|Chris Brown|

(Two months later)

Hoody: brown don ready for you

Me: yeah. I'm coming.

He left the room and i returned back too my thoughts. Lately I've just been thinking about how much pain i've put amor'e through.

This girl is really down for me and i put her through so much shit that if i was her i would have left my ass too.

My gi-amor'e has been keeping her relative distance after our fight the other night...i asked her too come over too hang with me and smoke.

And when the blunt kicked in words started flowing like the river of jordan...literally. She let me know the pain she felt when i left her and all the other shit that i just realized i put her through but i guess i got pissed off somewhere in the convo and we started arguing.

Next thing i knew we were cussing eachother out and y'all know how i get when i'm pissed off but that night i saw a whole other side of amor'e that i have never seen before.

One minute she started laughing during the argument and that shit had me so scared.

But we are back too where we were months ago i don't care what nobody say's that's my girl and i'll go too battle for her.

Walking out the house i headed to the front of my house and sat on the hood if my custom Lamborghini.

See i just returned from vacation from mexico , while there i did alot of thinking and just meditation.

I needed my girl back...she know that them other niggas ain't like me, i treat her right and that's on ohb allat.

Nobody get her wetter and nobody deal with her as much as i do....we meant for each other, she got this aura about her that i can't seem too let go of i just hope that god brings her back too me.

8:45 pm

By this time we were finished with the photography i had for tuff crowd, now we were looking over the pictures.

Once i choose which ones i liked best i posted them on my instagram.

@chrisbrownofficial

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shot by @doncamms

I said bye too my man don and headed inside making my way over too where royalty and my mom was.

Momma: hey baby?

Royalty: hey daddy

Me: *smiles* hey baby...hi momma

Momma: what's wrong...you look worried and sad

We took a seat on the couch and royalty went back too playing with her toys, i then looked over at my mom.

Me: i miss her mom...i know the bullshit i put her through and i feel like shit because of it...she said that she don't wanna see me again but ma this is the girl i wanna be with...she loves me...she would fight just too defend me and is so passionate about me i never had that before

Momma: *sighs* Chris honey...i told you the first time that i met amor'e that she was different...that she wasn't like the 'others' you need too learn too adjust too something good..you hurt her and bad what if she did something too you? You probably would spazz on her and call her all types of illiterate names but she didn't, i can see that you love her and that she loves you too you need too think long and hard about how you gonna get her back. Accept your mistakes and move forward

That's one thing about my mom she always spoke the deepest most release shit too me that i never heard from nobody but Amor'e.

Me: thanks ma

Momma: always baby

Royalty: daddy come play with me

I laughed and went over too where she was and started playing her dolls with her.

Call me gay but i don't give a fuck this mine and i'm gonna make her happy...i just gotta get my other mine back and i'm gone be straight.

|Amor'e Winters|

Me: a little too the left.....mmm then too the right...mm perfect..thanks carlos.

Carlos: no problem boo...oh and the inventory for your new designs of handbags and the restock of the website is going live tonight

Me: ugh hate would i do without you?

Carlos: girl i got no idea

We both shared a laugh.

Carlos: oh and he called....again

There was a pregnant pause making me sweat in my louis vuttons.

Me: ....did you answer?

Carlos: yeah he told me too tell you five him a call

Shaking my head yes he walked off and in came Tokyo.

Niah's birthday is coming up sooo him and i are starting the plans since kaya's ass at the studio with stunna's ass.

Do not get me wrong i'm so happy for my best friend because she deserves this so much and more...i just hope stumna ass don't mess up because we will have words.

And no baby and i aren't together or speaking since that night at my launch party we haven't had any words.

But as of me i'm doing well better than the last time that's for sure.

Aside from the huge argument that chris and i had one night, i just realized that if he won't try too fix us like i am then there is no need for me too be hung up over him and still tryna get him back.

We don't chase no nigga ladies we're the prize not the other way around.

YouTube has helped me alot with my mental health and confidence it's like i'm a new person and i'm living for it.

Tokyo: so we got the venue...the caterers, the planners what else

Me: we gotta put together a guest list

As i added more things too the list he made note of them.

By five we were finished and decided too grab food.

Tokyo ordered and i sat down opening Instagram.

And his pictures popped up....and there goes my breath getting caught in my throat and the butterflies.

I don't care what anybody says this man fine as hell even though he ain't mine.

Tokyo: okay so this trip bout to be bomb as hell

For my bestie's birthday kaya,tokyo and i decided to bring her on a trip too Miami and girl am i excited.

Miami i always a vibe when we go there but the thing is niah has never been she always has her son cash on the days that we leave sooooo this should be a great surprise.

Me: i know she always talks about going there...this should be good.

Tokyo: yup...oh and i have this new colour i think we should do for Miami and for the award show.

See your girl got invited too the Ama's with her boo....yes chile i'm her date no gay shit but she asked me and i said yes.

Everybody else got things too do so why not?.

Me: ouuu i cannot wait

Tokyo: me too girllll

After eating i dropped tokyo off at home and went home myself.

Hopefully one day i can have somebody to come home too but for right now it's just me.

I settled in grabbed a snack and decided too post some Instagram pictures.

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- baddest you wish you had😍🤪

@chriswife._:😍😍😍

@christopher.manzzzz: girl you ever don't look fine?😍

@bhris.lovecmb: are you and chris still together

@theshaderoom: looking good miss winters

@indigocmb:😍😍😍

@polog:damn😍😍

@bluefacebleedem: amor'e i want you in my bad girls club house

@champagnepapi: 😍😍😍

@chrisbrownofficial:mines😍

@ammika: i thought y'all broke up🙄

@yourfavebaddieamore:@ammika-babe we never broke up...if the nigga said i'm his then he mines fuck off

@Christopher.manzzzz: Worldstarrrrrrr!!!!

@xindigobreezy.x: when we gone see y'all flight cuz child i want front row tickets

@bae.stopher: @xindigobreezy.x gurl me and you both

@amor'e.love_: ugh babe you never dissapoint😍

After i made my reply i read some of the comments laughing at some that chris's fans made.

I decided too go live since i rarely do that.

Once it connected i put my face into the phone and watched people join while biting my nail.

Me: hey y'all so the website relaunch is starting soon it's eight so at...*checks other phone* nine thirty everything will be restocked all my makeup, clothes, and skincare so we gone watch everything together. I also have some new things coming for y'all *smiles* some top secret shit that is gonna be bomb so....

@christopher.manzzzz: girl listen we done payed for chris's only fans...i wanted your clothes forever, the holidays is coming why y'all doing this too me😭😭

@bae.stopher: amor'e start an only fans we need some content cause fave aintetting us see cj🙄

@augustalsina: y'all wild in here 😭😭

@amor'e.love: will the prices be higher or cheaper

Me: *laughs out loud* woo i'm boo i understand i'm gonna have a holiday sale so that you guys can shop with a budget and y'all need stop wit this only fans... I ain't got no comment about chris's dick though*laughs*

@christopher.manzzzz: you know you was loving off of cj....tell me is his dick that good?

@naeclit: y'all i'm in this bitch🤪🤪.....amor'e listen tell chris too show it too us just the tip

@niquaspam: chile please...oh and when y'all collaboration coming out it's been forever

Me: y'all *laughs* stawpppp.....the collab will be launching soon babes i'll keep y'all updated

@theestallion: amor'e babyyyyy

@kyliejenner: hey love

Me: megan babyyyyy...hey ky wassup with y'all

@niquaspam: i love y'all relationship😭😭

My alarm went off telling me it was time for the launch, i quickly grabbed my laptop and went onto my site.

Me: okay guys i need ya too count down with me...FIVE...FOUR...THREE...TWO...ONE y'all its restocked go shop at pinkdiamonds.com to get your hottie stuff

@theestallion: save me the pieces i said i liked boo

@kyliejenner: i'm loving these pieces

@christophermanzzzz: ouuu shit lemme go get some diamond gloss brb

@naeclit: bitch you did your thing i love this restock i'm broke now

@agustalsina: proud of you sis

@chrisbrownofficial: proud of you baby😘

@stunna4vegas: now kaya ass gone want me too by her shit

@thekayalove:@stunna4vegas duh nigga....congrats bestfriendddddd i'm so so so proud

@niahthebaddest: i love everything congrats baby i'm so proud

Seeing everyone congratulate me on the restock was really heart warming...but seeing chris say it just made me smile...even though we not on speaking terms chris will always be that 'guy' friend i could always count on him and august.

Me: thank you guys so much we are already sold the hell out thank you guys for a successful restock i love y'all have a good night.

I pressed the end button and turned on my tv.

I snuggled up in bed and watched Selena the new series on netflix.

@theshaderoom- hey #roomies #yourfavebaddieamore launched her restock of her brand tonight and it sold out in less than ten minutes her friends and boyfriend chris brown congratualted her on live as she watched the website practically shut down from all the traffic her fans and customers was generating....congrats amor'e