Just a blink of an eye, three years have passed and I'm in my graduation gown. Campus life, fun times in club activities and all the college friends that spend the endless night together ... are all not applicable to me.

Apart from some classmates' interactions during projects, I barely had any social life during these three years. After lessons, I will also be stuck at home working on webtoons and assignments. Well ... life is still fair. At least my lack of social life brought me into the Dean's list. I received 'Exceptional' for my thesis and I am invited to give a commencement speech.

No one seems to know who is this girl that gave the commencement speech. 'Is she from our major?' would probably be the number one question that came up to their mind. But after I mentioned my webtoon series, there is certainly a different gaze from them.

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" 1, 2, 3!"

Jiwoo: Okay! Let's do a different pose!

Mum and Dad are so proud that I graduated with honors. Mum has entirely gotten over about her persistence for SKY. I have never seen her so happy in my life before.

While bringing my family on a campus tour, a few juniors and classmates (who I don't even know them well) came to me and wanted to have pictures taken together. At first, I happily agreed. After a while, such requests become really annoying.

Anyway, my mood is still on the high as I got another surprise prepared for my family.

🦉 Jihye: Mum and Dad, let me get changed. After that, we'll go for lunch. I would like you all to meet a friend of mine.

Mum: Is it, boyfriend?

Dad: Wait a second! Is it true? You have never mentioned it to us at all! We thought you were really too focused on your work. Your mum and I were so worried!

Jiwoo: Daebak! Jihye, I'm so disappointed with you. All this time, you have not told me a single thing.

Jiwoo: I'm sorry for keeping you all in the dark. Actually, I probably need all of you to keep this as a secret as well. Anyway, I'll come back and share a little more after changing.

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I brought them to the school's underground carpark and wait for the car arrival.

Mum, Dad and Jiwoo are murmuring behind me. I couldn't help but chuckle.

Finally, the car has arrived and stopped in front of us.

A guy with green hair and thick-framed glasses, wearing a full black sweater and long coat stepped out from the car.

Jiwoo: Heol! This is unbelievable.

Yoongi hand me a bouquet of pink fluffy hydrangea and said "Congrats. For your graduation."

Yoongi turns to my family and bows.

🐱Yoongi: Annyeonghaseyo. Min Yoongi imnida.

Mum: ...

Dad: This guy has green hair...

Jiwoo: Dad. He is not a regular guy with green hair. He is from Bulletproof Boy Scouts.

Dad: Bangtan???

To prevent anyone from spotting Yoongi, I interrupted the conversation and ushered everyone into the car.

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Yoongi and I sit next to each other. Whereas Mum, Dad, and Y/S are on the other side.

🦉Jihye: Yoongi is the one who reserved the place for today's lunch. This place is a Michelin 1-star restaurant.

The atmosphere is still really quiet and awkward. Yoongi is constantly rubbing his hands underneath the table.

🦉Jihye: Mum, Dad, and Sis. I'm sorry that I couldn't let you know earlier and now this comes as a shock more than a surprise. But I really wanted to protect Yoongi's privacy.

Yoongi upon hearing my sentence, immediately stood up and bow. "Sorry that I have brought so much inconvenience".

Finally, Dad broke the silence.

Dad: Are you a singer?

🐱Yoongi: I am a rapper.

Jiwoo quietly leaned to Dad's side and update him about BTS.

Mum: How long have you two been dating?

🐱Yoongi: Actually we knew each other for more than 2 years. But we only started dating last year.

Jiwoo: Jihye-ah, how did you knew SUGA-ssi?

🦉Jihye: Eonnie, I'll share it with you next time.

Dad: Are you serious with my daughter? The entertainment industry is so messed up, I'm concerned for my daughter.

Before I could answer, Yoongi quickly took over.

🐱Yoongi: Abeonim. I'm 200 percent serious with Jihye. I have no desire over the entertainment industry. I just want to make music. Jihye has been supporting me right at a start and I'm really thankful for that.

Mum: So are you two going to get married? Your job as an idol wouldn't allow you, isn't it? How do you ensure my daughter's happiness?

Yoongi is stuck with giving an answer. It is true that he couldn't promise me anything. But that is never my concern at all.

🦉Jihye: Mum, it is too early to say all these. I still have my own career, I would never want to settle down in a marriage life anytime soon.

Yoongi after some thoughts, answered "Abeo-nim, Omeo-nim. Although I couldn't promise anything now or any near future. But my heart for Jihye is true and is not going to change. My parents have also met Jihye, they really like her. I believe both of us getting married in the future is for sure."

I'm caught off guard with what Yoongi said. Does he really want to ... marry me?

Mum: Your parents have met Jihye?

🦉Jihye: Huh? Ye, I met them just last year December. Yoongi's Mum and Dad like me a lot.

Even Dad is caught off guard with Yoongi's word and left him speechless. I guess everyone is just too overwhelmed with all the sudden cram of news for today.

Yoongi got to leave early for an internal meeting. He bowed and greeted goodbye to Mum and Dad before he made his move.

So I used the rest of the evening to share briefly of the story of us getting together. And the most important message is to make sure all this information would never be shared with anyone. Dating rumor is something we need to prevent at all costs.

Although Dad is really worried for me on whether is this the right decision to date Yoongi. But I reassured him that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life. To be with someone I love.

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One more hour, it will be Yoongi's birthday. Yesterday, Taehyung gave me a call (last week, I exchanged phone numbers with the maknae line) and ask me to join a surprise party for Yoongi. It also happens to be the 1000th of ARMY Day, so Yoongi is going to host a VLive Kkul FM.

I brought some late-night snacks (tteokbokki, eomuk, hotteok and jjokbbal) to have a simple celebration. I just arrived on time to see the boy doing a Vlive session, so I watch them from the other side of the glass door.

After the V Live ended, the boys came out.

🐻Taehyung: Nuna, you're here to visit us!

🐥Jimin: Wow! You brought lots of food! Thank you!

🐴Hoseok: Hyungsu-nim (Sister-in-law), you're here.

Hoseok's word startled me. I nudged Yoongi and gave him a stare.

🐱Yoongi: It's not me. I didn't ask them to do that.

🐴Hoseok: Ayyy, Hyungsu-nim don't be shy. Everyone in BigHit has known about it. Both of you have met each other's parents.

I nudge Yoongi again.

🦉Jihye: Are you sure you did not do it?

🐱Yoongi: I probably just casually mentioned it once.

🦉Jihye: And all the effort I put in to keep quiet to protect your reputation, you are being so loud of our relationship. I give up...

🐱Yoongi: I got to announce it once to make sure others won't take a chance to hit on you.

Yoongi come close to my ears and whisper: *You're mine*.

My heart skipped a beat and my face turned red. Of all the times, he chose to flirt in front of the members and staff. I'm so embarrassed. I came up with an excuse to go to the bathroom.

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After we finished the snacks and chatting. It is around 2 a.m., Hoseok decided to go for bed. Taehyung and Jimin are going for a round of videogame.

Despite my multiple requests of asking to have a look at the dormitory (to satisfy my curiosity), but Yoongi always rejects the idea. He said the dorm is too messy and they are moving again soon. He will invite me again after they moved to a new complex.

For a late-night date, between the two options of strolling the Han river and going to my place to chill. Yoongi chooses the latter. A predictable answer from a homebody.

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Back to my place, Yoongi ditched me and go for Seol-tang instead. He spent a good 30 minutes just playing with him. I just quietly watch one cat playing with another "cat".

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🦉Jihye: Here! Your birthday present.

I hand over him a small black box. Yoongi opened the box and look at the present inside.

🐱Yoongi: Is this a marriage proposal now?

I laughed and said, "No... It's for your good luck."

Yoongi jokingly replied; "I'm disappointed to hear that".

🦉Jihye: This is Lapis Lazuli gemstone. It symbolizes good luck and can turn the negative energy into positive ones. It also enhances creativity and improves concentration. My birthday wishes for you is to have a sound body and mind. This ring is designed by a friend of mine. We were classmates in the first year but he later moved to jewelry design specialization and he joined this place called . They have really unique and classy designs.

🦉Jihye: Try wearing it. It should fit well on your middle finger.

Yoongi tries to put on, it is slightly tight on the middle finger. But it fit perfectly on the ring finger.

🦉Jihye: That's weird. I texted Jimin to asked about your ring size. He said that's the right size.

Yoongi chuckled and said "I like it on my ring finger. The design is really beautiful too. Thank you for the meaningful gift."

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We spent the whole night talking a lot. About our childhood, about Holly and Seol-tang, about the movies we like about the members ...

Yoongi shared that this year the agency gave them a more humane schedule. A few of the members such as Jin, Namjoon, and Jungkook decided to go back to their hometown to see their loved ones. Even for those who are not going back to see their parents, they finally found time to relax and have fun. For Yoongi, he's happy that he can spend more time on his mixtape. He is halfway down to the completion of his ten tracks.

The end of the month is also the return of the Kobe concert. Yoongi has been through a lot of thought as is ready to face the ARMY. This time at a bigger venue, the Kobe World Hall. He wished it could be at the same venue so can feel a better closure. But a bigger venue also means more that he can see more ARMYs, which is not a bad idea either.

May will also be the HYYH: Epilogue concert, with the release of a few more songs. As usual, I promised to make myself available for both days of the concert. Another great news is, Yoongi's parents and Junki are coming on the second day of concert as well. This will be their first time attending his concert.

I keep pestering Yoongi to let me have a sneak peek of their new songs. After an exchange of multiple times of forced aegyo of me. He gives in and plays one of his favorites:

[Verse 1: Rap Monster] [Author's Note 1*]

The curtain falls and I'm out of breath

I get mixed feelings as I breathe out

Did I make any mistakes today

How did the audience seem

I'm happy with who I've become

That I can make someone scream with joy

Still excited from the performance

[Verse 2: Suga] [Author's Note 2**]

I stand on the empty stage while holding onto an aftertaste that will not linger for long

While standing on this empty stage, I become afraid of this unpleasant emptiness

Within my suffocating feelings

On top of my life's line

Without a reason, I forcibly act that I am fine

This isn't the first time, I better get used to it

I try to hide it, but I can't

When the heat of the show cools down

I leave the empty seats behind

[Verse 3: J-hope] [Author's Note 3***]

Trying to comfort myself

I tell myself the world can't be perfect

I start to let myself go

The thundering applause, I can't own it forever

I tell myself, so shameless

Raise your voice higher

Even if the attention isn't forever, I'll keep singing

As today's me, I want eternity

Forever, I want to be young

[Chorus: V]

Forever we are young

[Jungkook]

Under the flower petals raining down

I run, so lost in this maze

[V]

Forever we are young

[Jin]

Even when I fall and hurt myself

I endlessly run toward my dream

[Jimin (Suga)]

Forever ever ever ever

(dreams, hopes, forward, forward)

RM faces many criticisms since debut. Many were targeted to his 1) "disrespect" behavior to other KPOP seniors, 2)Misogysntic lyrics during WOH Era, 3) Alleged Plagiarism of BTS songs and 4) An accidental mistaken of Kai's photo as Taehyung's and use it to diss Taehyung on his birthday (This offended EXO-L a lot). RM has become much more worried and careful with his words. Because such a mistake not just potentially hurt a person, but the worst complication is the spiral effect of fan war between fandoms.

SUGA lightly addresses his social anxiety and post-concert syndrome as an artist. He is still struggling with his depression and it will just a part of him. Fortunately, he is starting to embrace that part of him now.

An unpleasant truth; J-hope is the least-liked member at the debut of BTS. The most hurtful fact some of the ARMYS are the one who criticizes his look and commented he is not fit to be an idol. #kickoutjhope was seen on Twitter in the Year 2014. There were also numerous attempts of some toxic ARMYs demanding to see other members when it is J-Hope's VLIVE session.