I blink as I look at Forth, tearing away my eyes from the news on tv, featuring his engagement party to a girl named Dream. We are in his office when Yo called me to turn the tv onand I didn't expect to see this, not now actually.

I ask maintaining the calmness of my voice and my face while staring at him. He cursed as he turned off the tv and I sit back again on my chair, behind my own desk inside his office where everything has started.

I sighed hearing his words.

I say in a plain and bland tone. He look stunned and his lips part wanting to speak but he did not say a word. I ignore his intense stare and made my self busy,turning my back to him as I checking the files on my desk.

I shut my eyes tightly before looking back to him with a knotted brows.

I ask bluntly and I saw him blink and hesitates. He looks like he is thinking and debating on something. I wait till he speak.

He stuttered and his eyes is looking nowhere. He look like he was lost. I sighed again, deeply this time. Clearing that knot inside my chest.

I said firmly but I can hear the breaking of my heart in each of my word. He did not speak for a while and keep his silence, which I am thankful of. I don't think I can still keep calm if he answered me right away.

He sounds hurt but I refuse to look at his face. I grit my jaw hard and nod while handing him the resignation letter that I prepared before coming here. I have to stay away from him.

I stated without blinking.

I heave a deep breath to stop my self fom trembling. I have to be strong. I can't let his words affect my reasoning.

I smile at him, a broken smile but he did not notice it. He is busy thinking on something that his gaze are distant.

I said the last part in whisper because I doubt if I can. I was lying. We can't be friends. It will just break me again and again if we did.

I tap him at the back, to stop him from stammering. He look at me with pain in his eyes, I look away. I am sure I have the same look as him.

I lied. I will go far away. Away from him and everything that will remind me of him but he doesn't have to know. He shocked me when he suddenly hug me and cried on my shoulder. I chuckled to hide my pain, my heartache. I give him the same hug.

I didn't wait for him to finish his words when I slam my lips to him. I can taste his tears on the kiss but I don't care. It will be the last time I will be kissing him. The last time that I can taste him.

We lost ourselves on the feeling of the kiss we shared. I tried so hard not to drop a tear but they betrayed me. A tear drop followed by another and another until I can't hold it in and sob in his arms.

I can hear him shushing me, rocking our body back and forth. Makes me want to break down in another sobs but I bit my lips so hard that I can almost taste my blood to stop myself.

I nod, I can't form a words to say to him. We stayed still like that, sharing each others warmth for the last time.

When I calmed down a bit, I slowly untangled my body from him and step back to put enough distance for us. I look straight in his eyes and smile. For a moment I want to lunge my self again in his arms but I hold my self in.

I manage to say without choking on my words. Again my own heart torn into pieces because of my own words. I step back a little more further. Getting my bag and some other things that belong to me on top of my desk I head out to the door without giving him another glance.

I don't know what he is pleading for but I know I can't give in. Not now. This maybe same thing happened to MingKit but we have a different ending.

Without hearing his answer I run out from his office. Leaving behind my heart which I know forever will belong to him.

I love you but I can't let my self be a fool because of that. You never said you like me, and I know why. It's not me for you, you already belong to someone. I can't fight my love for you because from the very beginning I knew already lost this fight. I don't want to be a reason for someone's heartbreak.