The words that came from my mother's mouth replayed in my head as my whole entire life shattered in front of me.

I turned and punched the fuck outta the wall putting a big ass hole in it.

"Damn it Rakell ! Why the fuck are you going around putting holes in the wall you dumb ass? You act like I said were moving back to new York or some." My mother said to me ass I slowly pulled my fist out of the wall with a stinging sensation running through my fist.

"What?!" I asked her once again

My mother glared at me. "You act as if I told your dumb ass, we were moving back to new york" she replied to me.

"Where we moving to then ?"

"Next door to kaydens mother house you real shallow ass dummy." She replied to me.

I sighed in relief "oh thank god I thought we was in trouble for a second."

"Well if your ass dont get a job you will be" she said causing me to look at her.

"Huh?!" I said looking at her confused.

"This house is under your name now. You own it. Were moving you aren't." My mother said causing me to smirk.

"Your giving me the house?"

"Yeah so be careful on what you do. Like punching walls when your dumb ass is mad."

I shook my head laughing at her "mama. You done yet?"

"Hell nah stupid! You wanna come in on rampages and shit, like damn I understand you love Kayden and all and you ready to get her back to yourself but lawd Kell ya desperate ass ain't gone get her by punching my damn walls !" My mother yells at me causing me to burst out in laughter.

"First off. Why you talking shit. Kayden and me are just fine. The only reason that wall got punched cause you made it seem like we was actually leaving again. Hell y'all was gone be on y'all own cause I'm grown. I was gone stay" I told her.

"Stay my ass. Kell you a Lil punk your ass has to be with me all the time cause you mama's baby. Ole punk ass" she said causing me to glare at her chuckling softly.

"Oh mom I hate you sometimes" I said smiling.

She shook her head as Macy came in the kitchen "I love you to Kell" my mom said smiling. We both looked over at Macy and she sighed taking a deep breath.

"I dont want the penis anymore"

''Sex ain't better then love, I been out here in these streets and I then learneddd that sex ain't, sex ain't, sex ain't better then lovvee" I sang as I dried off from my shower sliding on a pair boxers and a sports bra.

"Girl you've been my teacher and I learneddd" I continued to sing as I went in my closet pulling out some khaki shorts with a white polo shirt. I slid on some socks and a pair of white air forces. I went in the bathroom letting my dreads out its high pony as I applied a few moisturizers to them running my fingers through my scalp.

I looked over myself in my full body length mirror pleased at the sight. And since ian been on the gram in a while I snapped a few pics for the hoes to gawk over.

I noticed I had 40+ new followers but one I noticed in particular to be Rakell...

I dont know why but the bitch on the outside of me wanted to deny it while on the inside my body jumped for joy.

I smirked and clicked on her page groaning when I saw it was private.. I had no fucking choice but to follow her now. So I clicked the follow button and tossed my phone onto the bed as I heard light knocks on my front door.

"Who is it?" I yelled as I moved closer to the door.

"Me baby" I heard kalleys soft voice say.

I rolled my eyes opening my front door letting her in.

She walked in slowly making her way to my living room. Making her self comfortable on my couch.

I walked over to her waiting for her to speak. Which she didn't do so I just broke the silence.

"So what brings you by kalley?" I asked looking at her.

"I thought you said we was going to the kareoke club tonight?" She said looking at me.

"We are but I said to meet me there. Not show up at my crib." I told her.

"Why? Hm? You got some bitch coming over tonight before you leave? Huh kayden ?!" She said starting to raise her voice.

See I need to cut all strings with this bitch. And I need to do it quick.

"No kalley damn. I'm just finna make a few stops before I actually step foot in that club just chill out gone head and leave." I told her.

She looked at me and began to tear up. Man she knew i hated when she cried. That's my weakness with females.

"Kalley no dont cry babe" I said walking over to her.

"No Kayden I dont get it. Am I really not good enough for you?" She sniffles continuing to cry.

Damn it you have got to be kidding me. She's just crying so hard and she feels she ain't good enough?

What the fuck is going on with me. I'm really going soft because I actually care that she feels that way and this is a first.

"Baby I'm sorry you feel that way. I know ian been the best girlfriend I can be for you lately but you gotta understand that ian been in my right state of mind ight? But just know that I do love you and I'm gonna make you see that the best way I can." I told her

I'm not even sure if I love Kalley I mean .. I think I do.. But still..

She looked up at me with a sad facial expression "but you dont act like it Kayden... It hurts me to see the way you treat me sometimes." She said.

Now I really started to feel bad.. I always treated her like shit.. And she continued to come back to me even the times when I cheated and cheated she just kept coming back and I kept doing her dirty.

I'm over it ima do better. I need to do better when it comes to her. "Look kal. Go to the club. And when I get there I promise you its gone be me and you. Ima make sure of that. And then we gone come home to our apartment and make sweet love." I told her smiling.

She looked up at me with those sexy ass blue eyes I fell in love with. "Really?" She asked. "Yes baby really" I answered and she nodded.

I then pecked her lips and we walked towards the door. I checked to see if I had my phone and keys and after that we went our separate ways.

First stop was my moms place.

When I got there I saw that familiar car with that new York license plate and I instantly grew happy as I got out the car making my way inside.

When I got in my happiness grew into sadness as I seen Rakell's mother and not her.

She was crying silently talking to my mother.

"I just dont get it kaylina. Macy's grew up all the way and now she just wants to up and cut off the penis. I mean I have no problem with it but I dont want anything to go wrong with my baby during that procedure. What if they do something and she won't be able to have children?!." Ms Anderson cried continuing to talk to my mother.

Soo Macy wants to get her little friend cut off. Hmm I wonder why.

I walked in the kitchen and Mrs Anderson quickly wiped her face and the kitchen grew quiet. "Hey guys" I said as if ian hear a thing.

"Hi Kayden. Your hanging with Kell still tonight right?" Mrs Anderson said

"Yes ma'am" I said smiling at Rakells name

"Alright well you two have fun tonight" she said sending me a wink.

She know some I dont ?... Yeah.

"So why you here Kaydenà?" My mom asked me.

I groaned at the fact that she used my whole name which I'm slowly starting to hate.

"Came to check on ash before I leave towards the club"

"Ohh. Well alright then go head and have fun"

I nodded at my mom and ran up the steps. I looked around the hall noticing how much I missed it here.

I entered my old room looking around at the aqua scenery. I looked over at my white desk in the back noticing my favorite blue butterfly pen. I had got it in the mail when I was younger. It was my favorite pen ever. The pen was a light sky blue with a huge butterfly on the top. When you wrote the ink came out a sparkly type of blue. It was amazing. But till this day we still dont know who sent me this bad boy.

My mom thought I should have gave it away or some. But it was special to me. And I never knew why.

I smiled down at the pen sitting it back down.

Taking in the rest of the scenery I sighed and walked out going next door to Ashley's room. She was sleeping. So I turned and made my way back down stairs.

"Ma ash was sleep. Tell her I stopped by" I said making my way towards the front door.

"Ight Kayden. I'll see you later" she said and I waved and walked out the house. I checked the time. It was 10:15. I got in my car and drove towards the club we all was linking up at tonight.

Who ever gets drunk first is going on my isntagram live I don't care, I dont care. I'm embarrassing these hoes tonight.

I pulled into the parking lot feeling like I was the shit. Keira was in the passenger seat looking like a sexy ass snack. I had on my some khaki's my tims and a white polo shirt. My gold Rolex was on my wrist shining like the diamond it was. I had my bitch snatchers on.

( you know the glasses that straight bitches call nigga snatchers? Yeah that)

I let my hair down tighting my bandana. And then me and keira got out making our way towards the club doors.

It was some type if kareoke club but the club was on the bottom floor. So everyone was linking up at the club first and then we was gone make our way upstairs to embarrass ourselves in front of these white people.

I looked over at keira as she looked around at the scenery of the kareoke part. The walls were black and white with pictures of musicians and other people. In the middle of the ceiling there was a big ass chandelier hanging.

It made me think of sia's song chandelier.

I looked around a few more times and then made my way down the steps towards the loud ass music.

"Oh shit, its lit" keira said looking around as we made our way through hundreds of moving bodies on the dance floor.

"They said we was meeting at the bar. Let's go" I said pulling keira's arm trying to move further towards the bar.

When we finally reached the bar I spotted kalley , Christina and Hennessey. They all were there but Kayden was no where in sight.

"Where's Kayden chris?" I asked as I got over to them.

"She had to run some errands before she came here" kalley yelled over the music speaking before Chris.

I looked at her and was about to speak but Christina beat me to it.

"Look bitch. I already dont like you. Everyone knows this. So when grown ups are talking? Dont butt into there conversation just stay the fuck to yourself" Chris said causing everyone to laugh.

Key clung into my arm and laughed whispering into my ear "I like your friends there really mean and funny" she said.

I nodded smiling.

Kalley decided to speak. "I understand you two ," she said pointing at Chris and hennesy "don't like me and all, but honestly I dont care. Kayden and me are in love and one day in the future were gonna get married weather you like it or not." She finished.

"Bitch Kayden cheats on you every fucking chance she gets. You call that love?" Hennesy said mugging her.

"That's old shit. Kayden ain't like that no more, she loves me, she told me that her self" kalley said again.

Chris looked over at me and Keira then winked. "I'm sure Kayden loves Rakell more then she loves your goofy ass" she said.

I just laughed looking away so nobody caught my blush.

Keira started to get stiff in my arms. So I leaned against her "Babe you okay?" I mumbled against her ear.

"Yeah... Their just starting to get too mean for me." She said.

I nodded at her. "Aye y'all just chill out on kall--" my sentence was cut short.

"Nahh shut the fuck up. I got my own battles" kalley said looking me up and down.

"Uh? Well excuse the hell outta me." I said mugging her. Now I really dont like her.

Hennesy looked at me and then back at kalley. "See you lucky Kayden our homie, cause if she wasn't. Bitch you'd be fucking twelve feet under. Not six but twelve" hennesy said.

Kalley was about to speak but Kayden popped up outta no where and grabbed her from behind whispering in her ear.

Kalley giggled and I started to get real frustrated.

Everyone else groaned. Even keira. I looked down at her and she had this look of disgust all on her face. I ignored it and decided to get loose tonight.

"Who getting wasted first?!" I shouted

"Me niggaaaa" Hennessey yelled taking down a shot of henny.

I laughed at her.

"Word nigga?" I said.

"Yeah bitch." She said and grabbed two more shots taking them bitches like a fucking pro.

5

"Rockyyyyyy" Kayden yelled from behind me.

I looked at her laughing. Unfortunately Kayden and keira got into a drinking contest and Keiracouldnt hold her liquor anymore. She began throwing up and some other shit so I called her a uber and sent her home.

Kalley on the other hand was about to get into a fight with this drunk ass guy who kept tryna feel on her so she got pissed off and went home. So now its just me, hennesey , Chris, and Kayden.

Now Kayden tipsy ass behind me talking shit.

I just stood there laughing at her.

I had about 3 drinks tonight and I'm just about the only sober fucker in this bitch.

"Damnnn man I need some waterrr" Kayden said sitting next to me.

"Well order some when we get upstairs cause it's time to bust our ass on that stage"Hennessey said to us.

We all nodded laughing and got up walking upstairs.

"I'm picking everyone's song!" Chris said.

"Not mine you drunk ass bitch"Kayden yelled causing us all to laugh

"Nigga your the drunk one" Chris said thumping her in the head.

"Daddy tell her dont touch me" Kayden said clinging onto my arm.

I shot Chris and hennesy a glare and they both bursted out laughing as my cheeks flushed a low red. I smirked down at Kayden.

"Did you just call me daddy?" I asked her as we all sat in a booth

Together

"Maybe nigga" she said causing me to laugh.

"You still drunk?" I asked her with a smirk.

"I never was. I'm just tipsy as fuckkk" she said laughing.

"Nahh nahh, kayden gone head and Step over to the get yo ass strapped down side" Chris said causing us all to laugh.

"No bitch shut yo ass up. I will never be dominated." She said.

"No bitch Kell gone have yo ass leaned over witcha' ass up and her strap in ya guts" Chris continued.

"Ass up ! Strap pounding you fucking walls down" Hennessey added. I laughed hard trying to imagine that.

"Kell won't be doing shit ! Her strap wouldn't even be worthy of my fucking pussy!!" Kayden yelled

I rolled my eyes laughing ''aye one of y'all getchall drunk ass up and go sing." I said looking around tryna change the subject.

"Bitch you go sing. Since you daddy and shit." Kayden said making me laugh.

"Bet, I'm finna do this for you ma" i said getting up.

"Ahh shut yo gay ass up and go singggg" Kayden said grabbing a menu.

"Ight go pick my song fucking christina" I said getting up. Walking towards the stage.

"Ight bitch say hello to fucking Toni romiti somebody." Chris said causing me to look at her.

"I am not singing that emotional ass shit" I said looking at her.

"Shut yo ass up and get yo non singing ass up there" Kay said to me.

I bit my lip laughing and got on stage. She lucky I get turned on when she boss my ass around.

But since she talking shit Im finna show that ass wassup.

"Ayo start that track Chris." I said smiling.

As the music started I looked at Kayden and started singing keeping my eyes on her.

"I wanna be somebody that you call on, I wanna be somebody that fall on''

As the song ended I slowly made my way off the stage, as everyone in the little place started to cheer me on. "Damnn Lil nigga Kell got them pipessss" Hennessey said patting me on the back causing me to chuckle at her remark.

"Man I kid you fucking not, I made a good ass choice for you cause damn your bitch ass was hitting then notes. Not to mention, you had yo eyes on a special Lil someone the whole time you sang" Chris said.

I smiled and shrugged "I mean did i?"

Henny chuckled with a smirk "hell yeah. Look at her, she over there speechless'' she said

I looked over in her direction noticing that Kayden was just staring at me with this look in her eyes. I couldn't tell what it was but it kinda scared me.

I was beganing to speak when she beat me to it , sliding out her booth walking over towards me

"Dont say shit, don't move, let me do me and when I'm done, don't bring it up cause I may regret it." Kayden said as she gripped onto my waist pulling me closer.

"Uhh , Kay Kay watchu talking abo--" my sentence was cut short as Kayden smashed her lips into mine, it took me a minute to fully respond to what was going on but I finally kissed back, feeling the electricity that I felt the day we first kissed when we were much younger.

As I snaked my arms around her waist , beginning to get caught up in the kiss I heard Chris and Hennessey gasping they were mumbling as me and Kayden continued to kiss rarely breaking apart to catch our breath.

She slowly ran her tongue across my bottom lip pulling it into her mouth, she sucked on my bottom lip finally letting it go as she slid her tongue in my mouth.

''Bruhhh !! The bitch stuck her tongue in her mouth !?!" I heard Hennessey say.

"Heather shut up ! I told yo ass Kayden was gone come to her sinces." Chris said responding to Hennessey.

Kayden and I continued with our little make out session until someone rudely snatched her out of my arms. Man I was bout to go the fuck off. Im damn near dripping wet in my boxers and niggas wanna snatch on my baby.

"Oh shit." Chris said lowly

"Oh shit is right !" Hennesey said.

I looked up over at Kayden to see her and Kalley staring at each other.

Oh shit... , when she get here?

"Kayden !?!" Kalley yelled looking at my Kay Kay. "What the fuck was that !?!" She finished while looking between me and Kayden.

I smirked lowly as Kayden glared at her and responded to her with a blank expression.

"What was what?"