Jo'nae Mariè Andrews, NJ📍

It's been a week since I've started going to therapy and I feel so good. Physically. My mental health still isn't there yet but it'll get there.

I'm not mad at Demarcus anymore. Him and I do normal shit like going out and stuff like that. Yesterday he was picking me up from therapy when he ran into Laura. They had their own conversation but you can tell it didn't go well. But that's history now.

Today I'm going to Ashanti house to chill. I haven't had a girl time with my best friend since the incident.

"Where you goin?" Demarcus asked me while I was putting my shoes on.

"To Ashanti's house. Why?"

"Want me to drop you?"

"Nah shes picking me up."

"Did you take your pills today?"

"Yes I did."

"How you feelin? Light headed? Nauseous?"

"No. Demarcus I'm fine. Stop babying me." I said getting up.

"I'm not babying you, I'm just making sure you're okay." I walked up to him and looked him in his eyes.

"I'm okay. And I will be okay. Don't worry about me. Aight?" He nodded and pulled me in for a hug. I couldn't help but hug him back he smells so good.

We heard the front door open and close.

"Suprise Shawtyyyy." Ashanti yelled through out the house. We laughed and walked out to meet her.

"Hey hey." I said giving her a hug.

"The weather starting to feel good out there." She said after she hugged Demarcus.

"Girl you are growing!"

"I know right she's getting heavier and heavier."

"Aight ya get out." Demarcus said opening the door. Ashanti walked out and I was following her when Demarcus stopped me. He put his hands on my face to meet his eyes.

"Be safe." He said to me. "Don't hesitate to call me."

"I know. I'll be okay." He kissed my forehead and hugged me tightly.

"Okay get out." He said pushing me out the door. "Have fun."

I rolled my eyes before I met Ashanti at her car. When I got in and closed the door she was looking at me.

"What?"

"What was that all about? Ya workin it out?"

"Slowly. I still love him of course but he don't know that. He gon have to earn my trust back."

"As you should boo." She said starting the car.

We pulled into the driveway of her house and we walked in.

"Girl this place is so nice oh my god."

"Thank you, I love it here to be honest the views are everything!"

We sat on the couch in the living room and talked. I was drinking some tea and Ashanti was drinking water.

"You hungry?" She asked me.

"Yea. We should order pizza."

"I was bout to say dat. Stop reading my mind!" She said taking out her phone.

"What kind of pizza you want?"

"Let's get half and half. Half meat lover and half cheese."

"Girl you remind me of O girl. She love them meat lovers." She said scrolling the DoorDash app.

"What girl?"

"Stephanie."

"Oh!" I said putting down my tea. "I meant to tell you this but it slipped my mind. Tell me why I was leaving therapy the other day and I ran into her."

"What?" She said looking up from her phone. I nodded my head at her.

"She was walking in as I was walking out."

"Did she talk to you?"

"Yea. She said she recognized me from our pictures on Instagram."

"Oh." She said looking back down at the phone. She was quiet all of a sudden she finished ordering the food and put her phone down.

Moments later the front door opened and Jay walked in.

"Jo'naeeeeeeee." He said taking his shoes of and walking in the living room.

"Hey JayJay." I said getting up to hug him.

"How's your healing going? De told me you started therapy and shit."

"It's good. I'm moving around again feeling a little normal."

"That's wassup. How you feelin ma?" He said turning to Ashanti. She was sitting there staring into space.

"Baby." He said walking up to her. He crouched down to her face. "Bae!" He said a little louder snapping her our her daze.

"Huh? Oh hey." She said pulling him in a hug.

"You aight?" Jay said after they pulled away.

"No. Why is Stephanie in Jersey?"

"Stephanie's here?" Jay asked.

"Yes she is." Ashanti said to him.

"Well damn, I don't know. Don't let that shit stress you out though. I been thinking about something we'll talk about it later I'm going to take a shower." He kissed her cheek and left up the stairs.

"I've been planning something to." I said sitting back down next to her.

"Whatchu been planning?"

I thought for a quick second before talking again. "Actually, never mind I'll wait on that."

"You sure?"

"Yea."

We held a conversation until Jay came back downstairs and took his seat next to Ashanti. We joked around a little before the doorbell rang and Jay went to get our food.

"Where's mine?!" He said placing it down.

"You weren't even supposed to be here." Ashanti said laughing.

"Wowwwww, You gon do me like that."

We laughed as we split the pizza among each other. Once we were done De called me and told me he was passing Ashanti house and if I wanted to get picked up. I told him yea and put my phone in my pocket.

"Alright ya, I got to go." I said getting up. I hugged them both and walked to the door. I waited by the door to hear it look before I walked outside to Demarcus's car.

"Hey." I said getting in.

"Wassup ma." He pulled away from the house and started heading home.

"So, What have you planned on doing with the girls?"

"I don't know. There's not much I can do. But I do have something in mind but I need to wait on it."

"What is it?"

"Don't worry about it. This the last thing you gotta worry about right now. You need to only worry about yourself and ya health."

He pulled into the driveway of the house and we got out and walked in.

"I'm so tired." I said taking off my sweater and putting it on the hook.

"Did you have fun?!"

"Fun?!" I said looking back at him. "Chile all we did was sit and talk I had to catch up wit my bestie we ain't chop it up inna minute."

I walked around the house and started picking up little stuff that was laying around. Everywhere I went Demarcus went.

"Boy damn can I breathe." I said turning towards him.

"What?"

"Whatchu mean what? You keep following me like you're a little kid."

"I missed you." He said walking towards me.

"I wasn't even gone for that long."

"Okay. And?"

"Aight you slick mouth mothafucka." I moved past him and made my way to my room.

I grabbed clothes out my dresser and threw them on my bed to take a shower. I started the water and stepped in. I washed my whole body and got out and dried off. I kept my rob on as I walked through the hallway to my room.

I sat on my bed and lotioned my body before putting my clothes on. Right when I put my lotion back on my vanity the door opened up.

"Whatchu doin in here?" Demarcus said walking in.

"Damn. I could've been butt ass naked."

"So, you actin like I ain't seen yo fine ass naked before." He winked and flopped on my bed.

I grabbed my nail polish remover and white nail polish.

"Move." I said to him as I tried to get on MY bed. He moved over and I sat down.

As I did my nails he watched me. Whenever I asked him to hold something he would hold it and whenever I asked him to give me something he would he would give me it. I wanted to fuck with him a little bit.

"Give me the white polish." I said pointing to it.

"All these shits look the same. How can ya tell the difference."

"You read it. Duh."

I laughed and grabbed it from him before applying it.

"Give me the top coat." I said to him. He gave it to me. ".. and give me a kiss." He paused and looked up at me.

"You fr?" I started laughing so fuckin hard cuz nigga didn't I just ask.

"No, never mind." I said fanning my nails.

"Nah, I heard you." He reached up grabbed my face and kissed me passionately.

"Ow!" I yelled after he bit my lip.

"Shut up." He said pulling away laughing.

"That's not funny."

"That's what you get for being mean to me this whole time when I've been trying to help yo big headed ass."

I laughed and finished up doing my nails. Demarcus went and took a shower before coming back into the room.

"What your plans for tonight?" I said putting the polish back on the vanity.

"I wanna lay up and watch movies."

"Okay then come on."

"Hold on." He said leaving the room. He came back with a blanket over his head and the teddy bear I got him from Florida. It was a build-a-bear wit our names on it.

"Awe, You still have this??" I asked him.

"You thought I was gon throw it away?!"

"Nah, it was jus a while ago."

"Not that long." He kissed my forehead and we laid down.

I want him back. I still love Demarcus. I can feel our bond tightening back up again. But I just need to follow through with this plan first.