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Kell~

"Ma'am!!" Someone said Tapping my shoulder repeatedly. I sat up looking her in the eye.

"Man What !?!" I said to her.

"Well I Was Letting you Know That The plane Landed And Your The Only One Still Aboard." She said softly.

I eyed her suspiciously as I Began to look around the plane. "Oh" I said standing , Starting to stretch. I nodded grabbing my bag walking Towards the exit.

" Welcome Back , Witcha Big head ass." I looked to my left to see my buff ass Father standing there smiling ear to ear.

"Wassup pops ? You missed me that Much that You Had To Stand Yo Old Ass Right Out side my gate ?" I said to him.

He chuckled and Pulled me into a Hug. " I've missed you and Your sister both." He said to me.

"Where her Ass at anyways ?" I said to him.

"She's With Ashley. You know that's The only reason she wanted to come back so soon."

"Right , cause she was suppose to fly back down with me. But no she just had to come early."

"Don't be mad and salty cause she Happy To See Her Girl And yours Aint Even Thinking bout yo Shitty Booty Ass."

"Yknow what pops. Choke on Some Nuts."

I rolled my eyes As we Got in the car and He Pulled off.

"Where my mama.?" I asked him.

"Nigga Its 4 in the morning. Where the fuck you Think she at ?"

" oh Damn Neverminddd." I said to him laughing

"Right So When We get Home. Keep Yo Fucking mouth Closed And Don't Wake her up."

"What ever. Keep driving old man. I'm tired."

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"Kell Get Yo Ugly ass up !!!" I heard Macy's Annoying ass Voice say to me.

"Hush , I'm Trying to sleep." I said tossing a pillow at her. Soon as the pillow hit her I began to hear cries from a baby. So I sat up quick glaring at her.

"Why do I hear Baby Cries ?" I asked Macy.

"Maybe its because Ash is Downstairs With Her niece ?" She said to me.

"Why she here ? And Why The Fuck She bring That ugly ass Baby Over Here ??" I asked looking at her side ways.

"Nigga she here cause I told her to come over. And leave that baby alone. Jolina Ain't Do shit to you."

"Ew!! Its Name is Jolina ?? Id Hate To know what The Fuck her middle name is." I said pretending to puke.

"Since you talking so much Shit about my niece Lemme Tell you her Whole name." Ashley Said walking in my room.

"Who told you to come in here ? And nah Ma , I'm coo."

"Her names Jolina Rakell Anderson." Ashley said to me.

my Facial Expression changed and Mace began to laugh uncontrollably like that Was The funniest shit she's heard in her entire life.

"That's Ugly As Fuck !! Why Would she give that Ugly ass Baby my name ???"

"Kell , IOn know what happened to you. But you've changed And Ion like who you've became to be."Ashley said to me.

" sounds like a personal problem. Now you and that Ugly ass baby leave my room. And Mace. Go with them. Cause your starting to annoy me too. And you ain't even saying shit."

"Rakell , You need To check yoself for real for real." Macy told me.

I rolled my eyes giving her a thumbs up. I honestly could care less about. What either her or Ashley is saying. Hell my heart is broken... Ion give a fuck , Kayden shouldn't have did me like that. I came back for her ian gone lie.

But now that I'm really thinking about it ? Maybe I shouldn't have.

She Probably doing good as Fuck without me.

"Bruh Where the fuck is it at Lucky ???!" I screamed at her.

"Mann , Why You fucking with that shit ? You be having our child in this House when you doing it at that." She said to me.

I sniffed rubbing my noise throwing my head back looking in the air. " Bro , She's not here.. Just give it here lucky.. I promise I'll quit.. Just lemme have one more dose of it." I told her.

"Nahh , You'on know how to handle it. I shouldn't have got you started on it anyways mane." She said to me.

"Fuck !!! Why won't you just stop?!?! I've lost soooo much over you... I just want my baggie Lucky .. Give it here.."

"You lost so much over me ? Fuck are you talking about?"

" it don't matter ! You ruined my life... Just gimme my fucking bag!!"

"You ruined yo own fucking life ! If you wanted to keep yo relationship with Rakell You Would have stopped fucking with me. But did you ? Nahh you didn't. You ain't even Take the damn pill. Shit all this was yo fault. Don't blame me. Shit matter fact , Here ! Take yo Coke. And over Dose on This bull shit while you at it." She said To me As She Tossed me The little Baggie Filled With a White powdery substance.

I caught the bag as my body began to fill up with joy.

"Fuck You. I Hope You Die ! And I'm Taking our Daughter." Lucky said as she walked to the door.

"She's All Yours Bitch ! " I screamed As I sat in the Dining room at the table. I poured Some of the coke on table Begaining to line it as I stood up and Sniffed the whole line.

I sat up Wiping my noise as I walked to the back Grabbing a Pill Bottle.

I took the top off biting my lip as I poured a few in my hand walking to the kitchen Grabbing a cup of lean I made earlier today. Taking a look at the pills I tossed them in my mouth and took a swallow of lean Before returning to the table Preparing myself For Another Line To Sniff.

As I Sniffed , I Began To Feel That Rush of excitement as my body began to feel different , But In A Unique Way If You'd Ask me.

I Felt All my Worries soon Go away.

I Sat On The couch and laid back As I stared in the air Thinking of how Fucked up my life is now.

I got pregnant with a child ian want.

I lost The Girl I've Loved The Most.

She hates me now.

Shit I hate myself now..

These drugs are the only thing keeping me happy at the moment and I honestly wouldn't have it any other way.

I stood up walking over to the table stumbling a little as my doorbell began to ring.

"Its Open." I Giggled as my Eyes Began to feel Heavy And I sniffed on some more of my Wonderful Drugs.

I took another sip of lean As I looked at the door to see Rakell.

"Kayden What the fu--" her sentence went dead As I lifted the little baggie I had in my hand smiling.

" You Wanna Try ?.. It Really Helps When it comes to stress." I said Giggling more.

She began To walk towards me as she teared up. But my vision began to get blurry and my chest felt all weird and funny.

Before I was able to see anything else I blacked out and the last thing I remember was kell screaming my name.

Please tell me that I'm Dead.

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