Rubble is surrounding me, I just finished getting the last group of people to safety. I am trying to regain my strength from using up so much energy. When I turn to find the team, something presses to my forehead and I am instantly met with unbearable pain. I swat at the device on my head but feel like my vision is disappearing, my legs are giving out. All I can see and feel is pain, shocks vibrating through me.

I shoot up with a gasp for air, grabbing at my head to touch the device but nothing's there.

"Hey hey! You're alright."

My eyes land on Natasha who's shaking her leg while holding my hand. Something's wrong. Y/N. She should be here.

"Where is she? Where's Y/N?"

Nat opens her mouth, then closes it as she hangs her head in despair. I shake my head, trying to pretend that what I heard didn't happen, that she didn't give herself up, that she didn't let Rumlow take her.

"No. No," I whine and see Steve walk in. Instantly I stand up and use my powers to choke him, "you promised. You said you'd protect her. You lied to me."

My voice is hoarse but my powers are starting to build up in strength the more angry I get. My mind flashes through the memories, Y/N taking a bullet for me, the shock device, feeling nothing but pain when it shatters my every thought, tears me apart, carries through my veins. I see Y/N catching me in her arms, sacrificing herself for me, for all of us. Steve picking me up, the jet, hearing Nat screaming to go back, hearing her pained sobs. Y/N's gone. She gave herself up.

"I'm sorry...I know." Steve gasps out weakly, not even trying to fight back until Tony walks in and tells me to release him. Him and Bruce check my vitals and once I'm set, I charge my way into my room, ignoring everyone.

My door slams behind me as I make my way to my bed, throwing on The Office as I focus on my surroundings. Tony said I was out for two weeks, they have no leads on where Y/N is, and Rumlow is off the grid. They can't find shit on him.

"Come on, Y/N." I close my eyes and focus, trying to feel for her. I focus on her mind, how it felt to feel her, I focus as best as I can. That's when I feel a large surge of energy and pain shoot through me. Electrical currents. I shriek and feel arms around me as I continue screaming, reaching and clawing at my head.

"Wanda! Hey! Snap out of it!"

When I see my room again, Nat is holding my hands tightly in hers, eyes wild with concern. Mine quickly fill up with tears while I shake my head, looking at the ground.

"She's in pain. They're torturing her."

"How do you know?" She asks, but she already knows. She's just scared for it to be confirmed, scared to know that the girl she loves is crying out in pain, is practically dying all because she sacrificed herself for us.

"I can feel her pain," I whisper and that's enough for her to join me in my fit of tears. It's in that moment that I realize her love for Y/N. She loves her just as much as I do. We are both just too scared to admit it. Instead of starting up some awkward conversation, I just reach over and grab Natasha's hand, continuing our silent sit.

I scream for what feels like the millionth time this past month. My body is shaking from the shocks going through me. I try to focus, hold onto everything in my head. I can't let them get to me, not again. They wiped my memories once. They can't do it again.

I'm hooked up to a machine, it's big, part of it covers a side of my face, feeling as if it's melting my brain.

"What do you want from me," I groan out when the pain dies down and my breathing levels off.

Zemo smiles as he steps in front of me, Lascombe and Rumlow near his side.

"What we didn't get to finish. Let's call your friends first, though, shall we?"

I frown in confusion but he pulls up a screen, and I can see everyone at the compound staring. They look confused, Tony is looking at the screen or camera.

"Avengers! We have a present for you."

Zemo clicks something and I see myself in the top corner, then see everyone's faces go pale. Wanda's hand shakes as she lifts it to cover her mouth, tears instantly filling her eyes.

"Wanda," I whisper weakly as I try to connect to her mind. I can feel her but it's weak. I can feel her fear, feel her worry and concern.

"What the hell are you doing with her," Natasha hisses as she stands up.

"Tony, where is this coming from," Steve snaps and Tony looks as if he's trying to break some sort of code, figure out where we are. I know it's hopeless. They called the Avengers, I don't doubt that they have insane security locking down this location, hiding us from the world.

"Think of this as a gift. You get to see Y/N one last time."

"What do you mean one last time." Wanda's voice is harsh, intimidating, her accent seeping through as her eyes gloss over to dangerous dangerous scarlet.

"Y/N, would you like to say your goodbyes?" His eyes are teasing, he's enjoying every moment of this. Him, Lascombe and Rumlow step aside while the camera zooms in on me. I breathe out weakly while looking at everyone. Wanda walks in front of them so it's just us.

"I can still feel you, you're okay," her smile is pained, scared, but she is holding onto hope. I feel her connecting to me, her warmth filling my head as she tries to place calming thoughts in my mind.

"I don't know what they're doing, but I know it won't be pretty. Please. I don't want you to see me like this. Any of you."

They frown as Nat now speaks up, "what are you talking about?"

Out of the corner of my eye I see Rumlow grabbing hold of a lever. He pulls it and instantly the shocks course through me. My body jolts as I let out an ear-ripping scream, my throat aching from how loud I howl. I clench my fists, trying to protect everyone watching from seeing me like this. I see Wanda turn away, covering her ears as she sobs. Nat's eyes are wide and full of tears, Steve grabbing a protective hold of her. Tony just stares in anger, eyes trained on me until he can't take it anymore, breaking his gaze to look anywhere else.

I cry out more as I fight away the memory wipe. I know that's what they're doing, this is what it felt like last time. I hold onto every memory the best I can, promising myself that I won't let them in.

Then I feel something slice into me. I open my eyes and see blood dripping down my stomach. Wanda screams, "STOP!"

I pant as Rumlow pulls away, the electricity finally stopping again and the blood dripping down my body until it hits the floor, leaving a puddle.

"Touch her again and I promise you, I will kill you myself," Wanda warns and Zemo puts his hands up.

"Fine, no more touching."

He opens the same journal I saw him holding when they first took me over a month ago. He kept reading off these words every time they torture me, expecting something to come of it, but nothing does.

"I will admit. She's a strong one. Holding onto her emotions so tight, her memories. It took some effort to break her down as you can see. Find out what holds her to the ground. But then we figured it out," Zemo smiles as he places a hand on my shoulder.

"Miss Maximoff."

I freeze, looking up at him, then at the screen where everyone glances at Wanda.

"You have been reaching Y/N through telepathy, yes? Getting into her mind, trying to ease her thoughts, help her through the pain, correct?"

I gulp as I look at her, the same fear on my face mirroring onto her own. She's been slowing down their process this whole time...meaning she's been sharing the pain. She's putting herself through hell just to protect me.

"I know what you've been doing to her, and I won't let you ruin her again."

The men in the room all laugh until Zemo nods, walking closer to the camera.

"Let me assure you that your little mind games will no longer be tolerated. In just a few moments, you won't be able to reach her at all."

Wanda tilts her head, scarlet eyes appearing once again, "what are you talking about."

He approaches me with the journal, glancing down and taking a deep breath.

"Zhelaniye. Rzhavyy." I grunt, feeling something starting to take me over. My brain starts to ache, I can feel my memories being pulled from me.

"Stop it," I huff but he doesn't, he just keeps going.

"Semnadtsat'. Rassvet. Pech'."

I scream, trying to break free from being strapped in, screaming at him.

"LET ME GO!"

"Devyat'. Dobroserdechnyy.."

My mind shows me Wanda, I hold onto it, the vision the mind stone gave me, her kissing me, her eyes. I see Nat smiling at me, training, laughing. Tony hugging me, us as kids. The memories, they're starting to disappear. Every word this idiot speaks, the memories go away and are replaced with thoughts of anger and violence.

"No. NO! WANDA!" She cries out for me, nearly shattering my heart.

"Witchy, are you helping her," Tony's voice is strained, he's scared for his sister. We all are. I'm trying to get into her head but the more this man speaks, the more I'm pushed out. The connection is weak, barely hanging on by a thread. I see the fear in Y/N's eyes.

She's fighting it, fighting whatever this is doing to her.

"He's pushing me out. I can barely reach her."

Nat looks at me, "keep trying." I hear her mumbling something, tapping her foot anxiously as she watches painfully. She's praying for her to hold on.

"Vozvrashcheniye na rodinu..."

Y/N's head slams back against the chair she's in, her eyes wide, hands gripping the edge of the seat while she breathes heavily.

"Odin. Gruzovoy vagon,"

I see nothing, I feel nothing. There's some sort of wall. I can't feel her from here.

I look at the screen and see her face go completely blank. Her mind...it's like it's completely gone. Like she is gone. All that escapes my lips is a whispered, "no" and that's enough for everyone to look at me in fear, then back to Y/N.

"Soldat?" The man asks in what I presume to be Russian.

Y/N sits up, then looks up at him expressionless, then back at the camera, only it's as if she's looking through the camera instead.

"Ya gotov otvechat."

"She knows Russian?" Tony says, then asks Nat to translate, knowing that she knows it better than anyone. She just shakes her head while tears fall down her cheeks.

"It means...ready to comply."

"Let's test this out shall we?" The man who just completely wiped Y/N's mind looks at her.

"Soldier. Tell us, who are the Avengers?"

She doesn't bat an eye. She just stares and states, "the enemy."

We all stiffen at how easy it was for her to just state that, not even looking like she was faking it. I keep trying to feel her but there's nothing, I can't. She's blocking me out, I can't get in. I can't...

I can't feel her anymore.

"Good, and what is your mission?"

"To eliminate them."

Tony sighs, "turn it off. I've had enough of this." He covers his face as he goes to leave the room but stops when the man says my name.

"And who is Wanda Maximoff?"

I watch with my heart nearly beating in my ears. My fingers play with my rings as I stare at the girl who took a bullet for me, sacrificed herself to protect all of us, to save my life. The girl who has stolen my heart, the girl I have fallen for...

"Who the hell is Wanda Maximoff?"

...The girl who has now ripped my heart out of my chest.

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A/N:

Please don't kill me :)