Ashanti Renèe Robinson, NY 📍

I woke up and looked at my clock on my wall it reads 10:34 am. I hop up out my bed and go to my bathroom to start my hygiene routine.

I graduated high school at 17. Having me start school early as a kid was the dumbest shit my parents can do. Can you imagine how dumb I looked standing next to all those grown ass mutherfuckers at graduation.

I just turned 20 not even a week ago and I'm ready to be out! I've been waiting for this moment since I turned 13. And baby, It's time!! I was only waiting this long because I be a full on adult before leaving. My luggage sat at my door of my room. Yes ma'am all packed up. Only things I'm leaving behind is furniture and electronics like my TV. All my clothes and memories are packed up in my suitcases. Not that I even want to remember anything from this house but shit like pictures and drawings I made.

After taking a shower brushing my teeth and doing my hair I grabbed my car keys off my dresser and took a couple of my bags outside to my car. I tossed them bitches in the trunk and went in for the rest. Once I was done packing the car. I hopped in and drove tf off without looking back.

It wasn't like I didn't know where I was going I damn sure did cause baby, who tf wants to be 20 and homeless. Not I.

I had became online friends with this girl since we were 16. We practically grew together and we became best friends. We talk on the phone all the time and she basically like a sister to me. Since I'm the only child Ion know what it's actually like to have one.

She always been there for me and she drove up to New York a couple times to film videos with me for Youtube. One night we was on the phone..

NaeBae💛!

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NaeNae bought a whole ass house 6bdrms 3 baths. She always wanted to have roommates and shit but she ain't want no weirdos. So she moved in her closest friends. I don't know them yet but I'm pretty sure I will be introduced to them when I get there. Her pops is a realtor so I'm pretty sure she didn't have to put that much in for this crib. She just had to keep it in tack.

I've only knew NaeNae for 4 years and she is one of the realest motherfuckers I've ever met. I know for sure I can get into some deep shit and she would help me out of it without hesitation. I'm glad I found a person like her because a lot of girls just like to compete and hate and that's not me. Real shit. I just like to get money and look pretty.

I drove for about 2 hours before I got a phone call from my moms. I honestly debated if I wanted to answer it or not.

I don't have a good relationship with my mom. We fight all the time and she chooses her boyfriend over me every chance she gets. My mother and my father separated when I was 10. She was caught cheating on him with her current boyfriend and she had the nerve to take me with her when she left. Like who tf said I wanted to go.

But I was only 10, so I didn't really have a choice. Considering my dad was going to jail for warrants he had behind my mom. But she never spoke on that though. Every time my mother would slip up he would take ownership for it. He loved her and he would do anything for. He still will. But she just didn't feel the same. After they had me she just acted like she never loved him. And it hurt him I know it did. I love my father. I always have and I always will. He called me from jail all the time. He took more care of me than my mom ever did and he's behind bars.

I looked at the phone ring one last time before answering it.

Indonesia.

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I hung up the phone putting it in my cup holder.

I don't know who tf she think she talking to like that.

I grabbed my sunglasses from my glove box and put them on. I turned on the radio and Rihanna's song "Love On The Brain" was playing and you known had to sing my heart out.

And you got me like oh

What you want from me (What you want from me)

And I tried to buy your pretty heart but the price to high

Baby you got like oh

You love when I fall apart

So you can put me together and throw me against the wall

Baby you got my like I..I..I..I..I..I

I sang this song like I was in love with someone. Cuz baby, when Rihanna come on and you don't put your all into it, we can't be friends get the fuck out my car.

And babe I'm fist-fighting with fire

Just to get close to you can we burn something babe

And I'll run for mile just to get a taste

Must be love on the brain

That's got me feeling this way

It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good

And I just can't get enough

Must be love on the brain

And it keeps cursing my name

No matter what I do

I'm no good without you

And I can't get enough

Must be love on the...brain

I listened to music while I continue to drive to Jersey. It was only a long ride because of traffic. I hate New York traffic it's like everyone loses their damn common sense once they get behind the wheel. The song "Dear Mama" by Tupac Shakur came on. I turned the radio off because it hurt that I can't relate to loving my mother. Now that I think of it. I never told her that and she never told me.

I still remember when I first lost all my respect for my mother.

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It was my first basketball game at my middle school I went to. It was very important to me and I wanted both my parents to be there. My father made it even though he was supposed to be on house arrest. But my mother didn't. I didn't automatically blame her though. I thought something came up and she was distracted and forgot. But she didn't. She was aware but didn't care. Instead she went behind my back and went to her boyfriends daughters reunion. But at the time I didn't know that so of course I wasn't mad.

After the game, we won of course, I went to my dad and gave him a huge hug before he had to leave. I looked throughout the stands and I didn't see my mom. The look my father had on his face said it all. He felt bad for me. I felt bad myself. I went home that night on the sports bus and my mom wasn't there. I went and took a shower, did my homework, ate dinner and got ready to go to bed. It was 10 something at night and she still wasn't home. I grew angry because now she's just doing to fucking much. At the time her boyfriends daughter was 19. I was 13 I'm still a kid and I need the love and support. But they gave it all to her. I woke up the next morning and my mom was in her room getting undressed.

"Where were you last night?" I asked her my voice cracked like I was going to cry but I covered it up like I was clearing my throat.

"I went to Stephanie's reunion." She said laughing. "You really think I'm going to sit in a nasty gym watching a bunch of little ass kids pass a ball around."

I looked at her with pain in my eyes. It wasn't fair. There is so many girls around the world that can sit and talk to their mothers. There is so many girls that can depend on their mother. There are girls that claim their mother as their bestfriend. But I can't even look at mine without getting angry. I just turned and went in my room locking my door. I didn't leave my room for the rest of the day. I didn't eat, I showered in my bathroom and laid back down. It was at that moment that I decided that when I turned 18 that I was going to leave and never come back. I feel into a dark hole that I thought I could never get out.

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I looked up to my right and saw a sign.

"Welcome to New Jersey: New Jersey Turnpike" I smile at the sign knowing that I will be able to start all over again. Which is very much needed.

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Jo'Nae Mariè Andrews, NJ 📍

I was just finishing up Ashanti's room cleansing it of all bad energy with sage and making it smell with a lit candle when Jay Jay walked in.

"Jo'Nae what the hell you doing with that voodoo stick" He said pointing at the sage.

"Boy- It is not no damn voodoo stick. It is sage. It cleanses and gets rid of bad energy." I said waving it around. He nodded his head.

"For what?"

"My bestfriend is coming to live with us." I said hitting every inch of that room with this sage.

"When was you gon tell us?"

"Ion gotta tell ya shit I'm grown and she's my guest." Just when I said that my phone began to ring. I looked and it was Ashanti.

Shantiii🥺.

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She turned the camera showing the city and I was familiar with it! She is in New Jersey! I was above excited!

I sent her the location of my place before putting my phone back down and letting out the sage.

"You guys call each other bae and boo?" Jay Jay said leaning against the door frame.

"Yes, problem?" Jay Jay is like a big brother to me. He was there for me since I was a little girl our mothers were best friends so we grew up together. He's a pain in the ass but I love him to death.

"Can I see what the girl look like?" He asked. I picked up my phone and showed him a facetime photo I took of her. She was laughing until she realized I took a picture and covered her face. I kept looking over the live photo over and over again before I took my phone from him.

"Boy, Damn she not even here yet let her breathe!" He laughed and walked out the room. I know that laugh. He a lil sneaky ass one!

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Jay'Shawn Lawson, NJ 📍

I'm not going to hold you. The girl Jo'nae showed me is beautiful. Her smile is contagious! She had a messy bun and some type of candy in her hand.

I went in my room to put on something more presentable.

What the fuck am I doing?

I look down and see that I now have on a nice pair of ripped jeans and a nice hoodie with my best smelling cologne.

Well shit first impression is everything.

About 20 minutes later the door bell rings. I heard Jo'Nae run to the door opening it.

"Shantiiii!"

"NaeNaee!" They called each other in sync.

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Ashanti Renèe Robinson, NY📍

NaeNae pulled me into a tight hug.

"Bitch I've been waiting for you omg! Come on come on I'm gonna show you your room!" She grabbed my hand dragging me into the house. This girl strong asf! She pulled me inside and it was gorgeous.

"NaeNae don't break my fuckin arm!" She ignored me pulling me up the stairs.

"Jay Jay go get her bags out her car!" She yelled at someone coming out the room in front of mine I couldn't see who it was completely because of her hulk ass pulling me. Once we got to the room she opened the door and my jaw dropped.

The room is so beautiful. I looked around and It was close as hell to my dream room. I turned and hugged NaeNae. She hugged me back.

"Bitch I'm from New York where they got these nice ass penthouses but this house is something! and this room ugh is beautiful." I say still looking around.

"The others are on their way back they went grocery shopping. It's just you me and Jay Jay right now. Come on you didn't get a chance to meet him." She grabbed my hand and ran through the house again.

Okay if this is how imma transport around this bitch Imma need a warning. Cause ion even like being touched. But i'm just as excited as her so it'll pass for now.

The boy was getting the last of my bags out my car before shutting my trunk and bringing them inside the house. He was tall, fine as hell, and smelled really good.

Ou, I would fuck him so good right now. Girl- you just got here relax. Be nice and cute.

"Wassup g"

Fuck!

"Hey Ma," He pulled me in for a hug.

Ma?? See don't even do that I would give you a whole child.

Girl I got butterflies cause he had a firm hold but not enough to hurt me but just enough to show that he was happy I was here. We pulled away and we talked a little bit before I went back to my room to unpack. He carried my bags up so they were on my bed. I finished up unpacking and went back down stairs he was sitting on the couch watching T.V and Nae Nae was in the Kitchen.

"Hey mamas" He said as I walked by I waved my hand entering the kitchen.

"Hey boo, you like the house?" NaeNae asked me looking up from her phone.

"Yea, it's nice where do you sleep?"

"Oh you and Jay Jay are the only bedrooms upstairs the rest are down here. Jay Jay wanted the upstairs room because he hated it when we used to blast music. You can't hear anything when you're upstairs. Everyone else was to lazy to move rooms so I just have you the open one."

"Oh okay." I hopped up on the island of the kitchen and turned facing NaeNae we were having our on conversation when Jay'Shawn walked in.

"Ayo Jo'Nae, when are the others coming back?" He said going to the fridge.

"In a little bit why?"

"Because I planned that we all go to the club tonight." He grabbed a gatorade out the fridge and leaned next to me on the island.

"Ouuu a club?!" I said getting excited. "Which one?" I picked up my phone to search it up.

"Mine." I looked at Jay'shawn with confusion. "I own the club."

Ou he got money.

"Okay big baller as you fuckin should." He gave me the name of it and I searched it up. It looked fire. Like the outside was gorgeous and the inside looked amazing. I ran to the ratings cause I'm not finna waste my time in a wack ass club if it's not worth it. The ratings were 4s and 5s. Okay Jay'shawn you did something here.

I guess the look of satisfaction on my face gave it away because he smiled at me.

"You like it?" He asked taking a sip of his drink.

"Yea is looks like a vibe." He nodded.

"Good then we're going tonight. Call Demarcus and Rachel and tell them to bring they asses on."

It was turning 5 o'clock so we all started to get ready. I went in my room got my clothes together and picked out a nice dress to wear. I picked my white sundress, and a long denim flannel to go with it. I took a shower, got changed and slicked my hair back in a low bun.

I went downstairs and found NaeNae outside taking pictures.

"Here boo take one of me" I said giving her my phone."

and 374 others like your picture ❤️

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↪️ such a tease ❤️.

fuck it up bitchhhhh😍💛.

↪️you know wtf goin on.

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↪️fuck off her page 🤨.

↪️period.

I look down at my phone at the comments under my picture. Not Jay'shawn acting like I'm his!!

I met Demarcus he is a cool guy. You can tell he a big brother of the group. He just got that type of vibe. But Rachel, I ain't feel to good about her, I'll keep my distance.

She came into the house with some girl named Nicole but she called her NuNu. She got into an argument with NaeNae cause NaeNae ain't want Nicole in her house. That's understandable bitch get to stepping. So she started getting loud with NaeNae so I hopped up and shut shit down. Cause baby you ain't talking to her like that.

But other than that the night was great we kept our distance from Nicole and Rachel and we had a fucking blast! The club was jumping I knew it was valid when they turned on some Popsmoke. Now this is my shit. The song "Christopher Walking" came on and that was a shut down. I was rapping every lyric of the song and vibing the fuck out. Jay'shawn was looking at me all hard but I ain't care this is my shit!!!!

We finally got food and ate before getting up to leave because it's fall it gets cold fast and I had this little ass dress on but who tf cares.

A hoe never gets cold.

I walked back to Jay'shawns car because we took separate ones. He hopped in looking at me.

"What?" I said putting my phone in the cup holder. He shook his head with a smirk on his face. It gave me butterflies cause why you looking at me like that.

Like if you wanna fuck just say that.

We drove home and he took his jacket off and gave it to me before walking me in the house and to my room.