"If I can't have them I hurt, so I gave up, also I don't do labels...what about you?"

I've only been talking to Billie for a few weeks and every time I think we're flirting or getting somewhere,

she asks random questions, then we start talking about that instead. Fuck! It's Friday so I don't have to worry about her distracting me during school and also it's spring break....but that's not important.

I want her, and I just can't. I can't hold her, tell her how I feel about us, the way she just makes

me feel inside if she does ANYTHING......even if we were something we are still

far away from each other. California to Florida (or the other way around)

are very time consuming travels.

I just sit at my desk thinking of so many things that could be happening if I didn't get lucky and talk with

Billie fucking Eilish.

The blue haired girl said thru the phone.

You said sitting up more in your chair.

you say looking at your phone screen, red in the face.

Bil asks with her arms crossed looking at the camera.

Dang....she looked hot. ANYWAY!

You say scooting closer to the desk with your chair.

Bil let out a little giggle and started talking,

after she said that you seemed

excited with a smile but it soon faded

realizing where you lived and where she lived.

you say looking at her You say

pulling your hood up

She said laughing

she said mocking

on how I said my home state.

Is this, Really, happening. Did she ask you to spend a WEEK with her.

Is all you can say before your sister burst into your room, looking down at her phone.

You say hanging up the phone and locking it so she didn't see the name.

Sarah looked up from her phone confused "who were you talking to?" She said still looking

lost to what just happened.

"Oh it was nothing, no one." You say putting your blue phone in your hoodie pocket.

"Suurree" She said squinting at me. "Well what were you going to show me! You just don't

barge into peoples rooms with no reason" You say annoyed standing up walking towards

her with your arms crossed. "Here" She said handing you the phone. You look at

it and you're mortified, it's the music video, "you should see me in a crown" and I'm

pretty everyone knows the scene I saw.

"Nope!" You say flinging Sarah's phone on your bed and backing up. "Heeyyy" She said whining

"Be more carful, jeez" She said pouting.

"You know I have really bad fear of spiders you bitch!" You say punching her in the shoulder

"Ouch y/n, she's your girlfriend so I thought you saw it" she said, god Damn her and her sly jokes but this is not

the time for this bull shit. "1. She's not my girl 2. Even if she was I still wouldn't

watch it". "OnEe shEs nOt mY gIrL! TWooO!" My sister says mocking me. "Ok I get it!"

Turns out you guys just ended up fighting about the situation to where you think the neighbors

heard the argument.

"GIRLS!" Your mom said from down stairs, "STOP FIGHTING YOU LITTLE SHITS

OR ILL COME UP THERE AND WHOOP BOTH OF YOUR ASS'S" she says walking away from the stairs and

I'm guessing to were she was before.

"Thank you sooo much for starting this" I say as I push her out of my room, "Well I didn't

continue to talk back, we could have ended the conversation" she hissed back.

"Well obviously I can't just speak back what I feel is right in this house!" I shout, tears rolling

down my cheeks and I can feel them heating up. Before my sister can take a good look at me I slam my door.

Ever since I could talk my parents always thought I was talking back, or

they wouldn't listen to things I had to say. There also big homophobes so I didn't

come out to them, but my sister was always supportive of me, as we grew up

we just been bickering more and more, always loved her but she made me feel

all the emotions with my parents come down all at one time. That night I just sat and cried all night.

Maybe I should go to see Billie and forget my parents for a few days. Sorry can't save me now.

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