It was already late and just like these past two weeks, I'm still working. Why? I don't know...

The thought of going home doesn't make me feel anything anymore. It's like the normal same routine, and with same routine, came the same thought. Its was all my fault...

"Let's go home, Y/N."

Y/N. Another change in my life was that, Jungkook would call me by my name whenever he'd feel really annoyed or mad at me for acting the way I am and sometimes I feel like I'm doing this on purpose. It's like a fucked up way to get his attention but why? His attention was always on me.. No matter what I do, wherever I am, he'd always be there.

I hummed in reponse and packed my stuffs.

We drove back home silently. It's been days, I refused to go on dinner dates or any trips or outing that Jungkook planned and I know it hurt him, maybe this is why I feel like I need some space, distance, I just need to be away from him, for some reason.

"I'm going to mom's place tomorrow." I announced suddenly.

Jungkook's car stops as the signal goes red.

"Why?" his voice sounds as if he is in pain.

" They are going to Singapore and asked me if wanted to come with them. I agreed."

"They- we" he moistens his lips before asking. "Without me?"

"I just want some time away from all of this-"

"You mean some time away from me?"

"I did not say that -"

"But this is exactly where you're heading to."

His grips tighten on the wheel.

"When?"

I looked at him confusingly.

"I mean when is the flight?" He asked.

"Tomorrow, in the afternoon."

"No need to go to your mom's for that, I'll drop you at the airport."

"Don't be stupid, Kook. You are going to be at work, I wouldn't want you to leave-"

"I am allowed to take some time off for my wife. I'm going to drop you at the airport tomorrow, and it's final. Please just.. Just don't argue with me on this, Y/N."

"Okay" I muttered.

We haven't exchanged any other words after this, and once home, we were just on our own.

I know he didn't like the idea of me going to Singapore without him, but he wouldn't insist with me. This is probably how much he loves me, he'd let me do anything I want to just to make me feel better,but these days nothing really is.

I've been feeling worse and maybe it's because I'm neglecting everything, from myself to my relationship with him.

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" Did you umm take your passport?"

"Yup."

"Umm what about your uh your phone charger?"

"I did."

"Hmm.. And umm a cardigan or something? It's pretty cold during the flight -"

"Jungkook. I'm fine. Okay? It's not my first time travelling, besides, my parents are going to be there with me."

"I'm just.. I'm just" He sighs. "When are you going to be back?"

"I don't know, the flight tickets are with mom."

"Okay.. Uh let me know when you land hmm?"

"Yeah I will.."

He parks the car as we reached the airport and I was about to get out of the car when I suddenly felt Jungkook's hand on mine. I looked up at him.

"Don't go.." He said as his lips quivered. "Please don't go.."

"Jungkook.."

"I badly want to tell you that but I can't stop you.. I don't know what's going on in your little head these days or how have you been feeling. For weeks, I've been trying so hard.." His tears roll down his cheeks. "I've been trying really hard for both of us, just promise me you'll be back, please? Just tell me that this isn't you leaving me?"

"Jungkook, this is.. This is just a trip with my parents and I, I'll be back soon, I hope. I just, I just need to get away -"

"From me? Tell me what I did wrong, Love? Tell me, I'll fix everything. We'll work this out together. Let's talk about everything, about whatever is messing you up. Please. I'm here, I'm always here for you, don't, just don't ignore me like this, it's breaking me. "

I look at him quietly not knowing what to say...although I can see his fear of losing me, losing us, I can't find words to assure him.

He brings my hand to his lips as he places a peck on the back of my hand and smiles weakly at me.

" Have fun and come back soon, hmm? I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle living alone for these days, Y/N, so I can't promise that you won't see me just suddenly land there for you.."

"Jungkook.." I said almost in a whisper.

"I love you.. Hmm? Whatever happened, happened. But I love you, I'll always love you." He places a kiss on my forehead before getting out of the car to help me with my baggage.

Jungkook greets my parents and wishes them safe flight before turning to me and giving me a tight hug and at this very moment, I felt like leaving him here alone even if it's just for a few days is a mistake.

"Take care of yourself, hmm?" I feel his lips on my forehead again before he pulls away and smiles at me.

The truth is I need him. I always needed him. It's not just about me, we are both very hurt and the only way to heal and move on is by having him by my side. I should take care of him just the same way he's been doing for me. How did I just let myself go weak like that?

I walk away to the gates and turn around to look at him, he's still there standing and trying to keep that smile, for me and this is when I figured out, I'm the most stupid wife in this world for pulling myself away from my loving husband like that. We've been so strong and I'm breaking us apart with my stupid behaviour and decisions.

I wave back at him as he blows a kiss to me and as I walked away, I wonder if he read my lips because this is what I've always wanted to say to him and I really hope he knows..

"Jungkook, I love you.."

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