Eid Mubarak Amigos.....back with a new chapter of HD....

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I fall in love with you,

A thousand times ....

I ran after you

I fall down

a thousand times more ...

In your love

I follow a dream

From yesterday and beyond,

It's your love

That made me realize ,

That not having you

Is not the end ....

Is not all !

I will pursue you

Surely, I will fail

A thousand times more...

I will live

I will live,

Within the memories of your !

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Memories:

noun, plural mem·o·ries. the mental capacity or faculty of retaining and reviving facts, events, impressions, etc., or of recalling or recognizing previous experiences. this faculty as possessed by a particular individual

Sigh…...memories are 1 hell of cursed blessing…..yeah cursed blessing….

confusing isn't it….it actually is confusing coz at times you can not simply decide that are your memories curse or blessings….coz sometimes memories makes us smile in contentedness...then again memories cause us go through agony….

sometimes memories are all we left with….sometimes memories stop us from moving forward…...at times memories are enough to live with for a lifetime….but it is also true no matter how romantic it sounds it is painful to live with memories….you can see other people enjoying companies with their companions….n there may be a lot of options left for you….but no1 will ever be good enough for you….when you drift back to memories they make you feel lost in them….1st you cherish those memories n then you start to miss the person….no matter how much others try to comfort you...your hearts solace only lies with the person you’ve got memories with….n that is the actual mess with this memory thing….that they provide you support for the lifetime yet they make your heart bleed…..

Manik was lost in the melody of the wind chime hanging over the window of his room…..everytime breeze flows it makes wonderful melody…..every time he can see twinkle of her eyes whenever it makes sounds….yes her eyes used to shine whenever this wind chime used to make melody..her eyes…..they shine like black diamonds shines….like the star shines….they say deers eyes shine like diamonds at nights….they get mesmerized by that

…..clearly they hadn't seen her eyes

…..so shiny….so deep….deep as ocean

….he could happily drown in them for the rest of his life…..she was his personal version of everything…..n now that she’s not here his life is surrounded by darkness...yes the sun rises every morning….the moon is there to give the sun rest….there are zillions of stars….but none of them can enlighten his life like she did….he despises himself for the mistakes he’s done...he can forgive every1 but alas he couldn't forgive himself….for losing her…...no amount of consolation would have made him feel better about himself…..the only villain of his life was he himself… the worst feeling in human life is guilt….

regret….remorse….. you can survive heartbreak….betrayal….lose…..abuse….but guilt is greater than any other agony you have to go through…..it kills your soul from inside…..it makes your soul hollow…..

He was touching the wind chime…..as if it was the only thing in this world….

Some1 hugged him from behind making him startled at 1st n then making him smile…..

M: Hows my Sanju Bro doing?

S: Bhai…(whining)

M: Yes Sanju Bro (mimicking her)

She hitted him making him chuckle….

S: Bhai you know I’ve searched a bhabhi for you….

M: Sanju darling I’m already taken…..

so sorry….

S: Bhai please I dont like Alya the Fu****g B***h….

M: Sanju don't talk like this about your elders (sternly) you’re getting spoiled day by day….

S: Right Bhai I’m a shame…..

She started to leave but Manik grabbed her hand n made themselves sit on his bed….

M: Sanju baccha you know it is not like this….

S: No need of these prep talks Bhai I very well know that I’m a curse on all of your lives….so please cut the cheese

M: Just tell me 1 thing….do you love me?

S: Is it even a question Bhai? Of course I love you….

M: Then you will have to listen to me okay….

S: Okay….Bhai go ahead….

M: Sanju you’re anything but a curse for us….if you were a curse for us then why do we try to get things better for you….do you really think we care about our reputation that is why we’re taking all the trouble as you say it...just tell me 1 thing do you think our love for you is just a show?

S: No Bhai never….

M: Then why do you keep calling yourself a curse baccha…

S: You know all those happened because of me….n now see every now n then I trouble all of you coz you guys are worried for my safety n then my habit….

M: If you know that your bad habit troubles us then why don't you leave it…

S: I try Bhai...honestly I try with all my heart but every time I quit every time there is something that drags me to hell what do I do Bhai...I can't handle the guilt I cant Bhai….guilt is eating me from inside...

M: Who knows better than me…

S: Bhai I’m the reason my Mamma is not alive….

M: Sanju Baby you are not the reason….you’re the only reason of your Mama's happiness….don't you dare blame yourself for others mistakes….why don't you get it Baby….I don't understand 1 thing why do you keep falling into same trap again n again is our love for you not enough to move on….

S: You guys love is more than enough for me Bhai but…

M: No but...ifs Sanju...if you really love us than you’ve gotta fight for us...you’ve got to change that damn habit of yours...not for yourself….but for us….will you do that?

S: I will try with all my heart Bhai…

M: That is like my sis….dont worry about other things… you are our princess it is our duty to protect you...not a burden….it is our right so never feel guilty about it okay

S: Okay Bhai….

M: Now be a good girl n get to bed it is really late….

S: Good night Bhai….(kissing his check)

M: Good night Sanju (pecking her forehead)

After Sanjana left Manik sighed….the long night is waiting for him….yes the night becomes real long when you are alone….

Til then stay_Blessed 💙💙💙