I'm in deep shit aren't I?

The door to Billies room opens more behind me, making me jump a mile.

"You guys can stop bullying her now. Daddy's here!" Billie says with a smirk. Both of her friends rolled their eyes at the green rooted shorty. My face instantly lights up.

"Yeah right. Miss submissive." Drew says under her breath. "I heard that! And shut the fuck up!" Billie sasses.

Bil goes over to Drew and whispers something in her ear. Or at least tied to because I heard everything. Something along the lines of she didn't want me knowing she was submissive, even though it was obvious, but she was persistent on me "not knowing" she was a big bottom- anyways!

"Okay so what do you bitches wanna do?" Drew said as she went over to Billies bed and laid down. Then Billie went over and sat on Drew's lap. I don't get uncomfortable because when me and Billie were something she always said they were friends, so why would I get worried about anything.

"Well there's actually one more person, but I guess they are a little late." Zoe responds to Drew. Billie eyes Zoe down, "Yeah." Bil shifts in her seat she made on Drew.

"Well don't be shy y/n, sit somewhere. We don't bite. We were just messing with you anyways." Drew says.

I smile slightly and take a seat on the ground next to Zoe.

"Can someone help me out here!" A voice said outside the room. Billie and Drew look at each other with smiles then bolted to the door and went out at lightning speed, slamming the door behind them.

"What was that?" I ask Zoe. "Oh it's Josh, the person that was late." She responds. "Oh, okay."

I shift my position and put my legs up to my chest, my eyes going to the red tinted floor. "You more shy around new people, aren't you." Zoe states. I lift my head up to her, meeting her stare.

"I guess you could say that." Zoe shakes her head.

The wood slab opens once more, almost hitting me. Zoe acts fast and lays across me catches it with her hand after it swung. Her other hand on my shoulder.

"Watch it, will ya? We need her alive!" She shouts at the friend group. They don't pay attention as they all sit on the bed.

"you okay there y/n?" Zoe asks me as she's now right next to me, her hand remaining on my shoulder.

"Yeah i'm okay, just startled me that's all." she nodded her head as she sat on the floor again, this time closer to me.

"Zoe! It's so nice to see you again!" A tall-ish man by the name i'm guessing is Josh.

"Hey Josh." Zoe says. They remain having heavy eye contact before Zoe says, "You guys almost hit y/n with the fucking door."

Josh just shrugs as Drew looks at me with guilt.

"Sorry y/n, didn't know you were there." Billie pipes up. "Yeah, sorry." Drew says.

I just nod my head as I take out my phone.

The three go back to the conversation like it was nothing while the only two people on the floor stay quiet.

I felt a tap on my shoulder. I look over to Zoe and she had her hand extending towards me, and nodded her head towards the door. I took it.

Zoe lifted me up, and took me out of the room, bringing me out to another door, leading me outside.

Zoe then takes me to a little bench and we sit.

"Sorry about Billie acting all weird. Same with Drew." Zoe apologizes. "It's okay. I mean me and Bil did break up, so going back to normal would be fast. And I don't expect anyone in that house to love me." Zoe chuckles as I smile.

"I don't think anyone hates you. Billie was a dick to you! No wonder you broke up with her."

"Well I still want to be with her, it's just hard when she blatantly cheated on me. Then I don't know how to feel."

Zoe nods her head in agreement. "I know she still loves you. Whenever we talked all that I heard from her mouth was your name. Billie doesn't know how to handle it well, I'll tell you that."

"I kinda guessed with the things I heard her do when we were apart for the first time."

I stare off into the distance as I remember it like it was yesterday.

"Billies really special to me. And I don't want to see her hurt. Even if what she did to me was out of love and she didn't mean it to get that way, she still did it. I just want to be with her, but god it doesn't feel right to give her so many chances like this. It's like she has her whole life is messed up and she's trying to fix it again, but it's just not working."

I let out a shaky breath, not even realizing I let out a tear. Zoe takes her hand and places it against my cheek, wiping away the tear with her thumb....

The way Billie did in the hotel with my runaway eyelash, the same electric shock coming back. Making me relive the moment even more.

Zoe moves away from me, sitting her position like before.

"Maybe," she cuts herself off. She sighs.

"Maybe you guys weren't meant to be together right now. With how hectic Billies life is right now it's hard to have a stable relationship. So with how highly you both talk about each other you obviously love each other, but maybe it's not good to be in a relationship right now. Maybe waiting for both of you to live your life and experience certain things will help you be closer later, and be fully happy and not worried if she will cheat on you out of love."

"So your saying that me and Billie shouldn't be together right now. But maybe in the future we will be better

together?" I respond, "exactly." She says fast.

"Oh.......maybe."

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