[Kim Yoonae]: 2013 Melon Music Award, Rookie Award ... It's a shared award. Kim Yerin-ssi and Bulletproof Boy Scouts. Congratulations!

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🦉Jihye: Yeeeaahhhh!!! Our Bangtan Boys won the Rookie Award!!!

🐯Taeho: Calm down! You're scaring the customers.

🦉Jihye: Sunbaenim (Senior). Our BTS won their first rookie award!

🐯Taeho: It's not 'our', just you and your crazy fangirls. I have never even heard of them.

🦉Jihye: Now you heard of it. They work really hard this year. They totally deserved it!

🐯Taeho: What's so special about these K-Pop boy bands? There are all so manufactured.

🦉Jihye: BTS is different. The music is really good, they compose and produce their own songs, and they are really nice people!

🐯Taeho: As if you know them personally.

🦉Jihye: *Hmmph*

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🦉Jihye: Sunbae! Come and watch their live performance with Baechigi! See these two rappers are Rap Monster and SUGA.

🐯Taeho: Not again...

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The seven boys are pumped with adrenaline and can't stop moving even in a small enclosed space. The maknae lines are singing, dancing, and making weird noises, with Namjoon occasionally add on to make it worse.

Yoongi is scrolling at his phone's notifications. There are plenty of congratulatory messages from Twitter, fan cafe, BigHit's staff, friends, and his elder brother. He taps on it.

[Hyung]: Yoongi-ah. Congratulation on the rookie award! I shared the news with Dad and Mum. Although they never expressed it out, I can see that they are really happy. Find some time to come back and see us, alright?!

[🦉Yeoksam-dong friend]: I told you! BTS will win the rookie award. BTS concert is not far away! Congratulations!

Below is a cartoon version of a photo of the seven members receiving the award.

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Jimin was already sitting beside Yoongi, lean on him, even more, to look at the content of the message.

🐥Jimin: Hyung, what's this? The drawing is awesome! Yeoksam-dong friend? That's a strange name to give.

🐱Yoongi: Just... a friend of mine. Sit properly, we are in a vehicle.

🐥Jimin: Look! I received many congratulatory messages too. This's from my dad.

Yoongi ignores Jimin and calls out to Jungkook.

🐱Yoongi: Ya~ Jungkook ah. You like to read webtoons, isn't it? Hyung recently saw a good one, let me introduce to you.

🐥Jimin: Aahhh SUGA Hyung, don't ignore me. I want to see the webtoon too.

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Where there is hope, there is always hardship...

Sea (Released date: 18 Sept 2017)

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It has been a week since the B-Free incident. I still couldn't get in touch with Yoongi. I'm so worried about him. The prejudice against the idols by the public has never been friendly, much worst to say it's from the hip hop community in South Korea. The harsh criticisms on Yoongi and Rapmon moving from the underground scene to idol are well known among the ARMYs.

But the fact that when the irrational criticism is smack right at your face in front of their fans, it couldn't be more heartbreaking.

I watched the video several times, focusing on Yoongi's expression. I can see his struggles between his identity as a rapper and idol. The fact that he couldn't help to agree on some of the harsh criticism made on him. He must have gone through that endless times of identity conflict since debut.

But I couldn't reach him. He has not been reading my Kakao messages.

There won't be any fan meet events until the 11th, next month. There have probably arrived in Thailand and next week is their Japanese showcase. I hope he is doing alright.

As of now, all I can do is watch over him through the updates on Twitter.

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It never came to my thought that I can see Yoongi earlier, but because of a piece of bad news.

🦉Jihye: Which hospital are you in? 7.07 p.m.

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Min-Friend: Gangnam S Hospital 11: 37 p.m.

🦉Jihye: I'm going tomorrow. Let me know the ward number tomorrow. 11.37 p.m.

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I brought a bouquet of flowers with me, searching for the correct ward in the hospital. I cautiously open the door, to check if there are any other people in the room.

Yoongi is sleeping.

I enter the room slow and tip toe-ing, avoid to make the slightest sound to wake him up. He looks so peaceful sleeping. Maybe I should come in again later. I slowly put down the flower bouquet on the side table, making the slightest crackling sound when the wrapping paper touches the table surface.

🐱Yoongi: You're here.

🦉Jihye: Sorry to wake you up.

🐱Yoongi: I wasn't sleeping anyway.

🦉Jihye: How are you feeling now?

🐱Yoongi: Great! I have never slept so much since debut.

Looking at how pale and skinnier he is. I have already started to tear up, but I'm fighting hard to hold the tears.

🦉Jihye: Are you hungry? Do you want any food? I can go down to the cafeteria and get for you.

🐱Yoongi: I had my lunch earlier. Hospital food is terrible.

Yoongi saw that I am really upset and worried.

🐱Yoongi: I'm really fine.

🦉Jihye: You're really fine? How about me? Am I really your friend? Two months, not a single response. I only got to know about you being hospitalized through a news report.

Yoongi chuckled.

🦉Jihye: What's that laugh for? Am I a joke?

Yoongi stopped his chuckling and act more serious.

🐱Yoongi: Sorry. I just want to be left alone to do some thinking.

🦉Jihye: So, how did it went? Your thoughts?

🐱Yoongi: Still, in progress. But better.

🦉Jihye: Will I not get to talk to you until you are got it through?

🐱Yoongi: No. I ...

Nurse: Min Yoongi-ssi. Time to change your wound dressing.

I turn my back, and step out of the ward and close the sliding door. I wiped the falling tears off my face, and head to the staircase.

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🐰Jungkook: Hyung, do you think we can manage to sneak in the fried chicken? We will probably get reprimand by the hospital staff.

🐿️ Seokjin: Jungkook-ah. I know the real reason is you want to keep the fried chicken to yourself.

🐴Hoseok: Yoongi Hyung is really something! How did he last through the pain throughout the Japanese showcase and only receive the surgery after he's back to Korea? I would have screamed in pain the entire time.

🐥Jimin: Thankfully Yoongi Hyung flew back immediately to have the surgery. I hope he is feeling better now.

🐰Jungkook: oh! It's that Nuna!

Jungkook's hawkeye spotted Jihye outside Yoongi's ward. But before he can get closer, Jihye has walked away in the opposite direction.

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🐥🐰🐻🐨🐴: Yoongi Hyung!!!

Nurse: Keep your volume down! This is a hospital.

🐥🐰🐻🐨🐴🐿️: Ah, sorry.

After the dressing is changed. The nurse left the room.

When there's seven of them together at the same time. It's never easy to keep them quiet or stay still.

🐨 Namjoon: Oh? Yoongi Hyung. There's a flower bouquet here. Did somebody come just now? Is it Bang-PD nim?

🐿️ Seokjin: There's a letter in the bouquet.

Seokjin standing right beside the side table took the letter out from the bouquet.

🐱Yoongi: Hyung. That's mine.

Yoongi's tone is so stern, that even the eldest Hyung Seokjin feels chilly and hand it over to Yoongi.

🐻Taehyung: Woah, this hospital room looks so comfy! I want to get hospitalized too!

🐰🐨🐿️: Yaaa! Kim TaeHyung!

Taehyung responded with a big box smile.

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Yoongi-ah

Sometimes, I did ask myself many times, will I eventually be an artist? Between my dream and reality, do I have to choose one? When I succumb to the ugly face of the reality that blocks my path of the dream, is it because I'll weak-willed? Is the fact that I am spending more time working in a cafe than drawing my webtoon imply that I chose reality?

Your answer at the broadcast answered mine.

Being stuck in poverty, hunger, and running headlessly is not the true representation of being passionate. To remain graceful in front of reality's humiliation. To constantly readjusting myself to fit my dream, in reality, is a real passion.

Min Yoongi. You're not just a great rapper, a great producer, and a great artist. You are a great idol. Not our factory-produced idol. But an idol that truly resembles its meaning. A person who is a role model encouraging all the young people out there to not stop chasing their dreams despite all the turmoils.

You will never walk alone, because I'm there behind, following.

[Jihye]