My heart constrict with pain. His voice is devoid of any emotion. His eyes has no glow of life. His gaze are distant and blank. I gulped. What have I done to him? He closed his eyes again. I studied his face for a long time and speak again.

I say and he look up me in confusion. I give him a smile and hold his cold hands. Giving him my warmth. He stare at me and down to our hands.

He blink and look at me. Still emotionless.

He ask in a tone I can't fathom. I smiled.

He stare at me, brows knotted deeply. I can say he is thinking and his brain is running miles already.

His voice crack. Tears are starting to fall again from his eyes. He looks so fragile, so vulnerable and all I did was hurt him.

He grip my hand and sob. I just let him, he need that. If crying can make him feel better then I let him cry.

He chuckled. A broken one.

He sighed and let go of my hand. I want to hold him some more but I hold back myself. He need time and I let him take his time. I can wait. Even if it will take forever.

I laughed, remembering my parents and shiver when I realize that I screwed up and how would I tell them about Beam's pregnancy and miscarriage. Dad will probably kill me and mom? She'll kick my ass out of the house if dad will still let me live.

His eyes widen and he gape like a fish. I close his mouth with my thumb and caress his cheek softly. He immediately turn away from me but I already saw the pink tint coloring his cheeks.

His voice get shaky again and I force him to face me. His eye is glistening with tears that are threatening to fall again.

He studied my face for a while. His eyes goes back and forth to my eyes. There are insecurities and uncertainty in it. Pain is clearly visible. Not a distant look anymore and I do will everything to take that pain away. I will do everything to look for the day that he can smile and happy again.

He blink and bit his lips. He grip my shirt and pull me closer. I froze when his hands round on my waist and his face buried in my chest. I look down on him and I saw his body shake. He's crying again. I don't know what to do

. Should I hug him back?

He answered and my heart soar in joy. He's letting me in. I crouch down a bit and slowly hug him back. He did not let go but tightened his hold to me instead.

I can make it. I can make him love me again. I can take his pain away. Not for now but I will soon.

I whispered and plant a soft kiss on the top of his head. I did not get a reply but that's okay. I'll take things slowly.