She's been counting the days, and it's been about two months.

Two months of having Jaxson as her boyfriend.

The day he asked her was her favorite day, it was a Friday after school when they, once again, had their usual sex on his bed.

Sometimes they would change it up to his floor, or against his wall, or even on his kitchen counter on their craziest days. She loved it, she felt slutty to think about it, but she loved sex. Sex with Jaxson, at least.

It was something she'd only watch on videos from time to time before Jaxson. She'd always picture it in her head when she touched herself, but she never thought it would feel this good.

After they both had climaxed on his bed and she took her teeth off of the corner of his pillow from the extreme feeling of her orgasm, he fell beside her and simply asked if she would be his.

She already assumed they were dating because of all the sex, but she never really thought about it until that moment. She just simply smiled in reply before kissing his plump lips that were still slightly wet from when his mouth was against her clit. But she didn't care, only focused herself on him.

She told her mother she was in an after school club, which is why she stayed at Jaxson's for an hour or two a few times a week. Not just sex, but old movies he had stored as well. Even if it turned into him sticking a finger into her in the middle of it, they didn't mind. She didn't mind. Nor did he, for he loved her. And not to mention loved showing her how much.

She ignored the queasy feeling in her stomach just then, thinking it had to be because of the lack of food she had eaten.

She walked down the hallway with about three books in her hands, smelling food from down the hall as she neared the cafeteria. It wasn't the best smell in the world, but she seemed to have been craving everything that caught her attention.

A few girls gathered up by some lockers looked at her as she walked, whispering and pointing. She heard Jaxson's name fall from their glossed lips, and she couldn't help but grow angry.

For a while now, people, especially the girls, talked behind her back about how her and Jaxson weren't fit for each other. She thought they were right, but after all, don't opposites attract?

Mattie ignored the stare of the girls as she passed and entered the cafeteria, biting her lip as she heard them laughing.

She turned around swiftly, and looked at the blonde with squinted eyes. The girls shorts were shorter than anything Mattie has seen, and her pierced belly button was half showing. Mattie shifted in her stance uncomfortably after realizing that she was wearing an oversized hoodie and some jeans. An obvious comparison to what seemed "cool".

"What are you looking at?" She asked with her drawn brow cocked. Her friends around her held back laughs, and Mattie felt herself turning beet red.

"Not much." She replied, feeling brave.

The blonde scoffed, and Mattie grew scared. She never was the one to start fights, if this was even one.

They probably weren't even directing their laughs at me, she thought, feeling stupid all of a sudden.

"She's mad that I fucked her boyfriend." She semi-whispered to the red head beside her; however it was enough for Mattie to hear.

Mattie sucked in a sharp breath, "what?" She breathed, not believing the words she just heard.

The blonde smiled, and that was all before they walked away, oblivious to the hurt that Mattie was feeling.

She knew Jaxson wasn't a virgin before meeting her, but she had no idea that he was into those type of girls.

Maybe she didn't know him as well as she thought, for all she knew he could have only wanted her for one thing, the thing every guy seems to want like meat to a wild dog.

Mattie furiously wiped an unwelcome tear from her cheek, and continued on to the lunch room to sit with people that only liked her because she was dating the boy in black. The boy every girl craved to have, but also the boy that they really knew nothing about.

*

After school, Mattie asked her mother to come and pick her up, for she didn't want to go to Jaxson's that day.

The constant thought of him kissing the blonde and thrusting into her all at once made her cringe, and just seeing him wasn't something that she wanted at the moment.

She ignored his phone calls as she neared her home, and this was the first time that she wished he wasn't living next door to her. For he would most likely sneak into her room once again, something that she finally began to realize was down right creepy.

Mattie planned to tell him this soon, and the more she thought about it, she realized that telling him at that very moment would be better.

So when she arrived to her bedroom, she made sure her curtains were closed and finally began to call Jaxson.

As always, he answered on the first ring.

"Mattie?" He said in his usual raspy voice that had her weak at the knees. She ignored the thought, and began to tell him what was on her mind.

"I need a little space, Jaxson." Mattie said, jumping right into the conversation whilst fiddling with her fingers as she waited for a reply.

"What? Why? We're doing fine."

"I just think we started a little fast you know?" She hesitated, "Maybe we should get to know each other a little better. I've just never been in a relationship Jaxson, you know that." She told him, picturing another girl riding him on his bed, the exact same spot that she did the same thing.

Mattie bit her lip and closed her eyes, praying that the thoughts would disappear.

"We should talk about this in person, I'll come over tonight-"

"No." She interrupted, leaving Jaxson confused on the other line.

"No?" He repeated, not exactly used to hearing that from Mattie, or any girl for that matter.

"No, Jaxson." Mattie looked to her closed curtain, picturing Jaxson right behind them staring as well.

He remained silent, and the silence frightened her for some off reason.

"There was this girl today," Mattie started, finding nothing else to say.

Jaxson stayed silent, and Mattie decided to continue anyhow.

"She said," she paused, not wanting to repeat the words.

"Tell me." He finally spoke in a curious, yet mysterious tone.

"She said she fucked you." Mattie told him, feeling like the words were lava in her throat and flames off her tongue.

"And that's why you want a break? Because some girl told you a lie?" Jaxson snapped, lying as well, but this was unknown to Mattie.

A slight feeling of relief consumed her, however she was still cautious on what to believe and

not to believe.

"What did she look like?" Jaxson asked after a few moment of silence.

"I don't know," Mattie thought back, trying to remember her appearance. "Blonde, belly ring, nose ring."

Jaxson then knew who she was talking about, but decided not to tell Mattie this.

It was Janine, her last name he did not know. For he didn't care to know, he just remembered being horny one night and her being an easy catch.

Jaxson closed his eyes and tried his hardest to control his anger, however it did not work very well.

"Mattie I don't know who you're talking about. I haven't had sex with anyone in this school except for some irrelevant girls when I was younger and you. You being the only important one to me." He said, hoping his words would change her mind about the break.

He knew it would most likely be temporary, however the fact that Janine would tell her this made his jaw clench in anger.

"I know.. I just think I need some time." He squeezed the phone in his hand harshly after hearing her words, and forced himself to simply agree.

"Take all the time you need baby, it's only you."

She smiled at his words, and after saying their goodbyes, Jaxson waited on his bed quietly.

He waited for the sun to fall with his hands in his lap and eyes concentrated on his window, and when it finally grew dark, he was grabbing his car keys and dialing Janine's number.

*

Her house was large, for her parents owned some type of business.

He remembered years ago, sneaking into her house and having his way with her against her bedroom wall before leaving without another word.

She was annoyingly loud and it was surprising her parents didn't awake, he thought, promising himself never to do it with her again.

Mattie was better anyways. She moaned only in his ears, and only loud when they were alone in his house and they were doing it rough enough to have his bed moving back and forth.

He tried his best to not grow hard at the thought of Mattie, and only to concentrate on what he was planning.

"Hey Jaxson." He heard her voice through the phone, and still was annoyed by it.

He parked a little bit further from her house, and watched it as the front porch lights finally turned off for the night by her parents.

"Hey." He replied, knowing the only way he was to get in was to make her think that he wanted her.

He knew she was the type to let him in even when knowing he had a girlfriend, and that was an advantage to him.

"I've thought about you today. It's been a while." She said flirtatiously, and he rolled his eyes.

"Yeah, I wanna show you how much I've missed you tonight." He told her, wanting to gag at the use of his words that felt like venom on the tongue.

"What are you waiting for?" She replied, and he began to think about her making Mattie cry again, causing his anger to grow even higher than it was before.

"Window unlocked?" He asked, clenching his jaw.

"Of course, always for you."

And with that, he was out of his car and pulling his black hoodie over his head before making way to her house with anger boiling in his blood.

He walked each step thinking about Mattie, wondering what she was thinking and feeling at that very moment.

Soon, he thought, he would make her feel so much better.

As he neared her window on the side of the house covered in vines, he began to climb up the large tree that made it perfect for anybody to get on her small balcony.

He knew he wasn't the only guy to climb to her room, but he did however, know that he would be the last.

"That was fast!" She hissed as he climbed over her balcony, pulling his hood off and shaking his hair, making the blonde bite her lip just from that simple action.

"God I missed you," she said, grasping the front of his black tee and kissing his lips with one fast force.

Her lips were so thin compared to Mattie's, and he wanted nothing more than to be kissing her right then instead of Janine. However this girl, this girl was the one that made Mattie question her relationship was Jaxson. He knew this, and it made his skin crawl with anger.

Jaxson's anger issues were not something to be reckoned with.

It was something Janine should have known, he thought, and began moving his hands up to her cheeks before making way to her neck and inching his lips towards her ear.

"Your pussy was never good anyways." He whispered softly, and twisted sharply until he heard a snap and the petite girl was on the floor, lifeless.

It brought back memories, he thought, and smiled before going to her closet to search for a belt.

Jaxson listened to the cars passing by out of her window, finding it strangely funny that they knew not of what they were just passing.

He dug through the drawers in her closet, finally finding a belt entirely the color black before turning on his heels and tying it around her slender neck.

He then picked her up, thanking God that she was light, and hung her in her closet.

It was the perfect suicide- right? He thought and pulled his hood back on before exiting her balcony and climbing down the tree, not even the shadows bothering to mess with him.

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