A few hours later I got myself together again and stopped crying. Not knowing what to feel I started to pick up a book out of my bookshelf and started reading to get away from my situation.

I ignored everyone that wanted to talk to me for the day, not that much people tried. It was actually just Maria to come and see if I was okay but I just told her I'm fine sending her away not wanting to talk to anybody.

I just hope that tomorrow wouldn't be that bad and that maybe just maybe I even liked him.

Which probably won't happen seeing as his dad and mine are business partner they are probably the same type of guy and considering he is his fathers son it is much likely he will be just like them. But one can hope right?

But worse what if he will not like me. What would happen when he hates me? Or even more worse does expect me to have sex with because I'm his wife? I mean I don't know how old he es but he must at least be 18 so he probably had sex and will continue to do so.

I'm a Virgin and I'm by far not ready to have sex yet but when I'm really his wife I don't want him to have sex with others. Is that weird that I don't want that?

I just hope he will take it seriously because even if we don't want to get married it doesn't mean that we can cheat. And that is what it will be, cheating.

Right now there isn't something that I can do anyway so I should probably stop overthinking and look what will happen tomorrow.

And with that in mind I got into my bathroom and made myself ready for bed.

As soon as I made the lights off and got into bed my eyes shut and sleep consumed me.