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" sick of this shit dawg .." I said driving towards a hotel. Then I notice someone following me.

That ain't nb but Kacey. I notice his car but idc I'm still finna go in this hotel.

I pulled in and parked while I watched as Kacey did the same.

I got out and while I was walking to go pay for my room of course Kacey got out.

" Journey!?" He yelled and I stopped and looked at him.

" what?"

" the fuck yo problem is? Aint nobody do you shit and here you are acting careless & childish. You to old for this shit and got mama crying for yo ass!"He yelled.

" what is she crying for?" I asked mugging him. " she don't want you to get hurt or raped again & shit I don't either." He said shaking his head.

" I'm safe here okay. You can tell them I'm here until I figure out what ima do since daddy said I can't come back."

" you know you can come back. Pops mad he had to leave what he was doing , catch a flight, this come home to this bullshit you pulled." He said.

" it's not bullshit Kacey! You don't know how I'm feeling!!" I yelled at him.

" that's why I'm here, help me know how you feel Journey. We too old to be holding in our feelings."

" I don't know how Kacey! How I'm suppose to get you to understand my pain?! You don't know what I'm going through! And nobody will ever understand me!"

" you right but mama know the pain of getting raped Journey. I know she understand. All you gotta do is speak up. Stop holding shit in." He said shaking his head.

" then it's so sad what you told your own twin sister. You don't understand what Jayda go through after having a baby. Stop being selfish dawg." He added.

" I only told her that because I was mad and you know I don't mean that." I said thinking about it.

I really didn't mean to say any of that to her but I couldn't help it.

So much be going on through my mind and I don't know how to control what I say.

And I know she probably won't forgive me but I love her a lot and I didn't mean any of that.

Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me.

" man ight, ima let ma know you safe and make sure you call her." He said pulling out his wallet.

"Hm" he said handing me a stack of money and I smiled at him.

" I love you." I said hugging him. " I love you more, ima fuck w you later tho." He said hugging me then getting in his car.

I walked inside the hotel and went up to the counter. " hi."

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You good?

Call me.

Jour , what I did ni?

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Hey bestie boo. Wyd?

Journey?

Bitch text me back dahell.

Answer yo phone dawg.

After seeing them blowing up my phone I decided to call my bestie back first.

"Journey! Why you been ignoring my text & calls?" Bri asked me as soon as the FaceTime call connected.

" I'm sorry bri, I'm just going through some right ni." I said lowly.

" speak up. What you going through? You know I'm here for you baby."

" it's just-" I started crying. I couldn't help it. " where you at?" She asked.

" a hotel. I did some bad Bri." I shook my head wiping my tears as more came down my face.

" just send me your location and I'll come and make you feel better bestie." She said looking sad.

" okay." I said hanging up then sending her my location.

I feel so bad about everything I said. I did this to my own fucking family.

How green.

Bitchhhh😂 nah foreal that's some green ass shit.

A few minutes later I heard a little knock on the hotel door. Bri knew what the room number was because I told her when I sent the loc.

I opened it and saw her standing there with food in her hand and a smile on her face.

I smiled back and let her in. Once I let her in she sat the food down and gave me a long hug. Something I most definitely needed.

"Thank you so much for being here for me." I said wiping my tears.

"Don't wipe your tears that what I'm here for." She said wiping them for me.

" I love you so much Bri. You don't even understand." I chuckled.

" and it's vv. What's going on tho? Talk to me, But only if you feel like it."

" can we eat first then after I might feel better to tell you." I said and nodded getting the stuff out the bags.

" ouu this look good." I said looking at the homemade food.

" my mama made it. I had to bring you some because you love her cooking." She smiled.

" most def." I said digging in. It was so good.

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" so then after I came here & talked to Kacey about everything." I told her finishing up the story.

" So what made you do allis?" She asked me. " I'm

Not okay bri." I said feelin the tears coming.

" you have to speak up jour. tell what's on your minds, you know we here for you." She told me.

" at the moment it didn't feel like y'all was here for me. When I first got raped everybody was here for me then later on it's like everybody forgot about it. It still haunts me briana. Nobody knows how I'm feeling. & school ain't making it no better."

" I didn't forget about it Journey. I just thought you got over it because I saw you smiling all the time. But if you wanted to talk about it you know I'm here to wipe your tears like now." She said.

"You right but that just how I was feeling and I'm sorry I didn't come to you about it before bashing my family, saying fuck them & leaving."

" you wrong for that ain even finna hold you but please talk to your family." She told me.

" I am, I just wanna get some me time you know?" I asked and she nodded understanding me.

" we need to do some fun because this hair all over the place." She said chuckling and I laughed.

" girl fuck you." I laughed drinking my soda. " I'm just keeping it 100 boo." She said.

" but we can do allat tomorrow I need some sleep." She added and I nodded.

" that's fine, I love you." I said as we stood up and hugging each other.

" I love you more bestie." She said kissing my cheek. " ima call you tomorrow." She added opening the door.

" okay, byeee." I dragged watching her walk away to get on the elevator.

I went back inside my room and prayed something I always did.

After that I cleaned up the food that me and Bri had and threw it away.

I hope Jayda forgive me because what I said was bad.

Hopefully she understand me how briana did but we will see.

After cleaning that stuff up I got on the bed and called kj.

" waddup." He said looking like he was high as hell. " hey kaylen." I smiled.

I really like this boy. Got me smiling at my phone and shit.

" what you on? You ain't text me or call me all day." He frowned.

" I just haven't been feeling ok but I'm back and mf better!" I yelled the last part.

" pipe down lil girl." He said drinking something. " what you drinking?" I asked.

" that lean lil mama." He smirked then licked his lips. " you need some carmax?" I asked mugging.

" do it look like I need some?" He said mugging me back. " yeah, don't get smacked." I said.

" by who? Cause on the lord sandals it won't be by you." He said and I busted out laughing.

" right cause my name Journey and not you. Journey gone smack yo ass." I said chuckling.

" yeah ight." He said then started looking all hard in the camera.

" where you at?" He asked noticing it wasn't my room. " my boyfriend house."

" oh." He said drinking more of his lean. " you need to stop drinking that." I frowned.

" you need to stop cheating on your "boyfriend"." He said mugging me.

" kaylen, ain't nobody cheating." I laughed. " then why you otp w me?" He asked.

" because you the side nigga." I said. Tf he thought this was?

" ain no side shit. If anything you my side bitch." He said laughing. " yeah no. Do you know my name?" I asked.

" I don't gaf what yo name is. Give the phone to yo bf." He said and I mugged him.

" I don't have a boyfriend kaylen. Is you dumb or slow?" I asked.

" I'm high." He said and I laughed at the face he made. " kaylen get off my phone." I said hanging up.

He called back and I answered. " tf you hang up fa?" He asked.

" I'm finna go to sleep kj." I said yawning because I was really tired.

"Cmon let's go to sleep then." He said walking somewhere I'm guessing to his room.

" what you doing?" I asked then I saw him get into bed. Oh no he tryna gts otp.

Ain tryna catch feelings.

Okay so, that's for me to know and me only tf.

" you hear me?" He asked and I shook my head. " I said I'm finna gts to. You ready for bed stink?" He asked and I blushed.

HE CALLED ME STINKKKK!!!

Ahhh, my crush really just called me stink ima finna cry😭😂.

" okay cmon." I said and got comfortable in the bed then fell asleep fast asl.

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Mybad I been gone for a while. It's just I be having so much stuff to do.

Anyways.

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