"and... that was my first love. i'm not sure how else to explain it," i softly said as i held the microphone close to my mouth.

the fans in the audience were all quiet and so were the other members that sat by my side. and then a fan spoke up from the crowd.

"what was her name?"

i sat there looking out into the audience trying to look for them but i couldn't. her name. her name i would never forget.

"soojin. jung soojin," i softly said.

it's been four years ever since the day she died. i had graduated and here i am now with a group of guys who were also my bestest friends. and even though, soojin wasn't here, she was always here in my heart.

and that's when i saw her smile. her eyes looked into mine as i looked back into her eyes. she mouthed the words, 'i love you.'

i love you too, soojin-ah.

please never forget that i love you so much.

soojin, my first love.