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Shinsos pov

The day started off shitty, I was late for school and got scolded by my dad, then a couple of first years thought it'd be funny to yell slurs and very unnecessary things at me which made the day even worse. Then just when I thought nothing could get worse I have a panic attack in the school bathroom during lunch cuz the same first years thought 'hhmmm let's scare shinso and start talking about electric shock therapy in front of him' (that is actually something that I can't really hear being talked about) and when school ends and I finally think I can be happy, I can't fucking get into my headspace. Sero is outta town and I don't wanna bother denki so I don't even try, instead I lay on my bed,broken pencils and torn pieces of paper on the ground, and cry controlling my tears the best I can, whenever I need to scream I scream into my pillow, whenever I need to break something I snap another pencil in half. It worked for a good two minutes before ideas of old habits form in my head, I knew Bakugo hides vodka in his room and I could easily ask for some, not only that but I'm sure I could steal my old switch knife back from my dad no one would suspect anything.....but that wouldn't be fair to denki or sero and I know Bakugo would beat my ass, so I focused my mind on different things like birds and cats. After a good ten minutes the ideas came back and I knew I was putting myself in danger, so I reluctantly called denki, he picked up after three rings "hey Toshi! What's up buttercup?" He said, I chuckled at the nickname before speaking "hey...I uh, need you to come over. It's important." My lip quivered before tears spilted out again and a loud sob escaped my lips "oh shit Hitoshi what's the matter? Did someone hurt you?" I choked on a sob "m-mhm and I need you to c-come over before I d-do something again" I heard denkis frantic footstep run towards his door and down the hall, he hung up as he walked into my room with a concerned look on his face, he sat down on my bed in front of me and held my hands "tell me everything that happened" he let go of one of my hands and wiped my tears away "I-I woke up late today which a-annoyed me and then these dumb first y-years yelled slurs a-at me and called me n-names, then at lunch they t-talked about electro shock therapy I-in front of me and I had a p-panic attack in the bathroom a-and I can't go into my h-headspace and it got so bad that I t-thought of drinking and hurting myself a-again" I said shoving my face into denkis chest and crying harder. I felt denki run his hand through my hair and rub my back "shhh shh shh there there Toshi shh it'll be okay" he kissed my head and continued to comfort me "I'm gonna find those first years tomorrow okay? And I'm gonna make them apologize and I'm gonna fry them" a small smile formed as I slowly stopped crying "your to good to do that stuff again, you are doing so good and We are all so proud of you" denki continued "it's been five months shinso" denki kisses my head again "your to good for that stuff anymore, I know it's hard baby but your so strong and we all know it" I smiled at his words, I was to strong for that anymore, he's right. That's when I started feeling that warm familiar feeling again, I got excited "denki it's happening" he looked confused at first but soon got the message and smiled "aawww who's my cute little baby" I giggled and finally slipped, when I did I felt so so happy "mmeeeee!! I am!" I exclaimed wrapping my arms around denkis neck and hugging him "that's right! How old are you sweetheart?" Denki asked, I held up four fingers "I four!" Denki smiled and tickled my tummy "woah! Your such a big boy!" I shrieked and wiggled "nnooooo I a baby!" Daddy chuckled and patted my head "I know baby how about we FaceTime dada, he misses you" I nodded and watched as daddy took my laptop and called dada, dada answered and smiled at us "hey guys! How are yous? I miss you guys so mucchhhhh" i giggled "hiiiiii dada! I misses chu tttooooo!!" Dada chuckled "well aren't you having fun over there" I nodded and began sucking my thumb, daddy noticed and pulled it away "no no darling" he places my paci in my mouth, I smile "thank ou!" Daddy chuckled and looks back at dada "how's your trip so far?" Daddy asks, they then started talking about boring big boy stuff so I zoned out, but that also got boring so I laid on daddy's lap and whined he started petting my head so that was a plus. Although I'd much rather have all his attention, but that would mean being rude and interrupting daddy's conversation....sounds worth it to me, so I started poking his cheek an his thighs trying to get him to do something, he looked at me with a warning glance before looking away I huffed and poked harder but at his ribs and tummy instead. That made him stop talking and looked down at me "do you need something princess?" I giggled and continued to poke daddy endlessly "sero hold on a moment" daddy said before pinning my arms down with one hand and mercilessly tickling my tummy with the other, I squirmed and started laughing uncontrollably "d-daddaaaa help meeeee!!" Daddy laughed "no one can help you know sweetheart" I shrieked and started kicking my legs "daddyyyyyy I'm g-gonna ppeeeeeee" he stopped and I pouted "your a meanie" daddy chuckled "would you rather me keep tickling you" I shook my head no and picked my paci up off the ground "well then don't provoke the tickle monster, that survival 101 baby" I heard dada say, I turned and poked my tongue out at him. Dada stuck his out at me as well, making me giggle "I wub you!" I said putting my paci back in my mouth and snuggling into daddy's side "I wub you too little one" dada said smiling at me, daddy kissed my head before talking to dada again, my attention bar was full again but it shall soon go down to low levels and I may possibly have to provoke the tickle monster again if not I will surly die of lack of attention.