"There are plenty of ways to die, but only love can kill and keep you alive to feel it." -Leo Christopher

Blood Moon was suffering from chaos. News of the future luna cheating on the future alpha got out and people were starting to pick sides.

She would never do that! Her heart is bigger than Selene's!

Alessandra was surprised, to say the least. She knew her sister could be two-faced at times but she never expected her to cheat on Zane. All that damn girl could talk about was their wedding and a large abundance of pups.

To make matters worse Alessandra had no recollection of Friday's events. It was already Monday and the only thing she could remember was Sage The Gemini's iconic tune blasting from the speakers.

Alessandra was focused on her training and was warming up for the race that was going to take place tonight. She didn't have time to ponder over the events of Friday, she needed to put in all her focus into one thing.

Winning.

Man life is a bitch. There are many things in my life I expected, but being cheated on by the girl I gave my heart to was not one of them. She was supposed to be different, she was supposed to love me, not because of my title but because of who I am.

Not to mention that every damn pack official keeps on talking to me about how news of my future luna cheating on me cannot get out or we will have packs questioning our authority.

Every female I see reminds me of Isabel in some way. I can hear my pack's pity-filled whispers.

The poor boy.

He doesn't deserve this, first his mom and now the Luna?

It irritated my wolf to no end that these wolves were calling Isabel, the betraying cheater, their Luna. She was not their Luna and the only Luna they would have would be his mate.

I do not want a mate.

With a huff, his wolf retreated to the back of his mind. Stupid wolf, our mate will be no better than Isabel.

Isabel. Isabel. Isabel.

It seems like no matter where I go I can't get away from that damn woman.

The truth is my heart still beats for her and my lungs only breathe for her. How can I still love someone who hurt me so deeply? I don't know what death feels like but if it is anything like this, goddess spare me. I can feel myself dying, I can feel it in my bones. At this point, death would be better because at least with death, you know that eventually, it will be over. This seems worse than death because I have to live through it and I will remain alive to feel it. I will feel every damn little prick at my heart that comes with this heartbreak.

Just once in my damn life, I want to feel free. I want to feel the rush of freedom and independence. I want to feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins when I've done something I wasn't supposed to. I want the adrenaline to flow through my bloodstream, as fast as a gunshot.

When was the last time I did something for myself? When was the last time I did something for myself and not the pack or Isabel? When was the last time I had been selfish?

I don't want to live for others, I want to live for me. I want to do whatever the hell I want without worrying about the consequences.

Technically I have two years before I become Alpha.

And I am going to use these two years in my favor.

I will die before I give my heart to another woman again. A woman meant pain, a woman meant suffering, but most importantly, a woman meant the loss of his desired freedom.

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