I sat in the back of a moving truck with Jesus. At this time, I only had 2 things on my mind. Ellie and killing Negan. "Making a trail," Jesus said as he poured syrup out the truck. "I think we're close." He nodded his head.

I turned slightly and kept digging through boxes.

"We should bail, we can follow the rest of the way." He spoke up again. I knew that wasn't what I had planned to do, I let him go first and I never followed after him.

My mind was set on seeing Ellie.

And that's what I planned on seeing.

We arrived and I grabbed one of the guns. I loaded it and pointed it. I heard Ellie's voice from the distance.

She entered the truck and saw me. Her face lit up but the frowned. Her eyes widened and she quickly turned.

"Maybe we should wait." She said talking to some guy. "No, Negan wants this done now." A guy answered her.

He pushed her to the side. He grabbed a box that I cut open all the alcohol fell out of it. "What the fuck!?" He yelled.

He turned and saw me. "Go, Ellie!" I yelled and she jumped off the truck. I pulled the trigger and began to fire. I didn't let go and let the shots continue. I didn't care who I killed. I ran to the front and pointed it at everyone.

"Stay back! Drop your weapons!" I said. Ellie was nowhere to be seen.

I stepped down and pointed at some guys. "I only want Negan." I glared. "And Ellie," I said moving my finger back to the trigger to show I meant business. Negan walked up doing the stupid whistle he always did. "You are adorable." Negan smiled at me.

"I'm not gonna lie." Negan hid behind one of his guys. "You scare the shit out of me." He laughed a bit. I decided to show him I was being serious so I shot more of his men. Dwight tackled me and I heard Ellie yell.

"For God's sake, someone get Ellie out of here." Negan snapped. I struggled to get up and he grabbed my gun. "Kid!" Dwight screamed.

Daryl was by the fence trying to get out. I watched Anna drag Ellie in the building with the help of another teenage boy.

I knew him from somewhere I couldn't place where.

"Back off," Negan told his guy. "Is that any way to treat our new guest?"

"Let me go!" I yelled pushing Anna away. "If you want him to live, you need to calm down." Damien grabbed me.

"I need to see him," I said trying to go out again. "Ellie!" Anna grabbed me. "You need to chill." She rolled her eyes.

"I'll talk to him about letting you see him. But don't get your hopes up." She walked away. Damien sighed and followed her. I ended up doing the same and waking down the hallway.

Negan showed me around the sanctuary and I quietly followed. I knew he was keeping me away from Ellie, but I had to find her. We were in a room by ourselves. He just kept rambling on about himself and I looked at my hands. "But, enough about me, you're here for Ellie." Negan smiled.

"Wild one that is." He laughed.

"But I wanna get to know you a little better, Carl."

"Why?" I asked.

"Work it out." He said with a dorky smile. "Besides, if you think you're gonna be with Ellie without talking to me first, you're definitely mistaken."

I rolled my eyes and looked out the window.

"Take that off your face." He pointed at my patch.

"No." I stood up for myself.

"Do you really wanna piss me off?" He asked.

I looked down and took off my hat. My hands reached behind my head as I unwrapped the bandage.

"That is disgusting!" Negan yelled. "No wonder you cover that up!" Negan laughed loudly.

This was his way of getting to me, and I knew that. My eye was something I wanted to hide from the world.

"Have you seen it?" Negan leaned forward to get a closer look.

I tried to hide my tears and he noticed. "Damn." He said. "Holy hell, kid." Negan sighed looking down. "Look, I just... it's easy to forget you're just a kid."

There was a knock at the door and I looked over at it. Ellie's twin stood in the doorway playing with her fingers.

"You left Lucille out by the truck." She said walking inside. He began talking to her. She looked over at my eye and tensed up. "Anna, don't you think he looks rad as hell?" Negan pointed at my eye. "No wonder Ellie has a liking to him." Negan clapped his hands.

"Speaking of Ellie."

"I think I'll give you two some alone time before the show." Negan smiled at me. "Anna go fetch your sister.

I saw him and ran towards him. "Carl!" I yelled jumping in his arms. His head was down and soon made a place on my shoulder.

"Why did you come? Are you fucking crazy?" I pulled back to look at him. I noticed his hat in his hands.

The bandage around his eye inside of it. "What happened?" I lifted his head up. "Why is your bandage off?" I asked confused.

"He made me take it off." He whispered lightly.

Carl wasn't making eye contact with me and I sighed. "It's okay." I hugged him tighter.

"I look like a monster, Ellie!" He yelled pulling back. "No." I tried to grab on to him. He moved away and slid down a wall. "I hate myself." He sat down and I sat next to him. "I know it's not a lot coming from me." I grabbed his hand.

"But I think it makes you look hot." I smiled.

Carl raised his head up, "It means the world coming from you." He leaned in to kiss me. Before our lips touched Anna coughed. "We should get going." She said bouncing on her feet. "Don't want to keep Negan waiting." She turned around.

I stood up grabbing Carl's hand and we walked into a big room.

There was Negan standing next to Tyler. Anna told me last night that Negan doesn't take well to people disobeying him and as long as we listen he will do anything to protect us. Even if it means killing people.

Carl squeezed my hand and I looked up at him. "What's going on?" He asked confused on the overly long speech Negan prepared. I sighed and shook my head, "You don't wanna know." He took that answer and didn't question me further.

"Dwight!" Negan yelled and his follower brought out an iron that was gleaming a reddish-orange. I closed my eyes once I heard the sizzles and screams from Tyler. I forced myself into my happy place.

"Ellie," Carl whispered grabbing onto my face. I closed them tighter to fight back any tears threatening to spill. "Hey, what's wrong?" He pulled me closer. "It's my fault," I said into his chest. "Shh, don't say that." He swayed us back and forth.

Soon I was yanked away by Negan. "Okay fun time is over!" His loud voice boomed behind me. "I say we go take a visit to your old dad," He smiled and pulled me along with him. "Anna, you too." He laughed and happily walked to the door.

I knew as we got in the truck; this was a bad idea.