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thats my alarm. its 8:00. i need to be at the triplets house in an hour.

1- take a shower

2-get ready

3-put some mascara on

4-perfume

5-leave the house

im gonna take a shower and ill only give myself 20 minutes to do that.

done.

now i need to pick out an outfit and put it on.

done.

now for some mascara.

done.

now to drown myself in perfume.

done.

i look good.

time to leave the house

almost out the door when...

*

hey

hey nick

are you coming

yea leaving rn

okkkk see you later

see you

read 8:47

i just walked in the house because these idiots never lock the door.

"im here!"

"Y/N!" chris says as he runs to the door.

"hi chris."

i give him a big hug and a kiss.

"y/n!" matt exclaims.

"hey matty b!"

"where nick?" i ask.

"im here!" nick shouts from his room.

matt's pov

thankfully, ive gotten over y/n on my own. i dont have to worry about anyone knowing about it anymore. still love y/n but not like that.

y/n's pov

"im so sad that i have to leave mass."

"im gonna miss you so much," chris remarks.

"me too," matt continues.

"i cant think of life without you three."

chris had tears in his eyes waiting to come out.

"chris stop youre gonna make me cry," i giggle.

i give him another hug and shed a tear. im glad that i have a month with him still.

"i have a month with you chris."

*

i check the notification.

"its my mom."

❤️

honey, we cant go to those boys' house every month.

why not

❤️

its too hectic. if we went once a month, we would only be at the new house for about 3 weeks before leaving again. me and your father think that we shouldnt go back. you will get too attached to them then it will be too hard for you to leave.

can we just stay in mass? my boyfriend and my best friends are here

❤️

we already told you honey, we found a house.

wow

ok

❤️

please dont be mad y/n

❤️

hello?

i shed another tear. that turned into two. then three. then a lot more.

"what did she say?" nick asks.

"are you okay?" matt asks.

"y/n?" came from chris.

i just sat there in shock and disbelief.

it hurts that i would have to be leaving them forever.

i hand them the phone.

"WHAT?" nick screams a little too loud.

"y/n, you cant leave forever," chris says full on crying with me.

"me, matt and chris are gonna miss you so much. you cant."

"why do they even think thats a good idea?" matt adds.

i quietly cry into chris' shoulder. i dont want to leave them. what if they forget about me? what if i forget about them? i couldnt. one of them is my boyfriend. i couldnt forget about him or his amazing brothers. i cant help but love these boys. i know id be a mess without them. my parents made a decision. i just hope i get to see them again. i dont want a long distance relationship with the boys let alone chris.

"lets make the most of this month," nick says.

"definitely," chris adds.

"im devastated. i dont know what i would do without you three."

"i dont know what i would do without you," chris says.

i go on my phone and open instagram. i make a story saying that i have to move.

i go to chris' room and im alone in here. i have so many messages asking why im moving and where. i make a new story and tell everyone that im moving to las vegas. i should probably steal a couple sweaters from chris before i forget about it by the end of the month. i get up and go to his closet which has a lot of lyrical lemonade stuff but i wont be taking any of that because i know how special they are to him. i keep looking and find a light blue hoodie and an orange one. theyre basic but its fine. i hope they dont lose his scent. i put the orange one on and i instantly felt a safe feeling. it feels like chris is hugging me. i smile and lay down on his bed. i need a nap after my crying session. i sigh and shove my face into his pillow. i love my parents but i think im starting to hate them. i hit chris' mattress angrily.

"hi y/n."

"you didnt knock."

"sorry."

"i dont wanna leave you chris."

he comes and gives me a tight hug.

"is that my hoodie?"

"yea," i giggle.

he lays down next to me and i look at him then smile.

"how long have you been crying for?"

"a long time."

"i love you y/n."

"i love you too."

i close my eyes and try to sleep. he does the same. i feel him wrap his arms around my waist and pull me closer. i drift off to a well deserved sleep.

i open my eyes slowly and see that chris isnt there. i check the time on my phone, .

i slept for that long? cant be.

i get out of bed and head to the kitchen since i slept for most of the day. i see the triplets and marylou. i decide to eavesdrop.

"its okay chris, youll see her again. spend this month with her and maybe we can go and visit her," marylou says.

"when do we visit?" chris asks.

"after she and her family finish moving in their stuff."

"chris you can still facetime and text her," matt says.

"yea you could," nick agrees.

"but i wanna be with her in person."

marylou gives chris a hug.

"i know honey."

chris looks so upset. i couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. he cares so much about me.

i go into the kitchen pretending i never heard anything. chris looks and smiles.

"hi y/n," he blushes like it was our first time meeting.

"hi," i laugh.

"chris is gonna miss you," marylou tells me.

i smile and look at chris.

"whos hungry?" matt asks.

"ME!" chris almost immediately yells.

"i havent eaten at all today because i slept the whole time."

"absolutely starving," nick says.

"chipotle?" matt suggests to which everyone agrees.

i inhale my food as everyone takes their time. i go back on my phone and rest my head in my hand which was propped up on the counter. i was trying to think of something to text my mom. i always start to type then stop.

mom

❤️

yes

why do we HAVE to move

❤️

your father found a very good job there and we think that we need a break from boston

break from boston? thats so stupid. i was born and raised here. i dont know what part of you and dad though it was a good idea to make me leave my best friends and my mf boyfriend. i have a whole other family here and you think we need a 'break'? ridiculous honestly. you two shouldve thought about me before thinking about moving into a whole other state without my opinion about it. sorry i forgot, my opinion doesnt matter. if you and dad agree on it then it has to be done. i you

❤️

before she could say anything, i put my phone down quickly.

"what happened there?" nick asks me.

"nothing."

i fight the urge to check the notification. i stare at my phone thats begging me to turn it over and look at what she said.

"let me guess, its your mom," matt correctly guesses.

"can i check it?" chris asks.

i nod and hand him my phone.

"dont tell me what she says," i say.

chris' pov

❤️

you didnt mean that y/n

i read the previous messages. i decide to reply to what her mom said.

she did

❤️

who is this?

chris

❤️

please give her the phone

"she told me to give you the phone," i tell y/n.

"tell her i dont wanna talk to her."

she says she doesnt want to talk to you

read 11:23

y/n's pov

ive made the decision that ill be spending this month with the triplets. i wont be going back to my house until the end of the month.

my eyes are shutting. me and chris are talking. im trying to listen as much as i can but im about to pass out again. i dont even know how im tired. i slept for most of the day.

"what do you think of th-" he looks at me.

"that tired huh."

chris picks me and places me on his bed and he goes back to whatever he was doing. i hate that i have to leave the people that are always there for me. i hope they do get to visit me.

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