'Pete do you think I'm right or am I making another mistake?'

'you said it yourself marriage seems to be the best solution to make it work'

'is it though?'

'second thoughts?'

'...fear I guess'

'i was confident when I spoke to josh but now strange thoughts and emotions keep dawning on me' i added before his message popped to fill the screen

'it is better for the three of you, you are right, the possibility of conflict between you is there just like any other couple and maybe more considering the history you two share, so dating is basically proving that you are not going to try to work things out and you are leaving yourself a chance to turn your back at any given moment, marriage will make the two of you work harder to maintain a healthy relationship and not add a second divorce to your biographies'

'Sorry for the long text...I'm in a hurry need to drive the kids to school' he added

'it's okay, I am already thankful that you spared me some of your time this early in the morning..'

'have a good day Pete..thx again'

'you too... anytime'

I guess as a human doubt is inevitable, as fear is a never perishing ally...

...................

"Good morning " I went into the station greeting the staff as usual before heading straight to the studio, finding the three people I needed just right there "Morning," I saluted with a wide smile on my face

Two were tense and one was happy to see me "morning dear, how were you these days?" he asked with his eyebrows raised as if he knew something

"am I being followed or what? " I asked him teasingly

"I can't say no to that "

"really? "

"no" he chuckled slightly " it's just that it's been six days since you came In here, thought I would ask "

"well since the show is doing great the producer and the higher-ups decided that we can take our time and shoot everything once a week instead of shooting so many sequences every day or two "

"true! doesn't mean I didn't miss seeing you "

"I know sir .. how are you? "

"doing great, my daughter is getting married two weeks from now so I was hoping you would come" he handed me an invitation and I took it gladly, giving him the brightest smile I could, after all, she was my patient before, so I was happy for her.

"congratulations .. I will try my best to be present that day "

"you better "

"well...only if you promise me to come to mine"

"YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED ?!!"

Finally!!

Madeline spoke... while Edwin choked on the water he was sipping on since I came in

"yeah " I chuckled at her reaction

"to whom dear? " I turned to face Julian again

"my... ex-husband "

"I like gossip just like you know, so dinner? " mister Julian hinted while giving me his hopeful gaze

"I like it too " Madeline attacked my arm with both of her hands taking a tight hold of it after she was standing two feet away from me, she was now less than two inches away, like she just teleported from where she was standing a while ago ...

which made me jump a little in my spot .. I won't lie ..that took me off guard

"well, the three of us can have lunch together if you are all available, cause dinner is a bit hard these days, you see, I promised my brothers to cook dinner till I get married "

"deal! " Madeline was super excited to even care about any other thing ...gossip was involved after all

"I'm fine with it " mister Julian added

"Edwin? " I asked him to which he nodded his head slowly

"can't believe he is my son .." mister Julain murmured rolling his eyes and turning look at his son after "stop standing there like an idiot, your old friend is getting married and you are standing like a status "

"I know right? I should do the same when you and Madeline get married "

He broke into a weak smile...

just what am I to do? he is still super awkward with me

"Why does it feel like I pressed a button of a love bomb right now? " I muttered under my breath looking at Madeline and Edwin, noticing that that made him bite his lip trying to hide his smile while eyeing Mad...

Finally!

"'cause you did" mister Julian answered me .." look how red her face got.. and that goofy smile on his face.....I can't handle Amanda, let's just get out of here " he turned to leave but stopped when I didn't move

"The problem is I can't .. I have work to do here " I looked at him with the best puppy eyes I could

"may God be with you " he put his hand on my shoulder and gave it a little squeeze encouraging me

"thank you "

"stop the dramatic act you two " FINALLY! he spoke ! "let's go, Dad, the shooting is about to start...good luck you two" he eyed Madeline before his eyes landed on me and stayed there for a while.

I saw it in them...the love he held for me and I knew he could see mine...we do love each other so fondly and so deeply, the type of love that can never turn to hate no matter how much time passes, you could say that we are soulmates but soulmates aren't necessarily lovers.

there are so many kinds of love, and I don't know exactly what this one is...as I am not sure

but I am sure of one thing...

'I love you Ed'

"you are so weird" Madeline said while we were waiting for the other two men to appear, waiting for them in a restaurant that was close to the station

"how? "

"if it was someone else, she would have never met the two of us ever again after what we have done "

"who said I would meet you two again ?.. I won't Madeline " her face fell when I said that

"of course !" she threw her hands in the air "you ARE mad at us, it's impossible to be thi-"

"I will be there for you when you need me but I won't meet you on a daily basis, we won't be the type of friends that are close to each other, that go out on double dates and stuff like that ..it just can't happen , that's a movies thing can't happen easily in reality ..the only possible relation now, is the type where we can be happy for each other and sad with each other but nothing more ...I am happy for you two and I hope you can be happy for me too, that's it, Mad"

"I'm never mad at you so do not ruin what you two have with each other by feeling guilty, I told you since the beginning there's nothing to be guilty about." I noticed the two men coming in through the door "they are here, so help Edwin stop being awkward with me if you still want me to spill the tea "

"you know how to negotiate " she pulled her hand out for me to shake and I took it gladly "deal, but make sure to spill "

"I keep my promises"

Lunch was good, somewhat awkward, but good as three out of four people were capable enough of reducing its intensity and breaking the cold ice...really cold ice coming from a particular SNOW man

"so you had lunch with Edwin? "

"that's all you heard? "

"yeah"

"his father and Madeline were also there "

"and so? "

"it wasn't only the two of us, so can you please refrain from glaring at me "

"I wasn't glaring " he muttered under his breath, looking away and pretending to be busy with the dishes again...

It was nice of him to fight over washing the dishes with my mom and nicer to actually wash them. So I stayed with him so he doesn't feel bored alone in the kitchen while the rest of them were having dessert in the backyard, but this conversation he started was going nowhere with his jealousy.

"oh really ? you didn't glare? "

"that never happened"

" then I can go and be alone with Edwin since you don't mi-"

"don't you even think about it !" his head turned so fast to face me, so fast that I actually heard a ticking sound

"uuh..you almost broke your neck with that "

"and YOU almost were the reason for that "

This is why the two of us, Madeline and Edwin can't be friends just like in movies, in reality, people can't easily change the way they view others especially if it's not originated out of misunderstandings that can be cleared.

Henry didn't like Edwin for the fact that he was my first crush and Edwin didn't like Henry for that he married me ..and the two facts were a hundred percent true ...it might take them centuries to become friends but for now they needed time to fix their own lives which is way more important than clearing their hatred towards each other

"what are you thinking about? " Henry spoke cutting my train of thoughts

"Why did mom invite you to spend the night here when it was just yesterday that you went back home? "

Not entirely lying... I thought about this throughout dinner

"You don't want me here? "

"I would be lying if denied "

"Really now? " he left the dishes in the sink, washing his hands, all the while looking at me.

"what ? .." I jumped down the counter sensing the danger "what are you doing? "

"nothing , just washed my hands" he said wiping his hands and getting closer to me, while I took a couple of steps back about to turn and run out of the kitchen

But he was fast enough to block my way before I can make an escape!

"where do you think you're going ?" he asked in a low husky voice after he pushed me back to the counter and leaned closer , with his two hands on each side preventing me from running away again

"Henry ...we have an open kitchen "

"I know that "

"what if someone comes? "

"so what? "

"Our position right now is perfect for misunderstandings "

"and so? "

He was pretending to be stupid now!

"Henry! " I hissed at him, and he just looked at me playfully "I'm uncomfortable " I added

"get used to it, we're getting married, Amanda "

"still not married "

"you got a good point right there "

"Since you know then go away "

"I will but after you answer me "

"just ask already" I said impatiently looking around in case someone appeared

"do you really not like me being here? "

"a little "

"why is that? "

"you and mom keep talking about the wedding, all you did since coming in was talk about it to no end "

"well , we have so many thing to do and I was hoping that this time we would do it properly since we got married in a hustle the first time"

"I do understand where it's all coming from but the calls and text message all day , and even now .. haven't you noticed that Joshua , Aiden, Louis, and even dad left the table with their plates to have dinner in the backyard? ...I wanted to run away with them but I had no escape from it "

"well if you put it that way then...I guess...we might have taken it a little too far "

"you guess? and a little? "

"fine! we took it too far and I'm sorry about that "

"it's not that I'm not interested in the wedding but it's just that I need to concentrate when I work and I want to rest when I'm home so I'm hoping we could discuss this whole thing on the weekend, it's not like we're getting married tomorrow! "

"okay .." he nodded which made me do the same unconsciously " I'll tell mom"

"you'll tell who? " I raised my eyebrows at what I had heard coming out of his mouth

"mom"

"mom?"

"yeah! mom!..your mom is my mom and my son is your son that should be fair enough, right? "

"sure, I could take that much in " I smiled when I saw his wide grin

Look into each other's eyes for a while, not saying anything just smiling goofily at each other...and no one is complaining...that was how a minute or two passed in this kitchen.

"I was hoping to talk more but I need to finish those dishes so I can go and have a match with the boys" he said breaking the eye contact, moving away and going to the sink

"don't you think you're going too fast ? " I turned to put my hands on the counter and look at him while he went back to what he was doing.

"How is that ? " he asked while his back was facing me, with him giving his attention to the dishes he had in hand

"the boys? ..you're even taking my brothers now? "

"I won't be taking your dad, you'll always be his princess "

"it's not that you won't take him , it's that you can't "

"true ..I couldn't win his favor " he turned his head to look at me, giving me a sheepish wide smile

"I'm calling it a night " I poured myself a glass of water and took a sip before he asked

"Louis's sleeping with you tonight ? "

"yeah" I said after gulping then took another sip, not knowing where this conversation is heading to

"make sure not to get him used to that "

"why? ..what's wrong with that? " I put the glass down looking at him with furrowed eyebrows

and all I got was Him turning fully around and looking at me with an 'are you serious?' face

....OW!

"you!.." I stomped out of the kitchen hearing his deep chuckle before I was able to reach the stairs

"good night !" he yelled before I reached the stairs

"night!" I yelled back shaking my head at his strange behavior

I still can't believe that this the true colors of the man I once married... but it's nice to finally get to see them...

One day and one decision allowed me to discover him, something that years of 'together' couldn't...

One day and one decision allowed me to discover, a kind of love, hidden as 'years' but now is an anticipated forever