh my GOD! I just can't! That performance of it had me in tears! Sobs! Laughs!

All. Of. It!

I need to go to more of her shows. I'm having one of the best times in my whole entire life!

"Glad that you came?" Patrick said with a smile.

"Of course. The show is amazing." The smile I had. Fucking shit eating grin man!

"Glad you like it." Rich whispered to me.

I smile at him,

"Duh,"

I say. And I did not mean to make that reference!

—

And there is the end of the fucking show!

Billie just stopped singing Bad Guy again to close off the show.

People were sad, tired, and red.

Fucking 10/10 would jump around again.

"Before you all go!"

Billie says as she walks down the catwalk.

"There is just one more thing I want to do before you guys go."

I could hear Billie talking but I wasn't focused when there was a tap on my shoulder.

"Yes?" I ask, turning around to face a big security guard.

"You have to come with me,"

I stare at him weird.

"Quickly! Come on y/n,"

Maggie says. Everyone else just let it happen.

I walk with him down to where the stage wing was.

"Dude this is the right wing. Like, near the fucking stage!"

He nods as he holds me in place.

There is no way in hell I'm going out there!

What am I even doing over here anyways?!

I look at Finneas.

He looks back to me and smiles.

I shake my head and mouth the words,

"What the hell is going on?"

He gets it and mouthed back,

"Just go with it! You're all good!"

He gave a thumbs up and then went back to focusing on Billie.

OH FUCK! They all got me fucked UP! Fucked UUuuUppPp!!

"y/n!" I hear Billie yell into the microphone.

That's when the fuck head security guard pushed me out.

Holy shiiiittt.

I was standing there! Kinda in front of all of them.

"Well. Don't just stand there. Come over here!"

Billie said. The whole arena fucking screamed.

I look to Finneas as I make my way over.

I flip him off and make sure to flip one to Rich all the way up at the family balcony.

"Don't be mean now!" Billie teases.

I go over to Billie. Once I'm close enough she pulls me close like she did when she was drunk at our first party together.

I couldn't hide the pink showing up.

"Now! You all know who this bitch is!"

The crowd responds in cheers and screams.

Oh lucky me!

"Most of you guys have been through all of it with me! And if you did you guys would know that me and y/n are civil! We all good!"

She waits a second so everyone could calm down.

Her arm still around me. I could smell the vanilla sent coming from her.

"If we weren't cool, then she wouldn't be here!

Get that!" She smiles as the arena goes wild again.

Then silence.

Billie was just about to speak again when you could hear a fan scream,

"Just kiss already!"

Since it was so fucking quiet everyone heard that!

Everyone and their momma heard that!

You could see Billies smile growing from the reaction.

"Oh really now?"

Billie turned in the direction the scream came from. Which so happens to be behind me so Billie has to move so it looked like we got closer.

"Holy shit!" "PERIOD!" "Y'all can have my kids!"

This fucking show turned into a shit fest reeeeal fast!

"Guys! We are good! We can't just kiss like that!"

Billie explains as she backs up more, her arm still around me loosely.

I let out a sigh in relief.

"But before we go," She holds the mic up to me.

"You got anything to say?" She asks.

"I hope that whoever knew about me coming up here and shitting my pants has to drink dog shit!"

People were fucking dying, some were choking from laughing. Tomato, tamoto.

"Oh yeah?" Billie says into the mic, her face just inches away from mine.

"I guess I have to eat dog shit then,"

"I hope you do!" I fight back.

Billie smirks.

"Don't make me kiss you," She teases.

"Like you would ever even think about it!

In your dreams O'Connell!"

"Using last names now?"

"I guess we are,"

I slowly move my head so that our noses are touching ever so slightly.

"I bet you won't even look into my eyes."

Billie said.

"But guess what I will do,"

"What?"

Billie asks.

I put my hands on the sides of her head as I close the gap between us. Our lips connected.

Oh, you should of heard the crowd!

They fucking died! Like actual death!

Even though I wanted to punch her right in the face for all those times she left me all I really wanted right now was to keep kissing her.

"Alright that's enough you two!" Finneas said jokingly, his voice booming through.

We pulled apart and I thought I couldn't get any more red then I was when I first saw this crowd.

I look up to see Rich with his jaw on the FLOOR!

"Can I see this?" I asked a shocked Billie.

She just nods her head as I grab the mic from her.

"I got on this stage before I died Rich!"

I say into the mic. His smile was priceless!

"Wooo!" I shout as I dance around the stage like I didn't just kiss Billie and leave her stuck in place.

I just think peoples brains stopped working. That's what I think!

"And I'll have the mic back!"

Finneas says as he takes it from me.

"Hey!" I shout.

He ignored me and said,

"Thank you guys! The shows over now! We love you all!"

And here goes the shouts and screams once again.

Billie goes near Finneas.

"L-Love you guys!" She waves and smiles at the crowd.

I make my way off stage with Billie and Finneas.

Rich then comes dashing over and next thing I knew I was embraced by a blue haired Richard!

"I missed me too bud!" I says as he continues to hug me.

He pulls away but keeps his hands on my arms.

"You just fucking went!"

His excitement was super cute.

"I know! I got to go on stage!" I play dumb with him.

Everyone looks at me as if I had eight heads.

"So kissing me didn't happen?"

Billie asks as she smirks.

"I mean, you were and are still super sweaty so. Don't know-"

"Oh shut the fuck up! You two definitely did! Everyone saw!"

Rich said.

"I can't hear you! La da da!"

I say as I cover my ears and walk away from them.

They all laugh and shake their heads

—

We made it out of the arena. The two security guards from earlier came back out to help us out.

We walk past some more fans leaving.

"y/n!"

I turn to them and wave.

"How did it feel to kiss Billie?!"

One of them screams.

"Oh it was great!"

I say as I continue walking.

We almost made it out when I can hear the doors to the arena open. Then someone running towards me.

"y/n!"

It was Billie, who else would it be?

"Go ahead guys! I'll be there in one sec!"

I say to them. They nod and walk closer to the fence exit.

"Hey!" Billie said out of breath again.

"Sup." I respond with a dry tone.

"So, about the kiss. Uhm-"

"It's all good Billie," I cut her off.

"It was just something. We all cool still?"

I ask. The hope in her eyes dimmed, her wide eyes sloped into her resting face.

"Yeah. We're all good y/n. You have my number if you need anything."

She pulled her hand up as if she was about to shake mine. Except my hand wasn't raised.

Instead Billie kissed my check and went back to the doors she ran out of.

I touch my cheek.

"Here goes my heart again." I whisper.

"Come on!" Rich says grabbing me and pulling me to the car.

—

I sit on my bed.

Touching my cheek that Billie had kissed hours ago.

Well. I hate to say it. But. I really think we could be something.

Maybe those times weren't the right time before.

Those times were preparing us for what we have to deal with.

What I do know is that I'm in love with her.

I, y/n y/l/n, am in love with Billie O'Connell.

I am pretty sure that she feels the same way. Do I have a good chance that I'll be played again? Yes.

Do I think she changed since coming out? Of course!

So who really knows until you do it. Right?

hey bil,

can you come over? i gotta talk with you...

😉

billie. come on....

i can't really move anywhere. so yes.

K,

okay daddy, whatever you say!