It has been four days that Yoongi last slept. No matter how hard he tries, he just couldn't get the pervasive thoughts out his mind. People are walking around the room, in and out. Yoongi felt so disconnected from reality.

Yoongi is seated on the chair, the makeup artist is styling his hair. The sound of the hairdryer is overwhelming and the smell of hair spray is making him nauseous. His heart is racing and the palms are getting more and more sweaty. He forces himself to drink more water to calm himself down.

The hairdryer noise just never stops ringing because he is breaking so much cold sweat on his forehead that they are blowing more cold air on him.

Someone came and stood next to him. That person seems to be talking to him. But Yoongi couldn't hear anything. Nothing seems to be processing in his head. He just wants to escape from this chaos. Flashing light from the camera is blinding, yet it is like swallowing him into darkness.

The numbing sensation of the tip of his fingers had quickly spread to the rest of the body like wildfire. He couldn't stand it anymore. He drags his trembling body and ran out of the room, panicking, to find a place to hide.

Yoongi shut himself in the toilet.

He can no longer contain his anxiety. He throws up into the toilet and struggling to breathe. Every breath is a desperate gasp of air. The banging and shouting on the other side of the door are like monsters trying to devour him alive.

Yoongi saw his phone that fell onto the floor. He desperately reached out to the phone with barely any energy left and press the button to call the person that he's dying to see.

The door burst open!

Yoongi is shaking with tears. People are asking him to 'calm down'. But the more he hears that word, the more berserk he behaves! And he lashes out on anyone who comes close to him.

In the end, Yoongi couldn't win against the strength of three strong men. He was carried out and immediately send to the hospital.

Outside the toilet, stands Jungkook with a face of disbelief.

In amidst all the chaos, Yoongi's phone is still lying at the corner of the toilet. The speaker on the other side of the phone is desperately getting attention.

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Chief director: After ample consideration, I think the best solution now is to cancel the concert for today and tomorrow.

Seokjin and Hoseok are looking down on the floor. Jungkook is tearing and Jimin is consoling him.

🐨 Namjoon: How are the two of them now?

Chief director: Although V claimed that he can still perform, but his physical condition may cause him to collapse during the performance anytime.

Chief director: As for SUGA... He need rest. He is doing fine now in the hospital. We will be flying back to Korea the next morning for medical treatment. As of now, the team is working on preparing the video clips and script for the suspension of the concert. We need you guys to go back to the stage and formally announce it to the fans.

Chief director: Sejin-ssi. One of the staff found SUGA's phone in the toilet. Please help to return it to him.

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BTS was late to start the concert for twenty minutes. Fans were really anxious. When there were only five members standing on the stage, many fans were left puzzled. All the BTS members look really sad. Jin was staring at the ground the whole time. After the announcement made by Rap Monster, many fans left crying.

Nevertheless, BTS performed two songs and before ending the concert.

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The rest of the BTS members were quickly sent back to the hotel, and the next day took the first flight back to Seoul. Under the instruction of the Company, all seven members were asked to attend a counseling session with a psychologist.

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🦉Jihye: Yeoboseyo. (Hello)

There is no one responding from the other end of the call. But Jihye can hear someone crying. Is it Yoongi?

🦉Jihye: Hello? Yoongi, is that you?

From the other end of the phone, a sudden BANG! And thereafter were screaming and sounds of fighting.

I recognize the voice must be Yoongi! What had happened!? I tried really hard to shout through the phone, hoping someone can pick the phone up. After a while, the other side has quiet down and I can hear people talking, and the conversation seems to imply sending Yoongi to the hospital.

Something bad must have happened to Yoongi in Kobe! I decided to put down the phone and make the call again. But no one picks up the phone! What should I do? How do I get to Yoongi?

I first checked out Twitter for any update on their Kobe concert. Thirty minutes later, a new update from BigHit that the Kobe concert is canceled due to SUGA and V not feeling well, and the next day concert is canceled as well.

I feel really uncertain right now. From the phonecall earlier, Yoongi's situation does not sound like nauseous during rehearsal. It is definitely something more serious!

I tried multiple times calling Yoongi, but now the phone has been turned off. I called Yewon unnie for more information, but she is clueless as well. I spent the whole night looking up on twitter to find any trace of information about the boys' condition.

The next morning, I decided to make a trip down the BigHit's office.

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There were a few fans loitering outside the building already. I am sure there are also worried about the boys' conditions and hope to see them in person. The sky starts to turn grey, and drops of rains start falling. The loitering fans have also dispersed. I stood outside the main door, hoping to see any staff might come out of the building.

Frankly speaking, it's really silly of me to do this. So what if I can really see a staff? I'm sure they will only see me as a fan, or maybe a sasaeng. They will not believe my words. Not to mention that I can see Yoongi.

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As expected. Despite there were a few staff came out from the building, but they totally ignore me when I approached them. I have been standing outside waiting for nearly 5 hours, I am really exhausted. I sat down on the staircase resting. My gastric starts to hurts... I curl my body to make myself feel more comfortable.

🐰 Jungkook: Are you ... Jihye nuna?

I looked up, it's Jungkook standing in front of me! Behind him is a BigHit staff.

I immediately sprang up from the floor!

🦉Jihye: JungKook ah! I'm so glad to see you! Please help to bring me to see Yoongi! Something bad happened to him, right? It's more than just nauseous, isn't it?

🐰 JungKook: Let's go inside first, shall we?

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I was brought to the meeting room and is served with a glass of warm Yuzu Tea. Jungkook is seated right opposite of me. His facial expression looks really gloomy.

🐰 JungKook: You look really weak. How long have you been waiting outside?

🦉Jihye: Don't worry about me. I'm feeling a lot better now, after the tea. What happened in the Kobe concert?

🐰 JungKook: SUGA Hyung and V Hyung were not feeling well during the practice. V Hyung had mild food poisoning, and SUGA Hyung also felt nauseous.

🦉Jihye: Jungkook-ssi. I'll be honest here. I overheard the entire situation. Yoongi called my phone, and when I picked up the call, I heard Yoongi's screaming and brawling sounds.

Jungkook's face turns red when he realize did not manage to get through his white lies.

"Jeon JungKook, PD-nim is looking for you. I will speak to this lady". A man came into the room and try to send him away with some excuse.

🐰 JungKook: Jihye nuna, Bang PD-nim is looking for me. I'll see you later.

🦉Jihye: Alright. You need to take care of yourself too.

After Jungkook left, the man sat down and start asking talking.

Hobeom: I'm one of their manager, Kang HoBeom. From the conversation, I overheard just now. Seems like all the members knew you. What is the relationship you have with them?

🦉Jihye: I'm Yoongi's .... friend. Yoongi called me yesterday and I overheard the whole incident. I do not know what exactly happened, but Yoongi really needs my support. Otherwise, he wouldn't have called me at that moment. Yoongi has been struggling a lot mentally and the mountain-load of work is crushing on him... and

...

Hobeom: okay, okay. I more or less understand the relationship between both of you. As you said, Yoongi needs help with his mental health. We have engaged our company's psychiatrist to provide counseling services for all the members. So, not to worry about him.

🦉Jihye: So, if it's possible for me to visit him?

Hobeom: I understand your true concern for him. But Yoongi needs some physical rest as well. I would also like to give a reminder that BTS is a rising group. Any dating rumors will also bring setbacks to their popularity. I hope that you can be more careful about how you handle your relationship with Yoongi.

🦉Jihye: I... I understand.

Hobeom: What is your name? Are you still a college student?

🦉Jihye: My name is Kim Jihye, I'm a student from ...

The conversation is again disrupted by another staff.

Ryuyoung: Hobeom-ssi. There's a phone call for you.

Hobeom: Jihye-ssi. Please excuse me for a moment.

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Now I started to regret my irrational decision. Now the agency knew about my relationship with Yoongi. What if they demand him not to see me again?

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Hobeom returns to the meeting room and said:

🦉Jihye-ssi. I can bring you to see Yoongi now.