Kaymari🥺🧡.

"You look good baby." Jay said kissing me on the cheek. "Why thank you." I said in my white voice and we laughed.

"Journey?" I called out. "Yes mommy?" She answered coming down the stairs.

"Are y'all ready?" I asked her referring to jayda, kacey, and her.

"Yes mommy." She smiled and I smiled back at her standing up.

I made my way to jay kitchen and got a snack before the kids came down the stairs.

"Go say bye to your father." I told them. Me and jay broke up a while ago.

I know we can't break up if we married but we still is married just not together.

We working on getting back together but I don't know .. it's hard.

He cheated on me But that was a year ago. I still think about it from time to time but my kids are my happiness.

Anyways kacey is now 12 years old and the twins is 9.

"Bye mamas." I heard jay say to the twins as I made my way to my car.

A few minutes they came out and got in the car. "Seat belts." I said looking back at them before pulling off.

"Where we going?" Kacey asked me noticing I wasn't going to the house.

"Pick up your auntie." I told them and the twins got happy. They loved loyalty.

Finally I made it to my mama house and we got out and knocked on the door.

My daddy opened the door and I hugged him making my way inside.

I went to my mama room and jumped on her. "Heyyy mama." I dragged smiling.

I always get happy to see her even tho I talk to her and almost see her everyday.

"Hey baby." She said hugging me as I laid on her. "I just stopped by to pick up loyalty." I told her standing up.

"Oh okay. Y'all doing anything today?" She asked me. "No I just picked the kids up from their daddy house." I told her and she nodded.

"Okay, y'all be safe and I love y'all." She said and I kissed her cheek saying I love

You back and leaving her room.

"Alright kids come on." I told them. "Love you da." I yelled walking out of their house and the kids followed.

"Can we get some food?" Loyalty asked with an attitude. "Ehh who peed in yo cereal?" Kacey asked her and I laughed.

"Nobody my belly hurt." She said mugging. "Calm down hunny. What y'all want to eat?" I asked watching them put they seat belts on.

"Wing out." They all said and I nodded making my way to wing out.

I made it their in 10 minutes and went through the drive thru.

"No wayyyy! Dabratkay? Omgggg!" The lady at the window asked me.

"Yes." I giggled. "Hold on youn gotta pay." She said. "Nooo I got it." I said passing a 100. "Keep the change."

"Omg thank you so much." She said and I nodded going to the next window.

We got our food and got home. I was now laying in my bed watching tv.

"Kay can I come in?" I heard loyalty say. "Yeah." I said sitting up.

"I'm finna freak out." She said turning around showing me her bloody pants.

"What's happening?" She asked pouting about to cry. Then I remembered in the car she said her stomach was hurting.

Her period came.

"Come on." I said leading her to my bathroom as she cried.

"Calm down loyal you just got your period it's normal." I told her.

"It will come every month okay?" I said and she nodded as I turned the shower on.

"Take your clothes off and get inside. Ima get you some clothes and a pad. Do you want some medicine?" I asked her and she nodded.

"It's gonna be okay. Your big sister gotchu." I told her before leaving to go to the twins room.

I got her one of the twins shirts and some biker shorts that was black.

I went back to my room and got her some unworn pink panties.

I went back into the restroom and placed it on the toilet and got a pad for her.

"If you need help with something lemme kno." I told her leaving out of the bathroom.

"Where's loyalty?" Journey asked me. "In the shower." I said as she followed me downstairs.

"Oh." She said watching my every move. "Journey Whatchu want?" I chuckled.

"Nothing mama, I can't watch you?" She asked me. "No, weirdo." I said playfully as she laughed.

I got me and her something to drink and went back upstairs.

Loyalty was done and was just mugging. "Where's the medicine?" She asked me.

"Ohhh yeah I forgot." I said going to my bathroom and looking in the cabinet.

I got it and gave her one pill. "If that one don't help come for another one." I told her and she nodded.

"What's wrong with you?" Journey asked her. "I'll tell you come on." She told her and they left my room.

"Hello?" I answered as Kandy FaceTimed me. "Hey best." She said.

"Hey girla." I said laying back in my bed. "Whatchu doing?" She asked me.

"Nothing watching tv." I told her. "Oh, Whatchu did today then?" She asked.

"I went to the studio and finish a song then I picked up my kids from their father house. After that I picked up loyalty and we been chilling. What you did?" I asked her.

"Um I did some test for this class I had after that I got something to eat then stayed in my apartment the rest of the day." She said.

"Mm it's been a boring day. But when you coming back down here?" I asked her.

"For Christmas." She replied and I nodded. "How's things with you and jay?" She asked me.

"Good, co parenting is even better." I told her and she nodded. "That's good." She said.

"Well im bout to go to sleep. Call me tomorrow." I told her.

"Okay bye I love you." She told me and I said it back hanging up.

I got up and went to kacey room first. "You good?" I asked him.

"Yeah." He told me. "Okay im about to go to sleep, I love you goodnight." I told him.

"I love you more, goodnight." He said and I shut his door.

"Wassup love bug." I said to jayda. "Wassup ma." She said smiling.

"I'm dead but I'm about to go to sleep." I told her and she nodded.

"I love you, goodnight." She said giving me a hug and I kissed her on the cheek.

"Aww I love you more baby. Goodnight." I told her shutting her door.

"Hey babies." I said to loyalty and Journey.

Some reason they was the closest. And jayda and Kacey was close.

Maybe jayda was a tomboy. I don't know yet tho.

"Hey mommy." Journey said smiling. "Hey." Loyalty said frowning.

"What's wrong loyal?" I asked sitting on Journey bed next to loyalty.

"I don't like this at all." She said referring to her period. "I don't either but most girls have to go through it. Your turning into a grown women." I said trying to get her to smile but it didn't work.

"I know but I don't like the feeling you know?" She asked and I nodded.

"You'll get used to it." I told her. "Ehh, ion wanna go through that Unt Unt." Journey said causing me & loyal to laugh.

"Anyways I'm about to go to bed. I love y'all." I said hugging them and they said it back.

I made my way back to my room and started crying.

It's like when I get by myself everything feels different.

I just wish I had jay by my side with all of this. I know it's not hard but ..

Shut the fuck up.

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