"Minah , are you ready yet ?" i called out to my girlfriend , who stood in the bathroom mirror caking her face with make up.

"Nigga stop rushing me , i told you beauty takes time !" she shouted while starting to apply mascara to her eyes.

I rolled my eyes growing inpatient while watching her. She didnt even need all that shit on her face if you asked me. Minah was beautiful. Her dark chocolate skin made my mouth water. That little nose piercing in her right nostril she always complained about only highlighted her beauty to me more. And dont get me started on those pretty brown eyes.

Her Whole name was Yasminah , I met her four years ago while in miami looking for Jolina. Turns out She was visiting her sister Shareese and niece Camille there and was here from Chicago too. Me and here hit it off pretty well , after about a month of us hanging out and stuff i asked her on a date and it went on from there.

My families met her and lets just say my mom and macy gives her a hard time. They want me to be with Kayden , but after that phone call i had with her a couple of years ago ? Yeah , we ended shit.

Flashback-

"Hello?" I spoke into the phone.

"Ima beat your motherfucking ass when i get out bitch!!" Kaydens voice rang through my ears.

I grew silent as a quick uh-oh went through my head. What was she so upset about and why was she going off on me ?.

"Babe ?! , Whats wrong are you okay? why you so angry ?." i asked in a guilty type tone.

"Nah , dont babe me. I been locked up for Four years and you out here sleeping around on me Rakell?! What the fuck happened to , "Ima hold you down while you in there. i dont wanna be with nobody but you. We gone get through this." Bitch i GAVE you the option to break up because i knew that i was gonna be in here long. I fucking KNEW. But instead i gave you the benefit of the fucking doubt kell. I gave you the benefit of the doubt and trusted your word. I trusted that you would actually hold me down in here and not fuck on other bitches , But i guess i was wrong. Hella wrong." She said her voice cracking some.

I held the phone to my ear unaware of what to say or even what she would say next. It was true and i wasn't gonna lie to her and tell her i was being faithful while she was in there locked up because i wasn't. I had indeed cheated. Not with one female but multiple.

I stood up making my way to the porch holding onto the phone. "Kayden i-i dont know what to say.. Im sorry." i said to her being sincere.

"Nah kell , Fuck your sorry. I know i aint no fucking saint and ive cheated on you before to , But damn... Im doing time for crimes that we did TOGETHER! And YOU said you would hold me down while i was doing this shit. Fuck you bro. Im done. Im In Prison , My fucking daughters been adopted by some fucking people i dont know... YOU promised me you Would take care of her. Yet you let her get taken away from me. YOU promised that youd hold me down in here yet your out here sleeping around on me. FUCK YOU! I dont EVER wanna hear from your fuck ass again. I wish you would have NEVER come back. I wish i would have NEVER let you in. All you do is hu- Beep beep beep beep." Kaydens rant got cut as the line went dead.. im assuming that her time was up.

I sat down pulling my head in my lap as tears streamed from my eyes. I had really fucked up. I could hear the hurt in her voice how her voice kept cracking. I just knew that she was crying while saying all of that.

I felt a hand rub across my back as i continued to let the tears stream. "i know baby , i know." i heard my mother say as she sat next to me. I looked over at her and she pulled me into her arms. I have no idea on what took over me then but i just broke down in her arms. I sobbed and i sobbed.

For months id call trying to talk to kayden She would come to the phone and once she heard it was me she'd hang up. Once i went to go visit her , she laid one eye on me and had the guard take her back to her cell. I wrote her a letter and she had it sent back to me. It hadn't even been opened yet...

I had really lost her.

Every since then my mom and macy sorta blamed me. I mean my mom comforted me for the moment. But after , She gave me hell. It took my dad to try to get her to calm down , but she still blames me at times.

Ashley , barely talks to me when im around. Her and Macy barely allows me to see my nephew at times.

But every since kaydená , Yasminah has really been the one here for me , Im truly in love with her and tonight i planned a dinner to propose to her. We've been dating for a couple of years now and i really think shes the one for me. Thats why ive invited my whole family including Kaydens mama and ash. Because although im not their favorite person at the moment , Both are still my family.

"Ion see why you , feel the need to continue to rush me , when you know ya mama dont like me. And neither does your sister." she said shooting a glare at me while looking back in the mirror applying lip gloss to her perfect little tiny lips. I laughed a little as i got up gripping her waist from behind , planting a soft kiss on her neck.

"kell stawwpp." She whined turning in my arms.

"Girl you better cover them big ass jugs up." i said referring to her titties. She had a lil to much cleavage showing.

Smacking her lips , she pushed me away. " See bye. Cause you saw what i had on already them waited til i started putting make up on to tell me to change. Go get yo fucking keys so we can go , cause you got me fucked up now." She said rolling her eyes and pushed passed me as that long ass hair bounced along her back.

I just laughed and grabbed my keys following her out to the car.

"Yknow they tryna get my sentece shortened ?" My roomate Shyla stated. I looked over at her and laughed.

"word ? Why though ? Yo ass be in here raping the guards and shit. You need more time." I told her being funny.

"Tuh , bye sammie sue. Just cause these gaurds be acting fruity towards me dont mean i rape them. They just like my sexy ass." she retorted back.

I continued to laugh at her , while trying to speak. "yeah well atleast you'll be getting out. They aint even tryna give me another court hearing." I said trying not to get in my feelings.

I guess I didnt do a good job cause shyla slid out of het bunk and climbed in bed with me , throwing a leg over me. "Papa , yknow i can help you out right ? My cousin has this bestfriend who's some well known lawyer and she's hard to pass up. i could get her to get you a court hearing and you'll be outta here within a week baby." she said looking me in the eyes.

I gripped onto her waist , staring back at her. "Well why hasnt she gotten you out of here yet ?" i asked her.

"Because papi i wont allow her to. My Mami tried to get me to switch lawyers but i wont. I refuse to take from that side of the family. But if it helps you get outta here than im down to help."

I sighed thinking about what shyla was telling me. I mean all of this sounded perfect , but im not sure im ready to be out. Im not ready to face the world yet. And by world i mean Kell... Although what happened between us was like 8 years ago im Still not fully recovered. My heart hurts so bad.

I wad truly in love with her , and i saw myself being able to get married to her. Maybe even having another kid to go along with...Jolina.. But all of thats gone. She betrayed me. She let me down and she didnt make sure lina would be safe with her. She let my baby get took.

"Dená?" shyla called out.

I snapped out of my daze , focusing back on her. " Yeah shy ?" i said eyeing her.

"i said what do you think about me setting a meeting up with you and her after i get out ?" she said.

"look shyla , i appreciate your kindness and shit , but im not gone be able to do it. Its so much shit outside if these walls that im nowhere near ready to face yet." i told her being honest.

"Dená , you cant hide behind these walls forever chica. You need to get out of here and go find your baby. That kelly bitch wasnt shit , but you need to go find closure with her stupid ass too. You staying behind these walls aint doing shit but tearing you down more and you need to get out. Let me help you , help you. You need this more than i do man." She said sitting up.

I looked away as a tear slid down my face knowing that she was right. I was sitting here hiding behind these walls , When in reality i needed to be out there looking for my baby. I had already missed 9 years of her life. I could care less about Rakell , I was really done with her. But my daughter ? Ill never give up on her nor will i stop looking. It was indeed time for me to stop the hiding and get ready to get my ass the fuck out of here and find my child.

Shyla turned my head towards her while wiping the tears that fell from my face. "What do yo say kaydená? You wanna take me up on this offer ? "She asked once more.

I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. I closed it and took a deep breath before finalizing my words. "Yea shyla. Im taking you up on this offer. Get us the fuck up outta here." i said sounding as sure as ill ever be.

she smiled , climbing on me pecking my lips over and over. " We Have til the end of this month. Thats when ill be getting out. Once im gone ill give my cousin a call and have her call her bestfriend up. Then we'll schedule an appointment with your judge. I promise that ill come visit and call you every night baby." Shy said as she wrapped her arms around me.

I laughed and smiled at how cute she was being. I met shyla when i first got in this joint. She was my roomate and at first she came out quite annoying and childish. But as i got to know her she became cool. She was the one who helped me out of my depressed state when i found out jolina had gotten adopted. Shyla had helped me keep sane even after i had found out about Rakells cheating. She was my whole balance while i was locked up and we had became some what close.

We weren't in a relationship or anything like that. We were more of the friends with benefits type of people.. I couldnt see myself being with anyone else after kell. I just wouldn't be able to do it. Maybe we'll be able to get over it , but as of now. I cant do it.

"wait , minah wheres lil mama?" i asked referring to our 3 year old daughter Lah'lani. And yes i actually mean "our". minah agreed to have my baby. We found out that both of us could biologically be her parent if we used bone marrow? So we used my bone marrow which was turned into sperm for Minah to get an insemination.

[A/N : This is Actually very real. Females can get other females pregnant by using bone marrow. They Turn the bone marrow into sperm and then put it into your partner. But due to both parents females the offspring would also be a female due to the sperm only having the X genes.]

My mom and mace was upset at first but they love that little girl now.

"She's with my mama remember ? " Yasminah said as we got out the car.

"Yeah , Shes bringing her to the dinner tonight right ? i do miss my princess." i said eying her while , gripping her hand walking towards the entrance.

"is your sister gonna play nice tonight ?" She asked as we made our way towards the table where our families waited.

"she better." i stated as we finally made it to the table.

"well look who finally decided to show up." Ash spoke dryly.

"Nice to see you too Ash." i said while me and minah greeted everyone.

"auntie kell !!" Mason shouted while getting up and hugging.

"Hey man." i said as i kneeled hugging my 8 year old nephew.

Yasminah shifted her weight to the other leg uncomfortably as kaydens mother glared daggers into her.

"wheres my neice ?" Macy asked as we all finally sat down.

"Oh , um lani's with my mom. They should be on their way here." Minah said smiling over at mace.

"i dont recall asking you , stay over there yasmine." Mace said rudely causing my mom, ashley and kaydens mom to laugh.

I looked over at my dad who shook his head in disbelief at them.

"Aye bitchessss !! " i heard behind me before i could even say something.

I Turned to see chris standing there holding a bottle while Jade waved pulling up some chairs.

"hey guys." chris spoke lowly while sitting the bottle down.

"Hi chris." minah said waving.

"Sup yasmine." Chris said nonchalantly.

"Her names not Yasmine. Its Yasminah. , Could you guys please stop being ass holes and leave my soon to be fiancé The fuck alone!!" i shouted growing aggravated.

The food wasnt even here yet and everyone wanted to act an ass towards minah.

"soon to be fiancé.?" Everyone spoke up in a questioning tone.

shit.

I didnt mean to out myself like that , but fuck it.

i sighed standing. "Well i wanted to wait til after dinner when everyone was here but fuck it." i got on one knee and looked over at everyone who had looks of confusion on their faces before looking up at Minah.

"Kell , please tell me your not doing this." My mother said.

"leave her alone woman ! Shes an adult she should be able to choose who she wants to marry." my dad said shutting her up.

"Seriously rakell?! You wanna get married to some bitch while my sisters rotting in prison ?! it was suppose to be you and Kay ! What the fuck ?!? " Ashley shouted.

I ignored them while grabbing hold of minah's hand as a tear slid down her face.

" Yasminah , We've been together for awhile now. You gave me My first actual child. You've shown me what love really is and i want to spend the rest if my life with you. I dont care what anyine thinks , i KNOW its you i want to be with for eternity. Minah will you marry me ?" i asked her while looking her eyes.

"Oh im gonna be sick." Kaydens Mom said.

"You have GOT to be fucking kidding me yo." Macy said.

"Knew i should have stayed my black ass at the crib. Why the fuck would you invite us here for this dumb ass shit." Christina said standing.

i ignored the fuck out of them waiting for minahs Answer.

"Yes baby, Ill marry you." she said causing me to smile.

"Like hell you will."

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Yeah , I refuse to do yall dirty. Ive lost All Hope For Stubborn. That book will be taken down until further notice.

But in the mean time Im Gonna start on book two for This Book . I Think im gonna call it New friends ? not sure yet. But i hope everyone enjoys this little filler until i publish The new book. ♡

Be On the look out for it my loves.