It's been a month and a half, since V was raped and has died. One of the longest months of my life. Honestly, the first week I didn't go to school. The second one, I cut everyone off, my grades were dropping, because I didn't study, or do any work whatsoever. I didn't really care about school or anything. I just couldn't stop thinking about V, and how it's all my fault. How she would've been much better without me. Not that it matters anymore, since she's freaking dead.

Luke was on the verge of breaking up with me. I didn't sleep at his place anymore, nor go out with him. We barely talked in school, and when school was over I went straight to my dorm, locking myself in and not letting anyone inside. Luke has tried getting in a few times, almost knocking the door down, but he gave up eventually. Sometimes, he would try to catch up with me, but I was quickly in my dorm. In classes, I sat far away from him. His gaze was always on me, but I didn't even notice, nor care. One day, I've had it and I asked him for some space. He agreed but didn't quite stick to it. I saw him creeping around me all the time. We're better now though. I'm better. I still miss her, but I'm feeling better. I started sleeping at Luke's again, going out with him, sitting next to him in class, talking to him.

Jack has tried talking to me but I didn't wanna talk to anyone. I knew he had a hard time too, but at least he was able to talk to people. He was so much stronger than me. It's probably because he knew it's not his fault. The fact that she's dead because of me, is eating me up. I can barely live with myself. If it weren't for Luke and Jack, I'd probably still be locked in my dorm, not doing anything.

Dean too, wanted to talk to me, hang out with me, but Luke then almost beat him up. I didn't have any wishes talking to him though.

And let's not even talk about Dylan. He was so devastated, that he didn't go to school for three weeks. Luke was visiting him alone at first and I joined him after a week or so. His bags under his eyes were so big, you could probably fit a whole wallet in them. He too, is blaming himself for her death. I was angry with him at first for doing that to her, but I decided not to hold any grudges, especially not now. I feel bad for him. Even though he cheated, I think that he really loved her and was just confused, when the girl was seducing him.

It was absolutely horrible, that week. I'm kind of coping with it right now, still going to her grave twice a week. I go alone, since I feel awkward if there's anyone with me.

The dreams are still here. I'm not sleeping, at all. They're getting worse and worse. Now I'm seeing her being raped to.. so that's fun. It breaks my heart, just at the thought of how terrible her last moments on earth were. At least she's at a better place now, not having to live with all the trauma that would come after all this.

They're searching for the guy that did it. That hurt her in a way no one should be hurt. I hope he gets locked up and rots in the cell forever. Damn, I really wish for that to happen. For him to get what he deserves. To die in that cell. To hurt in that cell, like V did. I want him to feel every ounce of pain she did.

"Hey, Em, you okay?" Luke awakens me from my thoughts, by nudging me slightly. We're watching the new episode of Supernatural and eating Doritos. I love these kind of nights. They help me a lot with my stress, especially now. Luke's ribs are much better and so is his leg. I'm happy there weren't any complications.

"Yeah, just thinking," I smile and he shifts, so he's looking at me now. Grabbing my chin, he whispers, "hey, stop beating yourself for it. It's not your fault baby," and with that, he gives me a quick kiss and I smile, nodding. He's being such a sweetheart, and I find it funny, because he used to be such a grumpy guy.

My gaze travels back to the amazing Tv show, I love so much. It's awesome, really, how they've made 12 seasons already, and still have so many viewers and are able to keep it as amazing as it was 12 years ago. It's became a routine; me and Luke watching Sam and Dean fight monsters every Thursday. Then I sleep over. Other days - except weekends, I'm sleeping in my dorm. I haven't yet gotten a new roommate. I must admit, I miss having one. Usually, I'm bored, since I'm all alone in that dorm. Thankfully, Jack is usually there with me, on the days I'm not out with Luke.

Jack and I, cry on some days. Yeah, that's right; we sit on the bed, hugging eachother and crying. We both miss her so much. None of us went to school for a week when she died. I was rotting in my dorm, but I don't really know where he was and what he did. I didn't ask him, because I don't think he'd like to talk about that.

"Em, can you please be in this room with me and not somewhere else with your thoughts?" Luke interrupts me again, by planting a kiss on my cheek. I shake my head, getting rid of all of my thoughts, focusing on Luke. I've been drifting off like that a lot since she... yeah. And Luke's been noticing it. At first it didn't really bother him and he didn't say anything, but once he had it, making me tell him why I'm drifting off like that. Ever since then, he makes sure I'm not silently blaming myself for what happened to V.

I still am though..

Focus on Luke Emma!

As Sam and Dean investigate a murder in a museum, I slowly get up, making some tea. I love tea. I pour it into a cup (I make it in a bigger pot, so I can use it multiple times) for me and Luke, adding a spoon of honey. I carry them into the living room. Quickly, I look at the TV but sadly, it's time for commercials.

"Hey, I've been thinking," Luke says and I turn my head, looking at him now. I nod, letting him know, I'm fully listening to him. "There's a party at Josh's place tomorrow and it's Friday. I think we should go; you should go, to get your mind off of things. What do you think?" He smiles and I start thinking about it.

Josh is a friend of Luke's. Yeah you heard it, Luke has a new friend. And a good one too. Josh is a nice guy, good looking too, but dont tell Luke that I said that. I wouldn't be with him, but he has good looks, you can't deny that. Just imagine a Colby Brock. Just that his dressing style is different. He doesn't wear all black like Colby. Josh has killer parties, I must say that from what I've heard.

I mean, it's not a bad idea, to get my mind off of things, since my brain has been doing way too much thinking. I don't usually drink, but I think I should, just so I'm not able to think or do anything. Then make out with Luke or something. That could be my plan for tomorrow after work.

"I think.. that's a great idea," I smile and Luke nods, hugging me. Of course, we almost spill our tea on the couch. As we laugh at our clumsiness, the commercial break ends and Sam and Dean are already back, trying to get rid of the ghost that used to be on this old ship.

When it ends, we watch some YouTube videos together and go to sleep at about 11PM.

Of course, I get up first and have to wake Luke up too. I gently nudge him but nothing happens. I don't want to push him too hard, since his ribs are still not the way they used to be. So I get up, seating myself on his thighs, rubbing his shoulders, "Babyyy, wake up," I say in my most seductive voice. He then, finally wakes up, locking me in position with his hands on my hips. Then, he lifts me up, seating me on his business, "better," he murmurs slowly in a deep, husky voice, making me feel all sorts of things down there.

"Good, you're awake," I smile, getting off of him. He groans and covers his head with a blanket, "no I'm not. Now do what you just did, again," he says and I laugh. He can be so cute sometimes. I pull the blanket off of him, revealing his hot abs. I stop and stare a bit, grateful that these abs are all mine to touch.

"Enjoying the view?" Luke says and poses like a model. I laugh but still stare at him. He then gets up, giving me a hug and a kiss on my forehead. I smile at the gesture, walking to the bathroom to wash my teeth, get dressed and all that stuff. When I'm done, I wait for Luke to do the same. Then, he drives with me to school, like our Fridays usually go.

When we get there, Josh quickly attacks Luke with questions such as, " so are you coming? Is she going with you? When are you coming? Any specific alcohol drinks you'd like to have there? Any specific music?" And yada yada yada.

We then walk to our first class. Fridays are my favourite days, not just because it's Saturday tomorrow, but because Luke and I have all the same classes, which means I won't be bored. Jack was transferred into some of my classes too, but he doesn't have any with Luke, thankfully. They really don't like eachother. Luke hates Jack since he thinks he likes me, which I find ridiculous. Jack hates Luke because he thinks Luke will play me just like all the other girls, which Is also ridiculous. Luke literally cried in front of me, opened up to me and I know for a fact, he only did that with Dylan and me. I still haven't met his parents, which he said I will after he's ready to tell me the whole story of what happened.

The periods before lunch pass by quickly. There are 5 of us sitting at a table; Luke, Jack, Dylan, Josh and me. Yes I know it looks like I'm a whore, looking for attention with all of these hot boys around me, but I promise I'm not. I get all kinds of weird looks every day, since my company are boys only now, but I don't care. They're pretty funny. Of course Jack and Luke sit as far away from eachother as possible. The boys always have the weirdest kind of debates.

"To be honest you guys, Mrs Brown has a nice fucking ass," Josh states, making me cringe. Sure, Mrs Brown isn't an old lady, (She's around 30) but still I don't really wanna talk about that.

"Naw man, Mrs Johnson has the best one," Jack opposes Josh. They get in a heated argument about who's butt is better.

"The way your hands could just grab it and squeeze it so nicely.. you have no idea what I'd do to her," Jack says, making me cringe. That's getting really nasty really fast, so I get up, and go outside, to wait for Luke. After a few minutes he's outside too. "Why did you leave?" He asks, concerned. I really don't know why he's so concerned.

"The conversation was getting nasty," I chuckle and he nods, agreeing with me.I get on my toes, kissing him, "They're so weird," I chuckle and he wraps his arms around me, kissing me back, "Yeah, they are," he smiles. "So I'm picking you up after work, right?" Luke asks me, fidgeting with my fingers.

"Actually, Jack is going too and since he's working with me he can just drive me," smile, but he shakes his head. "Under no condition is he driving you anywhere," he states and the tone of his voice tells me that that's final.

We both go our ways. Me to my dorm, Luke to his apartment. I sometimes think about how it would be if we lived together-

Slow down Emma.

I warn myself, quickly getting the thought out of my head.

I check the time and it's 2PM. My shift starts in an hour, which means I have just enough time to go to my dorm, choose what I'll wear at the party, get dressed into my uniform and go to the cafe. With that, I rush to my dorm, I rush to my dorm to get ready.

I open my closet, looking inside, having no idea what to wear. As I go through the entire closet, I realize I have nothing to wear.

Well shit. What do I do now?

Then a thought appears in my head.

Luke could get a dress for me.

I mean, why not? His style is pretty good and by now he knows what looks best on me. I just have to text him my size and give him some money when he buys the dress. I truly am a genius. I call him and he agrees on buying me a dress since he can "make sure that it's appropriate" and "not showing too much skin" and "not too tight."

Ugh. Men.

I quickly get dressed and when I'm about to leave, I hear a knock on my door. Wondering who it is, I walk up to the door and open it. To my surprise, it's Jack. "Hey," I smile, hugging him. "What are you doing here?" I ask him and he smiles, "well I'm driving you to work, what else would I be doing here? I'm not here to fuck you. Maybe some other time," he winks and I snort. His comments always get me. I grab my bag and follow him to his car.

"Emma what did I tell you about driving with him?" I hear a deep voice behind me. I turn around and see Luke, angry a bit. I give him an innocent smile, "It's just a drive to the cafe. It's like 5 minutes," I defend myself, making Luke even more angry. "I don't like you spending time with him," he growls and Jack steps in, making everything worse. "She can spend time with anyone she wants, Luke. She's not your property," he hisses at him.

"Actually, she does belong to me," Luke narrows his eyes at Jack. This is really not a good time for him to fight with anyone, since his leg is still not fully healed and neither are his ribs.

"Luke, I really don't like you going all caveman on every guy that even tries to talk to me," I sigh and he clenches his fists, as I continue, "besides, It's just a 10 minute drive. Relax. If you think that I'll cheat on you, then I don't know what you're doing, still being with me," I roll my eyes and with that, get into Jack's car.

The first few minutes were quiet and then I start my rant, "how can he demand that I don't hang out with you anymore? Who does he think he is? Sure, he's my boyfriend but he has no right to ask that from me. And don't get me started on his caveman attitude!" I roll my eyes and Jack places his hand on my thigh, making me flinch a bit. "Calm down Emmy," he smiles, squeezing my thigh.

He keeps his hand there for the rest of the ride. I didn't mind though. We're friends and some things that we've done are a lot worse - sleeping in the same bed - than him holding my thigh.

When we arrive, we're just on time. I get to being a shitty waiter and Jack is the one preparing food and drinks for me to deliver. "Hey Emmy, look at this," he smirks and I turn around, looking at him now. He grabs three cups, juggling with them. I laugh at his focused expression and some people clap. When he stops, he bows down and people are cheering for him.

"I think I deserve a kiss for that, Emmy," he smirks and I laugh. People start shouting at me, telling me to do it. I roll my eyes, kissing him on the cheek as usual. Some of them groan, since they thought I'd kiss him on the lips and others cheer. "I have a boyfriend," I say to the ones thar were disappointed. "Well you should be with him," an older man says and I laugh. "We're besties," I smile, hugging Jack. When I look at him, there's some strange emotion in his eyes but it disappears quickly.

"Yeah.. besties," he smiles, hugging me back.

We get back to work and with Jack messing around, me talking to people, the day goes by fast. Before I know it, It's 8PM. I see Luke in the car outside, waiting for me. When he sees me, he gets out of his car and opens his arms, waiting for me to hug him. I look at him weirdly, since I thought he'd be angry, but hug him still.

"I got you a dress. In the store I looked at it and knew it would look good on you," he smiles and pulls out a dress out from the backseat.

When I see it, I gasp. It's a beautiful black dress, laced at the top. It has no sleeves and it reaches down to my knees, longer at the back than at the front. I smile, kissing Luke, "It's beautiful. I love it!" I squeal, jumping on him. I wrap my legs around his waist and he chuckles, hugging me back.

"You and the other guy would look better together," I hear a male voice behind me. I get off of Luke, turning around to see who it is. It's the same older man from the cafe. He winks and before I know it, he's walking away from us. Luke is glaring at his back, but I grab his cheeks with my hands, turning his head to face me. I kiss him on the nose, thanking him once more.

"Oh, how much did the dress cost?" I stop, before getting into the car. I'm not letting Luke pay for that. He pretends that he didn't hear me and seats himself in the car. I get in, repeating the question but he turns up the volume of the radio, singing along to Justin Bieber's Baby. I cringe at the song, turning the radio off.

"How much did it cost?" I'm losing patience now. If he doesn't answer I'm jumping out of this car. Not even joking.

"None of your business," he smirks and looks back at the road. I draw my eyebrows together, "tell me!" I whine but he shakes his head. It's no use fighting with him. He always wins. It's not fair.

Idiot.

We arrive to the party and Luke lets me get dressed in the back seat. He was arguing with me to look at me, but when I stated that he should be making sure no one else looks at me, he immediately got out of the car and looked around. I laughed at him and got dressed. I also saw that he bought me a pair of matching black heels. I put them on and step out of the car. Luke grabs my hips, "fuck you're beautiful," he whispers into my ear, making me shiver. He pushes me on the car, kissing me slowly. "Slow down cowboy. We just came here. We'll have plenty of time to do this," I laugh and he whines. "I can't help myself. You're so fucking sexy Em," he growls into my ear. I smile nervously and grab his hand, pulling him behind me into the house.

I look around and see drunk teenagers doing weird shit already. There are two of them humping a bench. A freaking bench! I laugh at them.

This will be an interesting night.

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Ahh so the chapter is a bit longer than usual and I'll try to write longer chapters in the future. Probably about a thousand words longer than this one.

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