The barbeque party is going very well. Some of the wives of the elders of the Russian Mafia introduced themselves to me and offered their greetings and what nots. Im still in the middle of Nikolai and Alexei in the center table. My boys are drinking and talking to Vladi and others.

Most of Nikolai's men are older than him and Alexei but the respect of his men towards the two despite the age gap is undeniable. Nikolai and Alexei are treated like gods. And Im not even exaggerating. The words of Nikolai and Alexei are the laws of the Russia Mafia.

There are some women, mostly blonde thin women that would almost offer themselves to my Nokolai and Alexei judging by the way they look at them. I am actually surprised that there's not a single pint of jealousy or insecurity in my heart despite the fact that these two can get any woman that they want in just a hand gesture. It could be because Nikolai and Alexei does not make me feel insecure at all. These two are full on TEAM BELLE, all the way without hesitation, one hundred percent smitten on me and only me. Nikolai said that Yrina is nothing to him, and I believe him. He said he needed to do something for his father, and Im going to support him no matter what.

In our table is Vladi's family, the elders and their wives and other men. Im drinking iced tea because I dont feel like drinking alcohol. Nikolai said this is just the first stop. In just a while, they will be bringing me to other places where the Russian Mafia do business and operates.

"Ahhh she's here.. darling Natty, come over here." Said one of the elder's wife. She's sitting right next to her husband at the very corner of the rectangular table to the left. She's referring to Natasha. Yup, the Natasha from Volkov Holdings. She glanced at Nikolai and greeted him first then me and Alexei.

I glanced at Nikolai and my future husband just smiled faintly and went back to his serious self, ignoring the merry making of a welcome that the woman did when Natasha arrived. I wonder how Natasha is related to the woman and the man. Natasha is wearing a black dress that hugs her thin body. Her golden blonde hair is tied into a pony tail while she's clutching a purse on her hand.

"Papa." Natasha said while kissing the not so old man on his forehead.

Oh, so Natasha is one of the elder's daughter. That might be the reason how she was able to work at VH.

Her mother was glancing at Nikolai while talking to Natasha. The bitch, I mean Natasha on the other hand just looks down and would glance at our direction from time to time.

"You havent eaten that much. Dont you like the food? What do you want? Tell me." Said Nikolai while his hand is wrapped around my back.

To be perfectly honest I have been wanting to eat but for some weird reason, my taste buds would not cooperate with my enthusiasm.

"Here try this one. You will like this." Said Nikolai while stabbing a huge ass sausage and pointing it towards my mouth. He is sporting a wicked grin while trying to be funny. I smack him on his arm and pinched him very tight.

"I think I prefer your sausage Nikolai. Can I have it instead?" I retorted.

Nikolai's grin grew even wider.

"Sure, do you want mine with eggs on the side?"

I smack him again on his arm and shook my head in amusement. He is at it again.

To my surprise, Alexei slid his hand in between my thighs while his attention is on the other direction. Nikolai saw it and quickly followed Alexei. I instantly remove their hands from my thighs while smiling innocently.

I bent over to Alexei and whispered on his ear. "Behave."

The two however insisted on putting their hands on my thighs, so I just let it go and allowed them to do what they want to do.

"Seems like just yesterday, my little Natasha and little Volkov used to play together when they where little kids." Natasha's mother said. It looks like she really didnt mean no harm in reminiscing the past but after what she said, there's this awkward moment of silence lingering in the air. Some men immediately looked down on their plates and some glanced at me perhaps waiting for my reaction.

Nikolai instantly drinks his beer and made a few gulps. Alexei did the same thing. They both look like they knew what's going to happen next.

Hmmmm...so Nikolai and Natasha were childhood sweethearts? This explains a lot. This is why Natasha hated my existence at VH. It is pretty obvious that Natasha has feelings for Nikolai. And it's also pretty obvious that Nikolai doesnt give a damn about her.

"Honey, why dont you get me some barbeque over there?" Said Natasha's father to his wife trying to break the ice. He then pats Natasha's arm signalling her to go with her mother.

Vladi attempted to salvage the situation by clearing his throat. "Who wants some borscht?" Said Vladi while being handed by his wife a huge bowl of red soup thingy with vegetables.

All of a sudden, my stomach turned and I feel like all the iced tea and food I have been eating are going up my throat. Oh my gosh, what is that awful smell? I think Im going to pass out from its stink alone.

I feel like Im going to puke any moment now. I quickly covered my mouth and nose and dropped my face on Nikolai's shoulder.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Said Nikolai, I can feel him breathe on my neck.

"Nikolai, that awful stinking smell. Get rid of it please." I said while still burrying my nose on my future husband's shoulder.

Nikolai then spoke in Russian. After a few seconds the smell disappeared. It's actually from that borscht Vladi brought to the table.

Oh gosh, my lips went dry and I feel like all the blood rushed away from my face. Nikolai handed me a glass of water and made me drink it.

"Were going to the clinic." Said Nikolai all worried.

"No Nikolai, I'm okay. It was just that red soup. There's nothing to worry about."

Alexei noticed what's happening and said something to Nikolai in Russian.

"This is not the first time? What is happening baby?" Scolded Nikolai, after hearing what Alexei said.

"Nikolai, youre overreacting. I'm okay."

Nikolai's frown did not decipate from his face.

"What do you want? Do you want to eat rice?"

"Uhmm maybe later? I want some chocolates with almonds and chips, the salty one and french fries." My mouth is watering just by the thought of the food I just mention to Nikolai.

Nikolai instantly signalled Vladi to get my request at once.

Nikolai crinkled his eyebrows and looks at me. "What's up with chocolates and salty chips?"

"Let me be Nikolai.."

"So my wife is not a fan of Russian food?" Said Nikolai to my ears.

A smile formed on my face and I retorted. "At least Im a fan of Russian sausage." while I run my hand on his bulge.

"Don't tempt me baby." Said Nikolai.

"Or what Nikolai? Youre not gonna make love to me in front of your people arent you?"

I gasped for air when all of a sudden Nikolai made me sit on his lap and wrapped his right arm around my waist while placing his other hand on my thigh.

"Dont ever under estimate my craving for you Mrs. Volkov."

Nikolai kisses me on my lips. I then placed my hand on Nikolai's nape and made small strokes with my fingers as our lips lock.

"So, Natasha...she's your childhood sweetheart."

"As far as I can remember I was not really a sweatheart kind of kid back then." Nikolai whispered while planting small kisses on and around my left ear.

"Yah? How about now? What kind of a boy are you?" I said, while talking near his lips.

"I'm your exclusive sexual machine lover boy, 24/7 at your service maam." Said Nikolai and then making a salute.

Alexei then instantly scooted over beside us and butts in.

"Can I join the party?"

"No." Said Nikolai and I in unison.

"That's pretty mean." Said Alexei while crinkling his eyebrows. "Give me back my shirt." Alexei pulled my shirt towards his direction while frowning like a kid.

Nikolai and I just chuckled at Alexei.

"Nikolai said he's my exclusive sexual machine lover boy, how about you Alexei?" I asked teasingly.

"Hmm.. I'm your exclusive personal boy toy. You can exploit this..... anytime sweetie. " Said Alexei while winking at me and raising his shirt and revealing his six packs.

I just shook my head at the naughtiness and arrogance of these two.

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We are on our way to another location for my formal introduction to the Russian Mafia world. My bra is still hanging in front of the A/C. I am munching on the chocolates, french fries and chips. I snapped the chocolate bars into bite sizes and mixed everything in the bag of chips including the french fries. Uhhh soooo yummy....I can eat this all day. Alexei and Nikolai are just looking at me while I enjoy my food. I would feed the two from time to time.

Yuri is talking to somebody on the phone. Im on Alexei's lap while my legs are stretched to Nikolai's.

Nikolai is playing his fingers with my toes while Alexei is kissing me on my nape.

Yuri then cleared his throat.

"Dimitri is here Boss."

Nikolai looks like he's not expecting what Yuri said. I once heard Nikolai and Alexei mention the name Dimitri and he has something to do with Boston.

"What did he say?"

"He needs to talk to you Boss. He'll be seeing you in a while. Said it's important."

Nikolai did not answer, his mood suddenly changed. He looks like he's thinking about something. I just did not bother asking Nikolai what's wrong. He once said his business in Boston is for his father, and whatever it is that made his mood change means that this is really important to him.

"Nikolai, if you have a meeting to attend to, I can go home early. Ill have I.V bring me home. It's no big deal."

Nikolai looked at Alexei first and looked at me like he's thinking about it.

"We will push through. I dont want you to go home on your own." Said Nikolai.

I gave him a reassuring smile and placed my palm on his face.

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After a few minutes our convoy slowed down on what looks like an old building. It has tall concrete walls with many security cameras around. The steel gate opened and the SUVs pulled over the driveway a few yards from the entrance of the old building. There are two huge men wearing black trench coats, one of them holding a radio opened the door for us. Nikolai and Alexei are still clutching my hand on the way inside.

As we enter the door, everything seems to be dimly lit except for the light illuminating at the end of the hallway. As we near where the light illuminates, I feel like my heart is beating a million times. Oh god. Whatever it is that Im about to see, am I actually ready to witness it? Let alone accept it? I know I said I am going to accept Nikolai and Alexei, Mafia and all, but there's this certain feeling I could not comprehend.

There's a lump in my throat that is slowly forming. I held on tight to my Nikolai and Alexei. Yuri and Boris are walking ahead of us while the four other men are behind us.

Nikolai and Alexei are sporting a serious look, very different and definitely a hundred times intense from their mood back at Kovrov.

My eyes flickered as we finally enter the end of the hallway. My eyes adjusted to the bright light and everything around me became more clearer.

We are standing on a steel balcony where we have a full view of what looks like a warehouse. There are at least twenty rectangular tables, each has a flourescent light on top. There are four workers in each tables and they look like they are packing a white powdery substance. I dont know what kind of drugs exactly but I dont need to be a genius to figure out what's happening here. The workers are a mix of men and women wearing only their undergarments. They all look busy and no one seem to be talking. There are also men in black walking around with guns slinged on their sides and some held it on their hands.

At this point a permanent lump is stuck in my throat. Everything in front of me now is the real thing. The Russian Mafia's one of many illegal activities. These people working here are repacking drugs. Drugs that destroy lives of many people, including teenagers and children and their families.

I'm a teacher and I teach my kids to be good and productive citizens of their country, or at least be a good person but I think I dont have a single right to teach good values now if I myself is in bed with a Drug Lord himself.

Nikolai and Alexei are just observing my reaction. I try my very best to look unshaken by this harsh reality. I really thought I have fully accepted this fact, but apparently I havent.

I slowly let go of Nikolai and Alexei but Nikolai instantly grabbed me towards him and forced my hand to his. He clutched it tightly to his side.

"Were just beginning baby. Do you want to go home now?"

"No Nikolai." I said. No matter how much I want to run away, I decided to see this one through. To be honest, I want to know if I can actually accept all of these. All of Nikolai and Alexei.

Nikolai looked me in the eyes. I could not decipher his expression. His beautiful green eyes are just devoid of emotion.

Alexei instantly held my other hand tight. He has the same expression as Nikolai. It's like all of a sudden, there's this wall in between us, not allowing me to see through the two.

We then walked back to the dimly lit hallway, turned left and walked towards a red door where another man in black jacket is guarding. He opened the door for us. I see a decent looking carpeted room. It looks like an office with couches in the middle and an office table near the wall on the far right. There is a small table in the middle of the brown leather couches where two laptops are opened. A man and a woman wearing black are already inside working something on the laptops. When they saw us enter the room they quickly clicked something and stood on the corner right next to our other men.

Nikolai made me sit on the couch in front of the two laptops. Nikolai is to my left and Alexei is to my right.

The laptop to my left has eight live feeds of the strip and sex clubs that Alexei once told me about. The first four live feeds show women dancing naked on poles and on the stage while men oggle around. The other four feeds look like the sex club where women and men are having free for all sex in an elegantly ornamented huge rooms. It's like everyone can have sex with everyone in that club.

At this point I can feel my knees and legs weaken. If im not already seated, I would have definitely collapsed. I placed my hands intertwined with each other on top of my thighs. I feel like I am slowly suffocating by what Im seeing right now.

On the other laptop to the right is a live feed of two men who are on their knees with a covering on their heads inside an old dilapidated room.

A few seconds later a man wearing a trench coat appeared and took the head cover of the two men on their knees. They look like they have already been beaten pretty bad prior to this. They have blood on their faces and their bodies.

I then saw Alexei dial his phone. The man on a trench coat in the room took the call as seen on the live feed.

"Do it." Said Alexei blankly.

All of a sudden the man on a trench coat on the screen took a knife from his side and slits the throat of the man on the left. The man fell on the floor and his blood splattered and spilled like a pig that is being slaughtered.

A few seconds later, the other man was shot to the head from the back and in just a blink of an eye, his blood dripped from his head and spilled all over the floor.

"Nobody double crosses the Mafia and lives to tell the tale." Said Nikolai. He is crossing his thigh over the other while placing the side of his index finger under his chin.

I thought that was over when all of a sudden, the man in trench coat cuts the fingers of the dead bodies one by one and places them in a plastic bag. He then pulled their tongues, sliced them and places them in the bag as well.

Oh my god. I dont know if I can take it anymore. I quickly stood up and stormed out of the room. I ran and found my way towards the dark hallway and outside the building. I halted on the driveway and tried to stand but my knees are shaking. I just saw two defenseless men brutally killed under the orders of Nikolai and Alexei.

The moment the cold fresh air entered my system, I instantly threw up everything that's in my stomach. Im trying to catch my breath in between puke. My eyes are already watering and sweat are dripping down my face. I dont know what to feel right now. I am shaken and confused.

Moments later, I dropped on my knees to the concrete ground and squeezed myself tight.

My Nikolai and Alexei are cold blooded criminals. They are murderers.

The cold wind of the night is already hugging my body. I shiver down my spine as I remember everything that I have seen.

Tears are now flowing down my face no matter how hard I try to stop myself from crying. Seconds later I felt Nikolai scoop me from the ground and carries me on his arms.

"Were going home now. You have seen enough."

Yuri then opened the car door for us. He made me sit in between him and Alexei who is still silent and devoid of emotion up until now.

"Bring me to Amy's please." I said while looking ahead. Boris and Yuri then entered the car and waited for Nikolai's signal.

I need space away from Nikolai and Alexei right now. I want to think and I badly need a friend to be with.

"No, were going home." Said Nikolai while wiping my tears and my mouth with his hanky. Yuri handed me a bottled water to drink.

"I want to see Amy." I said blankly.

"You need to rest. We are going home." Said Nikolai dismissing me.

"I need to rest away from you and Alexei, thats what I need and that's what I want Nikolai!" I raised my voice at Nikolai. I looked at him in his eyes while tears are slowly forming on my eyes again.

Nikolai ordered Boris to drive to Amy's. He clenched his jaw as he rests his back on the backrest of the car seat.