My heart was beating fast. What was breathing in that moment? All I know is that it was gone.

"What the fuck was that for?!"

"You can't possibly think this is how to do it!"

"What are you talking about for once?"

"Nah."

"I'm not letting you cheat just to be selfish."

"Oh fuck you,"

"Go fuck yourself, you selfish bitch! I would never backstab one of my best friends.

And if you think I'm going to now, you're wrong."

"No! And I can smell the alcohol breath from here. Get a mint, whore."

"And what is that supposed to mean?"

"..."

"Just fuck off, Billie.

You are intoxicated, and I don't want to talk to you anymore.

Because you obviously can't fucking think while like this."

And that's when I woke up from that nightmare. Again.

That scene playing in my head, over and over again of Billie, cracked off her ass, spewing such hateful words!

That I took in. I was just fucking sitting there, taking it, because I knew I shouldn't fight back with such high reputation she has over her head. That reputation, shes wearing it like a jeweled crown from the fucking queen herself.

I really hate what she said to me. And I have every right to hate her. But I don't.

I can't hate anyone. I can't hate Grayson, and I can't hate Billie. I dislike Grayson with a burning passion, but I am just upset with Billie at the moment. I just don't want to blame her for something she did when she wasn't even thinking properly. Its not right, or even fair in my book.

I can't even look at her if she were to pop up in this room right now. Billie has said things that make me feel embarrassed for her. That if she were to look at me that I could feel the guilt and embarrassment from Billie herself.

And it sucks to want to tell her everything is okay, especially since it's her birthday soon, but she can't be let off the hook like that. We need to learn some lessons in life for a better outcome in the end. And I feel that this is one of them for Billie. And she should be treated as if it was a lesson to be learned, and then move forward from it. But the point needs to be set and met before any friendships start up again.

And that's final.