for two days straight i was left home alone. no texts, calls, or anything for luke. karl never texted me back. caroline didn't want to see me.

my world just felt like it was crushing down.

both mornings i laid on the bathroom floor puking my guts out and just wishing luke was there for me.

i don't know what i did to deserve this but i guess it's fine. as long as he is okay.

i sat on the couch in the living room with my guitar on my lap. i strummed softly trying to think of something to sing or make up but nothing was coming to me

i played with the ring on my finger and tried not to cry. when the front door opened and luke walked in i just rolled my eyes. i hated him. purely hated him

i looked at him and he looked at me while tossing his backpack to the floor.

he walked over and sat next to me which made me get up and just walk upstairs

"fuck," i heard the blonde cuss out from downstairs

i went into my writing room and slammed the door not locking it. a tear slipped out of my eye while i slid down the door

"i hate you luke" i whispered to myself.

i could hear sobs come from him downstairs and i just ignored them. he deserved to feel what i was feeling.

i went to the very uncomfortable couch in the room and laid down. i stared at the ceiling and let tears stream down my face

i have wanted him back but now that he's back i don't want him near me.

i pulled my phone out of my pocket after it went off to reveal a text from the devil himself, luke.

i'm going to order food. want any?

no. not hungry.

have you eaten today?

maybe if you were home you would

know if i had or not

kayla come on now

i left him on open but ignoring him didn't last long when the door opened to my writing room and punz was standing at the door clearly upset.

"what?" i asked not looking at him

"are we going to talk about this?"

"i don't know. are you just going to run away when i need you most again? if so you can just leave and not come back" i spoke my mind

"kayla for the love of god. i spent those two days sat at karl's kitchen counter working with twitter getting those tweets and accounts taken down. i have slept 5 hours in the past 50. do you not realize i care about you?" he yelled and i just sat up and looked away

"don't yell at me" was all i said before looking back towards him. "i needed you luke. i was sobbing all day, throwing up in the morning, and worried about you. i thought my life was literally ending. and you made a promise to be there when i needed you and you weren't"

"kayla i was trying to get everything solved for us" he said and i rolled my eyes

"i didn't want or need you to do that. what i did want and need was you here. but you weren't" i stood up and walked out of the room and to our bedroom

he followed behind me. before i could go further his hands wrapped around my waist and he kissed the top of my head

"i love you kayla rose" he said

"i love you too" i turned around and wrapped my arms around him.

we stayed like that for awhile just missing each other and finally knowing where the other was coming from.

luke pulled away slightly to lift my head up and kiss my lips. i kissed back and started laughing

"what?" he asked against my lips

"you are such a dick lets have sex"