《my lover boy || matthew sturniolo》3
Advertisement
y/n's pov
its been an hour ever since me and matt kissed. id do anything to do it again. i need to control myself right now. im gonna ask nick if he wants to go clothes shopping now. i cant wear matt's clothes every day
me: nick do you wanna go clothes shopping now
nick: if it makes you feel better then of course
me: let's go then
nick: y/n, you know that you can talk to me about anything, right?
me: yea why
nick: it just looks like youre more comfortable with matt
me: nick, its just so hard for me right now. theres a huge part of my life thats still a secret. your my favorite and you know that
nick: i love having you as a friend
me: so do i
me: well, i can see that matt likes me
nick: what? he told you?
me: he uh kissed me. dont tell him i said that
nick: HE HAS A HUGE CRUSH ON YOU
me: NICK! you are so loud
nick: oh right sorry
i laugh at his stupidity
me: im gonna get ready. can i borrow some clothes so i dont look like an ugly frog
nick: yea sure come
we go to his room. wtf he has so many clothes
nick: wait actually we can go online shopping
me: thats a good idea, i wouldnt have to socialize with anyone
nick: exactly the reason i barely ever go shopping in person
we spent a little bit too much but its fine, at least ill look good 24/7. we also got my brother some clothes because he needed it. nick is the best friend i could ever ask for, better than matt. maybe not better. i love them both equally but nick is just a bit better. im not really that close to chris. i want to be but i just dont know how to do it. back to the clothes. i think theyre coming in two weeks. what would i do without nick like im going through so much right now and i dont know what to do about it. i wish i could just forget. i try to but it never works. my sister deserved a better life. she was such an innocent and sweet person. i know ill see her later. i should probably tell nick about her. i trust him most
me: uhm nick
nick: yea?
me: you know how i was saying there was a huge part of my life that you dont know about? i dont even know how i never told you all when we met.
nick: y/n, talk to me. just get it off your chest
me: thats the hard part
nick: take your time
me: im gonna cry for the second time today
nick: its okay y/n im always here for you
me: how do i even say this? its so hard to talk about
nick: you dont have to say it
me: i want to i just need to figure out how im gonna explain it
nick: we can talk about it later when you know how to say it
me: its my uh-...i had another sibling
nick: had. mhm
me: yea she uh...took her own life
nick: oh my gosh y/n im so sorry
he pulls me into a quick hug
me: so what happened was my dad was being the idiot that he is and abusing the shit out of her until she couldnt take it anymore. she sent me a text and left me confused. later that night her body was found. i dont know where but i just wish that i was there for her more. maybe if i showed her more love then she would still be with me
Advertisement
nick: no y/n, dont blame this on yourself. its not your fault
me: ill show you the text
i show him the text looking away not wanting to read it again
nick: i cant believe what your going through. does anyone else know about what happened to her?
me: just you and me
nick: im guessing you never got over your depression and just hid it from us
me: im so sorry
nick: dont say sorry
me: sorry
nick: you did it again
me: sor- nevermind
nick: i love you y/n, you can always talk to me about this like that. ill listen
me: thank you for always being there for me nick
he smiles at me
nick: do you wanna go get your favorite ice cream
me: THAT Ben and Jerry's ice cream?
nick: i mean why not
i smile back at him
me: no one could ever match you
nick: i know, im a great friend
that resulted in me playfully hitting his arm
nick: lets go
we get out of his room and rush downstairs.
nick: WERE LEAVING!
chris: WHERE
chris runs downstairs
chris: where are you guys going without me?
me: we're getting ice cream because i feel like shit
then matt comes down. i smile at him
matt: ice cream?
chris: theyre leaving without us
matt: BETRAYAL
chris: please let us come
nick: only if y/n is okay with it
me: i guess you can come
nick: just be extra nice
chris: im always nice
matt: i dont think so chris
chris: shut up lover boy
nick: guys shut up
me: ok im gonna go to my car
matt and chris: IM RIDING IN SHOTGUN
me: no need for that, nick's sitting in the front
nick: im the favorite
chris: we know that
matt: do you have an aux
me: nick's getting it
matt: fml
chris: i swear to God if you guys scream
nick: we will
we all get in the car and since nick gets the aux, he plays doja, the queen
we scream the song as the two boys in the back tell us to stop
chris: SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP
matt: BRO BOTH OF YOU SHUT UP
we turn it up and sing louder
matt: STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP
chris: IM GONNA JUMP OUT THE WINDOW
nick: stop whining
me: children
chris: shut up
i laugh at his response
once we make it to target, me and nick stop screaming doja. we get the stuff and head back. we made sure to get spoons because we wanted to eat the ice cream in the car. we start to eat pretty quietly with a small laugh at the silence every once and a while
chris: so if you arent gonna talk i will
me: then talk
chris: matt looks fine as hell right now
me: i agree
chris: what
me: what
nick: ship names?
me: nick shut up
nick: it should be (come up with a ship name)
matts pov
me: nick stfu like fr
nick: can i say it
me: fuck you
nick: just for that-
me: STOP NICK
y/n looks at me with a small smile. bro did he actually tell her
me: did you tell her?
chris: y/n is definitely gonna take my boyfriend
y/n: i might 😏😏😏
chris' pov
me: damn i feel betrayed by matt
bro if they like each other i will cry for days. im acting like i dont care but i do. i fr said that y/n is gonna take matt from me when its the other way around. not like i have a chance with y/n anyway, she probably likes matt
Advertisement
y/n: you should
i can see matt looking a little worried
matt: uh so do you wanna make a car video?
y/n: sure
nick: topic?
matt: answering questions
y/n's pov
we start the camera and nick gets on his phone to look for questions to answer.
while he looks, matt and chris do the intro
chris: hi guys today were gonna answer questions
matt: we also have a special guest in the drivers seat since she took my spot
chris: y/n!
me: hi guys! im y/n. most of you know me but some of you dont so maybe these questions will help you to get to know me better.
nick: i have the first question here. who was born first? im the oldest, matt is the middle child, and chris is the youngest
matt: that had nothing to do with y/n but next
nick: well yea, how were they supposed to know she was gonna be here
chris: just read the next one
nick: ok uh... here's a good one. what are you hoping to achieve in the future? im hoping to have a bigger fan base and socialize with people more
matt: um i dont know, maybe the same as nick
chris: this isnt really achieving something but maybe talking about my feelings to people more
me: better mental health
it goes silent
nick: oh uh sorry
i look at chris since he doesnt really know anything but he looks at me confused
matt and nick look at me with sorrow in their eyes
chris: bro is there something you know that i dont
me: nothing you need to worry about
chris: okay, uh next question then
then chris texts me
the boys continue the video as we text
chris in an abyss
chris: are you okay
me: not now chris, im gonna cry on camera if i say anything
chris: its fine, talk to me when we go home
me:i hate today
chris: same
me: why do you hate it
chris: ive been thinking about us
me: ayo what
chris: not like that
chris:i meant in a friend way
me: oh what about it
chris: we arent that close
me: true, im closer to matt and nick
chris: i wanna make our friendship stronger
me: same
chris: when you feel better after talking to me, do u want to try and hang out and talk more
me: yea sure
chris: wait i had a question
me: yea
chris: are you and matt like yk
me: oh uh we kissed once but we havent made it official yet
chris: oh ok
nick: ok thank you for watching guys make sure to follow me, matt, and chris on socials and dont forget to follow y/n too.
they already finished the video? that was so short. maybe because i was typing slow asf. i feel bad for not participating. nick stops the camera and looks at me and chris.
nick: why didnt you guys talk
we sit in silence. hes definitely gonna make us remake the video.
nick: whatever its fine, all of the comments are gonna be assuming stuff tho
me: sorry
the rest of the ride home was pretty boring and quiet
——————
we make it home and i quickly get in the house then to chris' room trying not to talk to or encounter anyone. they probably think that we have something together but we dont. i dont even like chris like that.
soon enough, chris is in his room
me: finally, it took you long enough
chris: sorry
me: uh anyway, the thing i was gonna say
chris: yea, go ahead
me: it feels so weird talking about it. i dont even know where to start
chris: its okay y/n
me: so long ago i uh had a sister
chris had a very confused and concerned look on his face. i ignore it and continue
me: she, well, got abused...like alot..more than me
i paused trying to hold back my tears
(im sorry this is so repetitive 😭 i keep making you talk to everyone about it omf thank God chris is the last one)
chris: you dont have to hold back your tears, sometimes you have to just let it out
a single tear rolled down my cheek. i felt it fall of my face and onto chris' bed
me: then uh...she got tired of all the abuse and stuff so she uhm...im sorry chris. i cant
all the tears escaped my eyes. i didnt even finish my damn sentence
chris: hey its okay y/n
me: im so sorry
chris: dont be
me: i didnt even finish that sentence...so then she took her own life
that part was so hard to get out but i did it
chris: oh my gosh y/n im so sorry. why didnt you tell me before
me: it was so hard to
chris: how long have you kept that a secret?
me: i dont even know. its been so long.
chris: what was her name
me: elliana. she was so sweet and caring towards me and emery
speaking of emery, i look at him still asleep. how is he still asleep? maybe beacause he hasnt slept in days. i dont think ive ever seen anyone sleep for that long
me: wow. hes still asleep. i should wake him up
me: emery, wake up
i shake him a bit
emery: y/n?
me: its me
emery: i finally got some sleep! do you wanna know what i was dreaming about?
my eyes were still red from crying. i hope he couldnt tell
me: what did you dream about
emery: you and chris kissed! i saw it all happen! do you like him?
me: no emery, i dont like chris like that. hes just my really good friend.
emery: then do you like nick?
me: nick only likes men
emery: what about matt
thats enough 😍🔫
me: lets just stop talking about this
chris' pov
and of course y/n doesnt say anything when he asked if she liked matt. she does
emery: okay..im hungry
y/n: what do you wanna eat?
emery: uhhhhhhhhhhh i want
y/n: do you want waffles?
emery: yes
me: ill make them
emery: thank you chris!
me: for my favorite person
———————
i finish making him the waffles and give them to him
me: do you like them
emery: i love them! thank you
i felt like crying. he was probably starved just like y/n was. i feel so bad for them. they deserve better. we should get cps on their dad's ass
time skip
y/n's pov
its time to go to bed. again. today was a long day. gonna get into matts clothes and go to nicks room
me: hey nick
nick: y/n get your ass in the bed before i fall asleep
...
nick: is that matts clothes again?
-you have a hot brother so yes-
me: oh yea it is
nick: you guys need to become a thing
me: maybe you can become my future brother in law
nick: and my sister in law
me: i hope so
nick: careful
me: why
nick: chris is a huge simp for matt
me: wouldnt blame him
nick: what about me
me: were already married nicolas
nick: so were using unnicknamed names?
me: yes we are nicolas antonio sturniolo
nick: ok y/n y/m/n y/l/n
me: lets not make this a thing
nick: why not
me: im too tired to even talk
nick: fr
me: goodnight nick
nick: night y/n
ten minutes later
me: nick i cant sleep
nick: same here
me: why cant you sleep
nick: got a burst of energy but cant get up. you?
me: matt
nick: im nick...OH YOU MEANT-
me: yea
nick: what specifically are you thinking about
me: mustve been that kiss
nick: i know you love him y/n. you two are meant for each other
me: you think so
nick: definitely
me: that kiss is replaying in my head. i can literally tell you how many times i breathed in and out
nick: oh? how many times
me: is that a bird in the corner of your room?
nick: STOOOOOOOOOOP
me: whats so scary about them
nick: THEY CAN FLY
matts pov
i walk to nicks room because this kid is screaming in the middle of the night
i open his door with a lot of force because i was trying to sleep and all i can hear is nick
then y/n covers her face and turns away scared
wtf did i do
did nick do something
bro what
she looks back at me with relief
y/n: you scared the shit outta me matt
matt: what did i do
y/n: you literally opened the door just like my dad
matt: im so sorry i forgot
nick: why are you even here
matt: maybe because you were screaming while i was trying to sleep
nick: she mentioned
matt: i dont get why youre so scared of them
nick:
y/n's pov
bro matt scared the hell out of me. i felt myself shaking before i looked back and saw matt
me: anyway, goodnight matt. dont do that again
nick: yea or ill body slam you to the ground
matt: sorry y/n
me: its fine
nick: simp
matt: shut up
me: were you talking to matt
nick: yea
matts pov
im bouta smack nick to another dimension. if he doesnt shut up then i will kms because the embarrassment is 📈📈📈
——————————
i cant sleep because ive been thinking about y/n and how scared she got when i opened the door how i did. i wish i never did that. i feel so bad for scaring her
——————————
y/n's pov
i cant sleep because ive been thinking about matt and that kiss. i love him so much. i dont think ill ever stop loving him
_____________________________
you and matt are both thinking about each other 😏
i wish i could have what i write
you look gorgeous
im sorry for the trashiness of this story
i didnt proofread so lmk if i made any mistakes please
sorry for publishing this so late
good day to you ❤️
Advertisement
Sturmblitz Kunst: Becoming a Dissident for Martial Arts
"I don't care what you read in some old, dusty tome. You can spend decades chasing an outmoded cultivation method that'll probably lead to a faux-breakthrough trap from the Emperor that turns you into a walking impurity tumor, or you can give me a couple months and I'll teach you how to punch through someone's head." - Zelsys "Sevenfold Storm-conqueror" Newman, Founder of the Newman Family The world at large has just begun its recovery from the nigh-apocalyptic War of Fog. Catastrophic environmental damage and gaping power vacuums stir the cogs of history into motion in the absence of open war, eternally greased by the blood and sweat of ambition. A small duchy in the North of the country now stands at the precipice of upheaval as the burgeoning powers of the new era clash within its borders... Meanwhile, as the survivor of a now-extinct cultivator family struggles for survival in a world that cares not about his social status, the very embodiment of his escapist coping mechanisms forces him to pursue the fantasies of self-determination he had never dared act upon.
8 862The Tower Must Fall - Combat Gardener
If you're interested in a conceptual, ground-up rewrite leave a comment and tell me what you loved about it. I've got a pretty good idea of what everyone hated so there's no need for expounding on that. Gardener? A support class? This can't be! What was all my hard work for? Forget this world. Forget the System. Even if I'm a lowly support class, I'll take on the Tower and take them all down! Since the System appeared one hundred years ago, humanity has been divided into three: combat classes, intellectual classes, and support classes. Assigned at the moment of high school graduation, one's class determines their future. Rowan wanted the most out of life. A combat class, an intellectual class, either would be fine. When he is instead assigned a support class, Gardener, he notices the System is completely rigged against support classes. Refusing to give up on his dream of realizing his future by his own terms, Rowan challenges the Tower, the seat of the System and home of the Hero-King, in hopes of bringing the entire System to its knees. Season One complete. Permanent Hiatus, Pending Rewrite. Important notes: -LitRPG fantasy -Rowan is not perfect. He's got flaws, emotions, and personal issues to work through. If you want a perfect, overpowered MC who makes the right decision every time, this is NOT the work for you. -This story opens with a negative situation and an emotional growth arc for the main character. Please don't review until chapter 30 because the arc is not complete until that chapter. (Chapters are short, that's an average RR book's chapter 10) -No harem, no rape, no isekai, no romance -Questions? Please ask!
8 186The White Horde
[participant in the Royal Road Writathon challenge] Game of Thrones meets Attila the Hun. Set in an alternate Earth where magic is slowly fading and decadent empires must stand or fall against the barbarian hordes pushing west, this epic tale is told from the view points of three different people: Amazonia, a female gladiator who gains her freedom at the cost of a cursed Rune sword, and a mission to save the Empire of the East from destruction at the hands of the Sasnayam empire. Blood-Wysper, a Celtic priestess stolen by the Shadow-walker Ghostdog for the High Priest of the Sasnayam god Yun-Kax. A young woman with a mana node inside her like a second heart that regrows each time she is 'sacrificed', driving her to the edge of madness. Greywolf, son of Ghostdog and Asena, known as the Wolf-mother and once considered a goddess of war. a young man Asena considers scarcely more than a boy, Greywolf's actions will cause Blood-Wysper to lose her life unless he can save her, risking his freedom or his death at the hands of the high priest, Muzen. Empires will shatter and new ones arise, and all because of the power of the White Horde.
8 209Whispers of Long Lost Voices
When all hope is gone, the crew of Hestia’s Hearth will make their own.What You Can Expect: * A Dark Yet Hopeful Universe* Kick Ass Found Families* Hero Moms* Dancers, Musicians and Space Shanties * Disabled MCs* Space Nazis Getting Punched in the Face (Sometimes Literally) * Folks who actually deal with trauma and griefThe Known Universe has been at peace for almost 100 years, but for most of Brenn’s life, trapped on an Earth controlled by the genetically superior Aesir Empire, it hasn’t felt like it. The Aesir took her peace, they took her parents, and then they took her wife. Three years after her wife’s murder, she’s found a new life light years away from Earth. A happy one, most days, with a best friend and captain who understands her, and a shared mission to undo some of the damage the Aesir have done to the Universe and offer relief to anyone who needs it. But the past has a way of rising again. A surprise rescue mission brings Brenn face to face with her wife; delirious, ill, and scarred from the bullets Brenn thought had killed her, but very much alive with a newborn at her breast. A newborn whose very existence could mean intergalactic war. Now Brenn must balance her wife’s delicate mental health, new motherhood, and her own complicated feelings while working with her Captain and their odd bunch of friends and allies to protect her tiny family from a small, but influential group within the Aesir government who will stop at nothing to take back Brenn’s wife and child. All the while, there are whispers of a greater and more ancient power coming to life. A power Brenn’s wife knows more about than she wants to let on. It’s a good thing Brenn is used to fighting. CW: Contains mildly graphic scenes of violence/death, topics of unwanted pregnancy/abortion, scientific experimentation on sapient beings, depression/suicide, grief, and trauma. The tone of this fiction is often dark and distinctly dystopian in lighter shades of Margaret Atwood, though where there is darkness there is always hope and light. On Hiatus Until September When the School Year Begins and Mom This story takes a considerable amount of time and mental energy to complete. I thought I had enough backlog and time to post it as a serial while COVID kept my child home from school, but it turns out while I can quickly write other pieces, I cannot produce the quality I need with this one at an acceptable rate. We'll resume in September when my days are much freer. Thank you for your patience and stay tuned for a different storytelling romp more suited for a serial platform in the meantime.
8 74My Second Life As A Father Of Two
In my first life I carried with me many, regrets, fears and pain and just like that my life came to an end.But I was given a second chance, along with the chance to gain things I couldn't have in my last life, a family, love and a safe place to call home. So this time, I'll do it right, with a little bit of help from my past.
8 106Male Doppio Reader x Vento Aureo
This is going to be different from my Diavolo story. For starters, you're the older brother of Trish. I will explain more in the bio
8 183