I wince as pain shoot my back as soon as I open my eyes. I look around and realize that I am inside Forth's room. After Yo's wedding yesterday I went with him and end up sleeping again with him.

I frowned when I did not see him on the bed. I look at the alarm clock and saw it is thirty minutes after nine. I overslept I see, he must probably be at work. I move my naked body under the duvet and walk slowly to the bathroom for a warm shower.

I sighed as the water hit me and calm my aching nerves. Forth and I had been together for how many years? I don't know. I don't count. I refused to label our relationship actually, because he has not been saying anything about us. People don't know about us. Maybe my brother Yo knew or his husband Phana but we don't talked about it and they don't ask me. It's like we are keeping it as a secret or more like he's keeping us a secret. We fucked and worked, that's how it goes for us or most likely for him. For me? I know deep inside my heart I love him but I am afraid to lose what we had right now. If he will call us just fuck buddies then be it. I won't complain. I am a coward to ask because I don't know if I can accept what answer he has.

I walk out the bathroom and look for my clothes. After wearing it I decide to not go to work. He has a secretary, I don't get it why he still want me to be with him. I think I was deep in thought when I get startled with a call from my phone. I look for it and found it on the couch, must be left here last night.

I muttered when I saw the caller but still I swipe to answer.

A stern and cold voice of a woman shocked me and before I can answer back, the call ended, leaving me with a lot of questions running through my mind. My knees weakened and my body slump down on the couch.

My heart refuse to believe but my mind does. Our relationship says it all. I sat there as I hear my heart slowly breaking into pieces. Well, I guess this is where I should stop dreaming and face the reality that I have been avoiding. He never said he love me, nor he like me. We are just fuck buddies. A boss and a secretary. We started like that and end like that too.

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