Another week has already gone by and today is the day I go for wedding dress shopping which seems so surreal when I think about it.

Theo and I did meet one more time since the engagement party. We went to a little café and just ate and get to know each other even more. It felt like a real date but that was probably just me considering I never had anything with a guy.

The reason we only met once was that he had a lot to do with work and I surprisingly did as well. The difference is that his work was for the company his dad is managing and my work was in form of wedding planing. He did say that we would have meet more if he didn't had so much to do but he had to work more than before so that everything would be ready for when we leave for our honeymoon.

We already did a lot of things for the wedding for example all the invites and what food will be served. We also decided that we will keep the decoration simple. The only thing left is the color scheme and the dress.

So now I'm getting ready for dress shopping while Mattheo has is bachelor party today. This way I won't be doing nothing while he goes out. I don't know what he does but I've read that there are almost every time stripper I don't know what to think about that so I just decided to concentrate on my dress and not Mattheo.

I just wear something casual today and don't do anything to my hair.

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Getting into the first bridal store my mom, Theos mom and I go and search for dresses with the help of a worker there.

After each of us four picked like three dresses and I go into the changing room with the worker there to help me get in the dresses.

The first one I chose to wear is in a mermaid stile with a lot of lace.

Stepping out I look into the mirror and I have to say it fits perfectly but I don't know.

„Oh my, you look so pretty, sweety" is the first thing Evelyn says after she sees me getting out.

„It's to tight and shows all the fat on your stomach don't you think." is the first thing that came into my moms mind and she just has to say it out loud not forget the disgusted look.

„What no! She is beautiful there is hardly any fat on her." the nice lady that works there comments directly looking at my mom.

„It doesn't matter I didn't like it anyway." is all I say. I mean I don't know if I really didn't liked it but it didn't make me feel special and I suppose that is what is supposed to happen so it really doesn't matter.

And with that I go into the changing room again to try on a different Dress.

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The sun is already gone by now and it is completely dark outside. We were in at least five different stores and I still didn't find the one dress for me.

Which is a problem considering the fact that I am getting married in two days.

So we will just have to go and search more and that is exactly what we are doing now. Going into the sixth store for today.

Hopefully this is the one we're I finally find a dress that makes me feel special.

The first few dresses I tried on weren't it again but the one I have on know is it. I am standing still in the changing room not wanting to get out I prepare myself for anything my mother could say because I really want this dress and I don't want my mom to make me hate it.

Finally finding the courage I take a deep breath and step out.

The first thing I hear I a gasp, turning around I see Evelyn with an open mound staring at me. Not knowing how to interpret that I start to nervously stand firm one leg to another.

„You look so gorgeous like this dress is made to be worn by you."

Seeing my mother to start opening her mouth I cut her off before she could even try to speak. „Yeah I think this is my dress I love it and I feel special in it."

„As if you could ever be special." my mother says under breath but still loud enough for everyone to hear.

With a disapproving look to her Evelyn only keeps the conversation going. „That is great sweety and exactly what it should make you feel like."

Smiling at her and then at me in the mirror i nod to myself.

„We are taking it." is all I say before my mom decides to say something more to it.

With that we go to the cashier with the worker and Evelyn pays for it.

Seeing my questioning look she just shrugs and says „See it as my wedding gift for you."

With that we go home again.

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Looking at the clock in my room I see that it is already 11 pm. Seeing as it is this late already I go to bed and fall asleep instantly. Wedding dress shopping is more exhausting that I thought it would be.

I went to sleep so fast that I didn't even could think about Mattheo and everything he possibly could have done today.