I crossed my arms as I listened to girl's non-stop singing from the other room. I threw my head back in annoyance as I pounded my fist against the wall.

"Yah Park Soojin! Keep it down will you?!" I screamed as the strums of her guitar came to a halt.

"Sorry Misun." a muffled voice spoke as I heard her move around then exit her room.

Geez

How can someone be so goddamn annoying?

I laid my head back down onto the pillow as my mind began ticking at envious thoughts.

I thought I finally got rid of her after her shit-show of a performance last time.

But no,

That bitch decided to deceive her way into the final 8 didn't she.

I pulled on my hair as I let out angered shriek. Feeling disgusted, I made my way to the kitchen to grab a drink of water.

When I approached the fridge, I noticed a familiar head hidden behind the door.

God her not again.

I sighed outwardly as I dragged myself around the counter.

"Oh Misun I didn't see you there." the girl spoke with her mouth full of bread.

I looked at her in disgust as she took another large bite.

"Want some?" she asked ripping a piece for me to take.

"Yea no thanks." I scoffed turning down her offer and pushing the bread away from my face.

I then squeezed my way past the girl and grabbed a plastic water bottle from the fridge shelf.

How dare she try to be nice to me?

After all that playing nice and pretty to everyone else.

I see right through you Park Soojin.

For this last test I don't think you'll be so lucky.

I strutted my way back to my room with my mind full of plans to finally get rid of the girl.

***

After my previous attempt of confessing to Soojin failed, I made it a priority to try and think of a special way to tell her. I paced back and forth around my room as I scrunched my face in thought.

Wait

How about I ask one of the boys?

Commending myself for my brilliant idea, I sprinted downstairs and into the practice room. As I swung open the door, I laid my eyes upon two of my group members scuffing their faces with food.

"Jay and Jungwon, I need your help with something."

***

Jay and I dropped our snacks as we eyed the distressed boy in front of us.

"Did you manage to block the toilet again? Dammit Jake that's the second time this week!" Jay groaned as he threw his hands in the air. I watched as the boy shook his head aggressively.

"NO. And how many times do I have to say, it wasn't me for God's sake!" Jake spoke in an annoyed manner. The pissed off boy clicked his tongue before approaching us to sit down.

"Look, I need your help. I'm going to confess to someone." he spoke calmly with his eyes shut.

Jay and I froze in shock as our loud munching came to a halt.

"YOU'RE GOING TO WHAT?!" we yelled in unison as our chip bags went flying in the air. I stared blankly at the boy as my mind wondered as to how this innocent boy was growing up so fast.

"Wait- of course! It's Hitman Bang isn't it? Wait in line dude, we all think he's cute." Jay hyung spoke as I turned to him in disgust.

"Oh my God Jay, it's obviously Park Soojin. You're so annoying." I spoke with an irritated tone, fed up with his delusional self. He looked back at me with a 'what did I do?' look on his face. I rolled my eyes before focusing my attention back on the boy sitting in front of us.

"Yes. You're correct." he spoke up with a neutral expression.

All of a sudden my ears burst at an ear-piercing noise.

"SEE JUNGWON I'M RIGHT. HE DOES LIKE BANG SI HYUK."

Huffing my chest in annoyance, I moved over and smacked the older boy over the head.

"Oi stupid. He meant I was correct not you. He likes Soojin you rat." I whined at the delusional boy as it finally clicked with him.

"Ah Soojin the ace? Isn't she dating Heesung already?"

My eyes widened at Jay's insensitive comment as I turned to look at Jake. His head tilted to the side like a puppy as his brows furrowed in confusion.

"Dating Heesung? What do you mean?" he asked with uncertainty in his voice.

Before I could stop the older boy from letting another silly remark out of his mouth, he suddenly spoke the words I didn't expect.

"Didn't he tell you? Apparently Soojin and him kissed on her bed."

Jay's words were like an earthquake as I felt the atmosphere in the room suddenly change. The expression of the boy opposite us abruptly switched to one of hurt and anger.

"They did what." he spoke with ice in his tone.

"Wait hyung-" I was quickly cut off when all of a sudden the boy stood up and stormed outside the practice room.

I sighed defeated as I felt the storm of what was about to happen next. Glancing over to the hyung next to me, I shot him an icy glare.

"You're dead, Jay."

***

Stomping my feet out of the room, my head ached at my worrisome thoughts.

Soojin and Heesung kissed?

How could they do that to me?

Maybe Jay misheard and got his facts wrong.

Soojin wouldn't have done that...would she?

I have to talk to her.

Sprinting through the halls of the facility, I peeked my head into every room before finally spotting the familiar girl on the balcony. The petite figure leaned comfortably on the railing as her hair danced with the wind. Her hand was held up to her ear as she gripped onto a what looked like a phone.

Please tell me Jay was lying.

Please don't make me feel like this.

I took a deep breath before hesitantly swinging open the glass door.

"Soojin can we talk-"

My quiet whisper suddenly faded out as my ears met the sound of the girl talking out loud.

"Really? Amy got pregnant? I called it!" Soojin spoke as I soon took notice of her evident phone call. Her cute Aussie accent made my heart skip a beat.

Soojin,

The things you do to me.

Observing that she was oblivious to my presence, I took the opportunity to listen in on her conversation.

"Oh my God Jack! Don't say that!"

My face scrunched at her words as I watched her shoulders shake, giggling audibly.

Jack?

Who's that?

Is he a friend?

Or perhaps...boyfriend?

My thoughts ran wild with emotions of confusion, anxiety and jealousy.

Wait but Heesung-

Oh right that's why I came.

Almost forgetting the urgent reason why I was there, I held my breath before preparing to interrupt the girl to speak with her.

"Alright bye Jack. Miss you too." she spoke, preventing me from speaking up.

My fists clenched as I heard a faint sound of lips smacking together through her phone. I watched as the girl held the phone to her lips and gave a loud 'muah'.

I cupped my hand over my mouth as I prepared my mind for the worse.

Oh my God.

It's her boyfriend.

Feeling hurt and used, my body soon tensed in anger. My nails pressed marks into my palms as my teeth grinded up against each other. My mind flooded back to all the memories of us sharing silly conversations and intimate moments.

How could she lead me on like that?

And Heesung too?

I thought I knew her.

I guess not.

Fumes of smoke blew out of my ears as I watched the care-free girl finally hang up the call and shove her phone in her pocket. Her body swiftly whipped around to approach the door as she suddenly caught the sight of me.

"Oh Jakey! I didn't see you there, what's up?" she asked as if she had done nothing wrong.

My jaw clenched as a wave of emotions took complete control over my body. Staring at the girl's oblivious face, I took a deep breath before lashing out.

"Yah Park Soojin. I never knew you were such a bitch." I spat with hatred in every word. I felt my fists begin to shake as all the thoughts of her and Heesung, Sunghoon and now this boy Jack fell upon me at once.

"How could you be so heartless leading so many boys on like that? Behind that deceiving pretty face you're nothing but a cunning whore who likes to play with people's feelings."

I growled as I watched the girl begin to tremble in her spot, her eyes starting to water slightly.

"W-what- Jake what are you sayin-" she stuttered shakily as I forcefully cut her off.

"Here I was head over heels for you ready to confess but all of a sudden I get told that you kissed Heesung? Then when I come to ask you about it you're flirting with your secret boyfriend over the phone!" I yelled completely forgetting to speak in Korean.

All of a sudden I saw a switch in her eyes as they suddenly went from confusion to hurt.

Why is she looking like the victim?

I'm the one who was taken advantage of.

My chest heaved up and down in fury as I suddenly watched the girl opposite me erupt into uncontrollable tears. Letting go of my anger for a split second, I felt my heart tear into pieces at the scene.

I've never seen her cry like this before.

Not when Misun bullied her ruthlessly

Not when she was sent to the GROUND.

Not even when she saw me kiss someone else.

My gaze softened as I stared painfully at the grieving girl. As I watched each tear run endlessly down her cheeks I suddenly asked myself a question.

Wait. Why is she crying?

Does she feel guilty for the shit she did?

Or did I somehow misjudge her...

Refusing to even think about being wrong, I went with my first instinct and began rising up in anger and hurt again.

"I thought you were different Soojin." I spoke sternly as my tone dropped to a lower level.

"Turns out the Soojin I fell in love with was never real."

I tried my best to suppress the urge to comfort the distressed girl and instead forced myself towards the door into the house. Taking my first step, I abruptly turned back to say one last thing to the girl.

"I hope you don't make the debut group. The K-POP industry doesn't need another snake like you."

Feeling accomplished yet hurt, I stormed away from the girl, leaving her crying and alone.

***

Puddles of tears clouded my vision as my eyes followed the boy walking into the house. My head ached as emotions of confusion and pain attacked my mind. I fell onto the floor in a heap as I felt my body give up on itself.

What was he saying?

I'm a bitch and a whore because I led on the boys and have a boyfriend?

"JACK'S GAY FOR FUCKS SAKE!" I screamed into the air as I wailed my arms around.

But I guess it's not his fault because he didn't know that.

My back hit the wooden deck as i began to weep even harder remembering his other words.

I didn't even know I was leading them on.

I should've known better.

And he's right, I did kiss Heesung.

I'm such a slut.

I should've never applied for this stupid show in the first place.

Who do I think I am trying to make the debut group when I can't even be a decent human to the people around me.

Maybe Misun truly does have the right understanding of who I am.

I don't deserve to be here.

I don't deserve to perform in the finals.

And I know for sure I don't deserve to have these feelings for Jake.

I stared blankly into the sky as my thoughts wandered to home.

"I'm sorry your daughter is such a disappointment, Mum." I spoke with shaking hands and a trembling voice. I felt my chest ache as my tears began to stain my clothes.

"I miss you. I want to go home."

My sobbing became even louder as thoughts of my mum back at home made me feel home-sick. Exhausted by the sheer amount of tears I shed, I soon fell out of consciousness onto the hard wooden deck.