|Amor'e Winters|

Dr.Kae: how have you been these past few months?

Me: i have been great, my businesses are really doing well everything with my mental health is great

Dr.Kae: and chris? have you guys spoken since the incident?

Me: um no...he's been texting, calling liking and commenting under my pictures on Instagram but there hasn't been any type of communication

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Dr.Kae: so do you miss him?

Me: yeah of course i do but he's probably happy with whoever he's been with so there's no need for an "US"

Dr.Kae: *places her leg on top the other* and why do you think that?

Me: because after everything that has happened it like every time we make up or arw on 'talking terms' again it like he does the same thing over again too me

Dr.Kae: and why do you think he does this too you?, why do you give him the opportunity too do this again and again?

Me: because i love him...i don't think i.... myself even understand how much i love him and i guess i allow him too because its like i can't let go...even though i tell myself i'm not gonna see him again or i'm not gonna listen too him but...when he does come around it's like my heart yearns for him and i break down and i let him in and i feel so stupid because i'm the one that's left with the broken heart

Dr.Kae: *smiles* your not stupid amor'e your young and your I love with a man whom i think loves you but he just doesn't understand the term "too love another women" other than his child and his mother. And with you the problem is you don't know how to put him in his place and express that hurt for him too understand well she feels this way let me treat her different but he can only do that if he loves you as much as you love him

I wiped the tears falling down my face with a tissue and took a deep breath.

Dr.kae: okay so i reached out too Chris myself and he is here today so were gonna bring him in right now and finally get too the bottom of everything...were gonna listen too his feelings and you are going to express yours okay?

I hesitated at first but then nodded slowly confirming that she could bring him in.

She got up and left out the door.

If this doesn't work i guess i'm just gonna have too move on with my life.

It's going too be heartbreaking that i'm not gonna be with him but i'm stronger too handle myself this time so i'll be okay.

The door opened revealing Dr.Kae and a very well dressed chris.

He wore a black sleeved shirt, light washed jeans, his hair curly black with the blonde on top, beard freshly cut and some red jordan 1's.

She closes the door and then walked too the middle of the room and ushered him too sit next too me.

My body stiffened up feeling his presence next too mine.

He said hi and i replied with "hey".

Dr.Kae: chris thank you for joining us today *smiles*

Chris: no problem

Dr.Kae: okay so your probably wondering why you're here....well your here because for the past year amor'e and i have had many sessions in which there was alot of pain...pain in which i can see that you have inflicted within her....but i wanna get your side of the story today so take me back too when you first started dating....how did you guys meet etc....

Chris: *clears throat* we met at the club....i saw her with her friends dancing and i just had too get her number, so i did and we started talking for a few weeks...then i left because of my tour, i invited her and her friends too the city we were in and then we lost touch

Dr.Kae: hmm are you sure that you weren't in an entanglement with another woman the same female in which you cheated on amor'e with?

He nodded his head.

I could sense he was uncomfortable...and so was i, i myself never really confronted him personally on the situation my friends ways did.

And i guess that i-i was wrong for that...i should have talked too him myself.

Dr.Kae: ah okay... Chris did you ever think of the effect that would have on amor'e knowing that you guys were together because you told her that you were with the other girl but yet still you were still having intimate sessions with her?

Chris: yes

My eyes glistened with tears as i tried too hide the hurt look on my face.

Dr.Kae: do you see what those doea too the woman that you claim that you love?

He nodded once more.

Dr.Kae: okay moving on.... y'all were together for a good time and there was alot of arguments did anything ever happen where you left too go too said girls home

Chris:*sighs* yes

My wimpers got louder and he looked at me.

Dr.Kae: ....have you cheated on amor'e with more than one female before

Chris: no it's only been ammika

Dr.Kae: chris *smiles and takes off glasses* do you see how this is hurting her right now?

Chris: yeah *sniffles*

Dr.Kae: how does that make you feel

I wiped my tears with my tissue once more and fixed my hair.

I knew he was crying i could feel it...this is how much this man and i are connected i feel his pain when he's hurt.

Chris: like shit....i never think before doing when it comes too mop relationships, i did break it off with her but one night i was out and i got drunk she was there and i vented too her about the argument that we had prior and we hooked up

Me: omg *cries*

Dr.Kae: amor'e how does this make you feel?

Me: um *voice crackes* well i feel like i was never enough for him...*sniffles* because if you can actually do that too me after some petty argument then would of done it because of anything....and the funny thing is i would never do that i would rather be in the same room with him than me go out knowing that i'm angry but when he's pissed off he doesn't like too sit and talk about it...*cries* and that hurts me too even know know that he doesn't love me enough too do that

Dr.Kae: chris?

Chris: *tears run down cheek* i just- i don't know what to say...i don't know....i love her, i love amor'e she's the first girl that has loved me for me in a long, long time and i don't know how to savour that

Dr.Kae: you've gotten accused too having relationships with these women that are short lived when you actually come across someone who is in it for the long run you don't know how to cope with that...but chris she has put up with so much from you that she's broken inside, she seems okay but...she's not

Chris: i know and i know that i'm too blame but i don't wanna loose her...i can't live without her she's the one i just know she is

Hearing him say those words just made me cry even more.

Dr.Kae: chris i want you too turn your chair facing amor'e and amor'e vice versa

He got up and did as told and so did i.

I kept my head down because i didn't want him too see me cry.

Dr.Kae: i want too give amor'e a chance too tell you....christopher all the pain that she's been holding inside

I waited a few seconds took a deep breath and met his face with mine.

Just seeing his eyes red and glossy made the tears stream down like the river of jordan.

He took his tissue and wiped my eyes and face making me smile a little.

Me: um after the first tour and everything you just forgot all about me and you got back with her...we had talks about trying it out see how the relationships go but its like you forgot all about that...fastfoward a little bit you promised me that you already broke up with her and that we were gonna be together*voice breaks* the argument was the first time you cheated you never told me nothing...you just came home and we had sex like nothing happened. That night i followed you and there you were still her house with her arms all up on you...you left me at home wondering where you were do you understand how that broke me inside*voice breaks again* you left for business but you were in germany visiting her...you left someone whom you claim that you love, i would have e never did you like you did me and i hate that i still love you so much chris, i love you so much that i would die for you, i would defend you until the day that i die.

By this time i was in full blown tears...but it also felt good too release what i had been holding in for soooo long.

Me: i couldn't eat, i couldn't sleep, i couldn't think because i didn't have you, but you weren't worried one bit because you were having the time of your life with that girl...i felt like i wasn't good enough for you..like my love wasn't enough, you made me feel so low and so unappreciated it's so crazy the amount of emotions i was feeling, i wanted too kill you, i wanted too strange you i felt so dead inside

He got up and stooped down i front of f me, he hugged me and i just cried in his arms.

Dr.Kae: good job amor'e now you tell her how you feel

Chris: baby i'm so so so very deeply sorry for hurting you, it hurts me too see you like this and it hurts me even more that i'm the one that caused it, amor'e i love you so much and what i did was stupid ig i could take it back i would but i can't baby, i can only try too make it better i can't loose you baby i just can't i wouldn't know how to deal with myself if i did these other girls don't give a fuck about me...your so passionate about me and that's one of the things i love about you. I'm sorry, I'm willing to do the work too make us better and too get us back too where we were and even better, you are the girl that i want and your are enough for me your the girl that i see myself with ten, twenty years from now married...yeah i said it*laughs* i want marry you baby but i wanna heal the wonds that I've created please give me another chance...please

Dr.Kae: okay you can have y'all seats and turn your attention back too me

We did just as told and turned our seats back facing dr.kae.

Dr.Kae: i can tell that you guys have alot of love for each other but you have alot too work on... chris i heard you say that you wanna marry her that's good but you have too put in that work for her too see that you really want her and that you love her like you say that you do..you have too work together so that you can be strong and build a bond unlike any other, you owe it too yourself too make sure that you do so even if this doesn't work out you know what you need too work on in the next relationship loving forward.

Dr.Kae: chris you need too work on communication more and expressing your feelings, amor'e the same thing i want you too try this for the rest of the year and return so we can see how you have grown together as a couple...if anything else happens call me okay..thank you for coming in today you two

Me: thank you for having us

Shaking hands with dr.kae we left out.

Chris took my hand and we walked out together.

Chris: come over too my house so we can talk more

I stared at him for a minute before nodding my head.