I've tried talking to Jack this week but he's been avoiding me. Every day, he's avoiding me more and every day it's making me more sad and annoyed. I mean, I get that he's angry with me but it's been a week. The least he could do is talk to me by now. We'll still be friends. Right?

I really miss him and our talks and our jokes. Basically everything. I just want everything to be the way it was. Is it too much I'm asking for?

I'm walking down the hall and see Jack. He tries to turn around but I've had it. I run towards him, ignoring all the stares.

"Jack stop," I say loudly but he ignores me, walking even faster now. Stepping im front of him, I rest my hand on his chest, stopping him finally.

He looks at me, hurt and disappointment in his eyes. I back down a bit, removing my hand off of his chest. "W..hat?" His voice breaks and tears gather in his eyes. My heart aches for him. I shouldn't have done what I did.

"Can- can we talk?" I stutter and he sighs.

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Please, Jack. I miss you," I cry out and he closes his eyes.

"Meet me at my dorm after school," and with that he leaves. Huge wave of relief washes over me.

The day passes by slowly, because of my anticipation of seeing him. And Luke wasn't at school, so it was pretty boring. I wonder where he went. Dylan too! He sometimes just disappears somewhere with him and they're gone for such a long time. When I ask him about it, all I get is a "don't worry about it."

I'm guessing Luke won't be back until later at night, so there won't be any problems with me being in Jack's room.

As the day goes by, I can't help myself but to look at the clock every three minutes. When the last bell rings, I run outside, straight to Jack's dorm. He's already there, since his classes ended earlier than mine. He looks the way he's looking the entire week - exhausted.

And cold apparently, due to his long sleeves he's always wearing.

He signals me to sit next to him. I close the door and do so. Sighing, he looks at me, "so.. what 'cha wanna talk about?" he gives me such a bad fake smile it hurts.

"Us."

He chuckles, shaking his head, "let me guess. You wanna get back with me because Luke left you huh? I know I'm just a second choice to you, Emma. And that's all I'll ever be."

I'm taken aback. Is that what he thinks he is? Because he couldn't be more wrong. I mean at least I think so?

"What? No! I just want us to be best friends again," I stand up, resting my hands on my hips. He's really taking this too far. I could never use him or have him as my second choice. I just want us to be besties again.

"Really? So you're telling me if that dick decided that he doesn't wanna be with you anymore, you wouldn't run to me?" I remain silent. He has a point here.

"That's what I thought," he chuckles and places his palms on his face, exhaling. "Look, I'm not mad at you. I couldn't be. Ever. I'm just disappointed. And as you know I do like you. A lot. And it'll be hard for me to be just friends with you right now. I just need some time before we're back acting like it never happened so Luke won't find anything out."

How does he know about Luke not knowing about this? He knows me really well. Better than anyone. Whenever we go out I don't have to tell him what I want to eat because he just knows me so well and orders for me.

"So you won't tell him?" I ask him.

"Of course not," he smiles softly, getting up. He hugs me, "you're still my Emmy, you know," he kisses my forehead. The butterflies are still there. I'm with Luke so this shouldn't be happening right now.

I sigh, hugging him back and leave the dorm.

I can't believe he thinks that way of me. Maybe I was with him because I wanted to forget about Luke but that doesn't mean he's my second choice. He's my best friend and it's best for both of us if it stays that way. I love him too much to lose him.

I take a bus to Luke's apartment and when I walk in, he's there looking furious. Sitting on the couch with his arms crossed on his chest, I can see he's been waiting for me for a while.

I slowly walk in and he looks up at me. "Would you like to share where were you?" He growls and I step back, afraid. I really don't wanna fight with him. Not when we barely got back together.

"I-I was talking to Jack about his brother," I stutter. I decided to lie about the 'Jack and I being together kind of' thing so I made up a story about his brother getting into a car crash. I know it's terrible but I had to say something that would make sense in Jack's bad mood.

"That fucker," he growls to himself but I hear him. I roll my eyes.

"What? What's your problem? His brother got into an accident and you're here, telling me I can't be there for my best friend?" I snap back. He has no right to tell me what to do. He still does but oh well.

"It seems to me like you're hiding something from me. And it seems like he's been avoiding you ever since we got back together," he stands up, looking terrifying.

He really scares me sometimes. But it also turns me on a bit. It's weird.

"Sure Luke. I'm always hiding something from you, aren't I?" I step closer to him, pushing him. He looks confused at my act. "I'm not the one with a secret past now am I?" I push it even further.

I know I shouldn't be bringing it up but still, all I know is that his dad died. That's all he ever told me. If he can tell me he loves me than he can tell me about his past.

He freezes and his eyes turn cold. "Leave," is all he says and turns around. "And don't come back. Not today," he adds and with that, he leaves the room. Just like that, the conversation was over. All I heard a after that was how he shut the door to his room. Sighing, I leave because I know how stubborn he is and won't let this go.

Maybe I did take it a bit too far but he had it coming. And it's not like I lied about anything I said. If he doesn't trust me enough then why is he with me?

Walking around a bit, I think where I could sleep. Honestly, I don't wanna sleep in my dorm. I hate it and can't stand it ever since V died. There's too many memories there.

I could sleep at Dean's. He's nice enough to let me crash at his place right? With that I start walking to his place.

I take a deep breath and knock on his door. After 5 seconds he opens it wearing only his underwear. I gasp, covering my eyes. "I'm sorry," he laughs, putting some pants on. When I look back at him, I can still see his abs but it's better now. I guess? At least his dick isn't out for me to see.

"What is it?" He asks me, leaning on the door.

I try not to look at his attractive body, "uhh.. I was thinking if I can sleep here. I can't stand being in my dorm because of-" "it's okay. I know what you mean and yes you can stay over," a smile paints on his face and I nod, thanking him.

I seat myself on the couch and he sits next to me, "so why aren't you at Luke's?"

Luke, Luke, Luke. Everything is always about Luke. I just wanna go a day without talking about him. Or thinking about him. But here I am thinking about him like I always do. You're such a moron Emma!

I'm not that mean to tell him that it's none of his business, so I tell him, "we got into a fight and he told me to leave." I look down at my feet when Dean grabs my chin and lifts my head up.

"Hey. It'll all be okay. You're welcome to stay here for as long as you want to," he smiles and I nod, hugging him. When I try to move away from the hug he won't let me, "just a little bit longer," he says and I chuckle nervously.

After approximately five more seconds he lets me go and we watch a movie. The entire time I couldn't get Luke or Jack out of my head. I'm just hoping that Luke won't be mad anymore tomorrow and that soon Jack and I will be able to hang out. It will be hard though. Luke doesn't trust Jack with me alone. Him knowing about what we did would ruin everything.

"I think I'm gonna go to sleep," I tell him and he nods, saying that he's sleepy too. I head to my room and close the door. Sitting on the bed, I close my eyes, thinking about everything again - the way I acted towards Luke, the things I did to Jack, if I'm even supposed be at Dean's.

I uncover the bed and gasp.

Are those my panties?

The ones that Nicki took from me?

The ones that caused me being called all those names?

All this time, Dean had them. He's the one responsible for my humiliation. And I was so angry at Luke. All that because of him. And then he dares to act like nothing happened and hugging me - hell being friends with me? I take them and storm out of the room into his.

"What the fuck is this?" He's in his underwear again but I don't care. How can he be such a dick?

"Emma, I-I can explain-" "don't," I cut him off.

"I just wanna know, why?"

He looks at me sheepishly, "Nicki made me do it, saying that you wouldn't want to be with Luke anymore and that's how I'll be able to be with you. I didn't know you'll be called all those names," he confesses.

"That doesn't make up for this shit!" I yell at him and he backs away.

"Emma please, I'm sorry. I'd take it all back if I could," he cries out.

"You're only sorry because I found out," I spit and leave the room. Getting my bag, I leave the apartment, ignoring Dean's pleads for me to stay.

Why is everyone so fake? What's next? Am I gonna find Nicki in Luke's room if I go back to his apartment? I don't even know what else to do. I lost V, Aarya, I thought dean was my friend and now I'm close to losing Jack too.

Jack!

I could stay at his dorm. Or would that be too weird? He told me a few hours ago that he needs time. I probably shouldn't. But my other choices are Luke or the depressing dorm of mine. So let's say I'm willing to risk it.

I walk to the NYU and towards his dorm. I get to his door and then turn around 3 times before finally getting the courage to knock. When I do, no one answers, so I open the door. The moment I walk in, Jack walks out of his bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist.

When I see him I almost faint.

"Jack..w-what is that?" A tear rolls down my face.

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Ahhh finally the chapter update! This is the longest I have taken to update and I'm sorry but the tests are still coming in and aren't planning on stopping. But I do hope you liked the chapter even if they're a bit shorter than usual.

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