It's been a week and a day since Lloyd and I were captured. It was only a week ago that I was rescued by Nya because he sacrificed himself for me.

And, I regret letting him have that choice ever since.

Lloyd let himself continue being their hostage, knowing full that some horrors might befall on him because he stayed with those damn snakes.

He protected me when I was the one who was supposed to protect him. After all, ninjas protect those who cannot defend themselves.

Oh, the irony.

Ever since that day, I've been training non-stop like right now. I have to get stronger so I can save him the next time we face off with the Serpentine. But, my mind keeps on wandering over the fact that we just got him to somewhere safe, somewhere he doesn't have to worry about food, or shelter because he was finally with us. But, that was all ripped away from him. He was forced back into that situation because of that mission that went terribly wrong. And, I couldn't do anything to save him.

I suck.

I let myself fall into this pit of feeling comfortable, where everything just felt right and that nothing else in the world mattered because I knew he was safe. With us.

With me.

Why did I let myself fall into that pit? Was it because I thought that Lloyd was safe now and that everything would be alright? Or was it because I stuffed my feelings away so far deep just for him so he didn't need to worry about me?

The answers to my question, there won't be any answers for them any time soon.

Ever since that first encounter with him, I never thought that it would lead me down a rabbit hole that would cause me to spiral. Then again, I suppose everything was truly unlocked when I first arrived at the Monastery, but I just never acknowledged it until recently.

I sigh, knowing I'm not like my brothers, and not even like Nya. I begin to slow down my movements, my thoughts taking over.

I'm not like them. I'm a mystery.

I stop for a moment, breathing heavily as sweat falls from my forehead. "I can't believe I really thought that Lloyd was with us, everything would be alright. I'm really an idiot."

I shake my head, continuing on with my training. I can't let anything distract me. Not even my thoughts...

How has Destiny led me down this path? What have I done that made me deserve this? Did I do something wrong? Did I not finish something in my past? Is that why my future seems so complicated?

I shake my head, knowing whatever Destiny has planned for me, it'll possibly change my life forever.

My attacks become sharper, quicker as my mind races even more. And, no matter how much I quicken or how much I put more force into my attacks, my mind is stronger. It takes me back to it no matter what.

Lloyd, what have you done to me? You have somehow woven yourself into my life, sneaking in without me noticing before it's too late. You've woven yourself into the tapestry of my life, slowly entangling yourself with the other strings. Everything was coming together. But, once your string was ripped away from my tapestry, I suppose, everything became undone that has led me to my thoughts once more.

"I'm back at square one," I mumble quietly.

The tapestry unraveling allowed everything to come back to me like a flood. The thoughts that I hoped were stuffed away deep inside of me, bursts out from the box. I don't know where I'm from... I don't know what that flash was... I don't know why some places and things feel so familiar to me... I don't know why I wasn't a part of the prophecy... And, I don't know why Lloyd is so important to me...

My grip tightens on my fans, anger taking over now. Why can't anything make sense?! Damn it all! I'm just done!

Wait. Damn it. I let my mind wander again.

I shake my head again, throwing one of my fans at a nearby wall as it sticks there.

The four ninjas watch me train from the doorway, watching me progressively become more and more aggressive in my attacks. Sure, I've been a bit... hardcore when training, but never to this extent. At this point, they don't know what to do because, to them, it's been going on for long enough.

Jay runs his fingers through his hair, trying to come up with an idea. "Guys, it's been a week and she hasn't been taking any breaks! She's barely been sleeping and eating. This is getting ridiculous!"

"Jay has a point. She's refused to stop at all. Not even Sensei can get her to stop. I fear she will exhaust herself to the point of no return," Zane adds on concerned.

The other three nod as they all try to figure out a plan. This is all new to them, and let's just say, helping out an emotional ninja who's on the brink of collapse was not a part of the ninja plan.

After all, there's no one else who's a girl who might understand her problems. Maybe Kai, but even then, Nya was always independent.

"What are we supposed to do? We can't leave her be all depressed!" Jay shouts out in frustration.

Cole shakes his head. "What can we do? You know how she gets about her training. And, now that Lloyd's gone, she's not going to be stopping any time soon."

"Stopping her would be unwise. But, we do need to figure out a way to cheer her up and make sure she doesn't collapse. She won't even bake with me anymore." Zane sighs disappointedly. He always did enjoy baking with us.

Kai groans in annoyance, shaking his head for any sort of ideas. "Nya was never like this! She would always handle her own problems without needing me. The only time she was anywhere near like this was when our parents disappeared. And, even then, she handled it herself. She's pretty independent which is great and not so great at the same time."

"We can't leave the kid like this though! She's not like Nya. We have to figure out something so she can stop all of this training. She's just a kid after all. She's too young for this... Maybe we can save Lloyd?" Cole asks.

Zane quickly answers, "In the words of Kai: That would be a stupid idea. Lloyd is with the united tribes. We would surely lose the fight against them if we go. There are just too many."

"We need to figure out a way for Y/n to depend on us more so she can talk out her problems with us. She shouldn't be going through this alone," Jay says, trying to think of something.

Cole sighs. "That's the thing. We don't know what she's going through. She won't tell us anything."

Let's just say that them talking so loudly over my "problems" is getting annoying.

My grip tightens on my fans, hearing them talking. "Can you all quiet down!? I'm trying to train here!"

I throw my fan at the doorway, barely missing Jay.

"Gah! Y/n!"

"I'm trying to train, but I can't do it with all of you talking!"

I quickly walk over to them, pushing the four out of my room, and slam my door shut. I sigh, knowing they're just trying to help, but...

Who can really help me with this?...

~

The four sit around the dining room table, trying to figure out their next move. Kai groans frustrated, holding his head. "We gotta figure out a way to make her talk!"

"Do not get frustrated Kai. I'm sure she will once she is ready to do so. We cannot force her to talk about her problems." Zane assures him.

"But, who knows how long that'll take! She doesn't exactly "open up." This sucks! Why can't Sensei Wu help us with this?!" Jay frustratedly asks.

Cole eats some cake, trying to figure out how to get us to open up. "Because Sensei is out getting some tea, remember?" He groans. "This cake even tastes bad! She needs to cheer up soon or every food will start tasting bad."

Nya pulls on her hair as she walks into the room. The four stares at her frustrated figure walk over to the fridge, swinging open the door angrily.

"You alright sis?" Kai asks.

"No! Y/n has been training so much through the night that it's been keeping me up! I love her but I love my sleep more! I need some sleep!"

The boys sigh, knowing what's she's talking about. Jay shakes his head. "Don't blame her, she's going through a lot, especially now that Lloyd is gone."

"Well, I just wish that she expressed her problems or something through something a little more quietly!" Nya sighs. "Look, I just want to sleep again. But, yeah. With the state she's in, it's concerning. She won't even talk to me about this. She usually tells me everything!"

"Well, it seems like not everything Nya," Zane informs.

She glares at him, getting ready to punch him.

Luckily for him, however, Cole interrupts the two. "Come on guys. She always helps us out no matter what. We gotta help her out now."

Nya grabs a soda can before sitting down next to Kai. "Well, I can't think of anything."

They all sigh, trying to figure out what to do. To them, I'm a complete mystery.

Jay looks around the table, seeing all of their elemental weapons. He looks at his nunchucks before an idea pops into his mind. "I think I got an idea."

Everyone turns to him, now curious as to what he has up his sleeve.

"If she likes training so much, then let's push her to her limits."

"Are you stupid?"

"By stupid, you mean stupidly smart? Then yes. Yes, I am Kai."

~

Nya knocks on my door, watching me train from the doorway. Seeing her train is really something. No wonder she's the strongest out of the five. When she trains, she really trains.

She shakes her head. "Hey, y/n. How are holding up?"

I slowly stop my movements, turning to her. Hesitating for a moment, I finally speak up. "I... I'm fine. Just training is all."

"You know you could always talk to me about anything that's on your mind. After all, we two gotta stick together."

I turn away from her. "I-I know. I just... would much rather uh... do things on my own."

She walks over to me, kneeling down to my level, and places her hand on my shoulder "Stop lying. I know you're not okay and going through things alone is not good for you. Especially for your age. You're just a kid."

"Well, I'm much more than a kid you know! I can handle myself! Like I said. I'm fine."

"But, you're not! I was the exact same when my parents left. I didn't even let Kai in! Going through something so traumatic like that is not easy, and I regret not letting Kai in ever since then. I don't want you to go through the same thing."

I turn to her angrily. "I'm fine! I'm perfectly fine! Training is getting me through it and I will bring him back! I am fine!" We stare at each other for a few moments before shrugging off her hand from my shoulder. "Did our brothers send you? Because, if that's it, then I think we're done here."

I begin to walk away as Nya stops me. She sighs, shaking her head. "Well, originally I came here so you could teach me how to do Spinjitzu again."

My eyes widen. "I thought you didn't want to learn anymore after last time's... incident."

We both shudder at the thought of what happened. That wasn't a good day.

She shakes her head, getting rid of the thought. "Ugh, don't remind me heh. Anyway, I want to try again. It could come in handy if I'm ever in a situation where my mech can't get me out of a sticky situation."

I think for a moment. What's the worst that could happen? At most, it would be like last time where everything was set on fire. Including the water...

I nod. "Well, we already survived the worst! So, why not! It'll be fun."

"That's what you said last time."

"It'll be fiiiiine."

"You said that too."

"Shhh."

~

We walk onto the Deck, talking about anything really. I would be lying if I said I wasn't feeling better than before. It feels nice to actually get a break from everything, especially from my thoughts.

As we walk to the center of the Deck, I notice something off. My eyes wander all over, spotting my brothers surrounding us, with their Golden Weapons activated. My eyes narrow as my mind tries to fit together the pieces. Getting suspicious of them is an understatement.

They are planning something.

To my surprise, Nya is no longer by my side, but instead, standing next to Kai.

I quickly take out my fans, narrowing my eyes at them. "So what's the plan here? Because whatever you all are planning to do, I can take you all down."

Zane looks at everyone before turning back to us. "We are sorry for what's about to happen."

"Let's just call this training," Kai adds on.

"Excuse me?"

Alright, whatever this situation is. I'm so taking them all down.

But, before I get to do anything, I'm pelted by all of their elements, taking me by complete surprise. "Gah! Hey! Guys! Stop it! Ow!"

They hesitate for a moment, thinking if Jay's plan was really a good one.

"Just keep on going guys. This is the only way we can help her now," Nya urges. They nod, continuing on, simply ignore my cries. I quickly narrow my eyes, blocking every element coming my way. Whatever they are doing, they sure are angering me! The chance I get, I'm taking their weapons!

With every element coming way, I gracefully either slice ice and rocks in half or dodge lightning and fire. I can't let any element touch me. I have to get to one of them somehow!

I try to move towards Cole, his element being the easiest to dodge.

The black ninja notices, shouting out to the others. "She's getting closer! What do I do?!"

Jay quickly comes up with another idea, already regretting what's about to happen. "Sorry about this Y/n!"

And, with that, he's the first one to actually get a hit on me. "Gah!"

I drop to the ground, letting the shock go through my body. They all stare at my body, now worried about what just happened. "Y/n?" Nya asks concerned.

Slowly getting up, glaring at them. "Oh, you guys are going to regret that!"

They immediately continue on, fearing whatever might happen to them if I get my hands on any of them. Zane manages to get the next hit, freezing my hands together. I glare at him as I dodge incoming attacks, no longer able to block them with my fans. "Hey!"

As fire quickly comes my way, I use it to melt the ice as I barely dodge some rocks. But, because of the ice, it left me open to mistakes. I immediately get shocked by lightning, and just like that, it all begins to spiral down for me. With each element I dodge or manage to block, I get hit by another. Normally, I would last a lot longer without getting hit. Guess my lack of sleep is finally catching up...

My breathing gets rapid, trying to keep up with everything. Taking them on when they have their Golden Weapons activated is not easy. Especially when I'm off my game.

"Ow!"

Scratch that. It's practically impossible.

"Gah!"

I hate them.

"Ah!"

My patience is running low. "All of you stop it! This isn't training! This is harassment!"

But, they all ignore my cries. It's not easy for them too. Even if this was Jay's idea, they are regretting it. They hate hurting us like this, even if we can defend ourselves.

The five whisper among each other, hoping they've done enough.

"Should we really keep doing this to her? She's taking in a lot more hits than we expected," Jay asks concerned.

Cole jumps in. "Yeah, what Jay said. She would've normally been able to last a lot longer but this... How many hours of sleep has she really gotten."

"No, we have to do this. We can't stop now because if we do, she'll be too alone and too scared to ask for help when she really needs it," Nya tells the two.

Cole and Jay look at each other, then at us before sighing. They knew Nya had a point. They knew I was already distancing myself from them the moment Sensei Wu told me about my parents so they knew they couldn't let me go on any further.

Kai sighs, shaking his head. "Look, guys, I don't like it either but hopefully this will help her in the end. I know it will."

"By pelting her with elements?" Zane asks now confused.

"I mean, she's doing so far a good job blocking!" Jay exclaims, trying to be positive about everything.

"By good job you mean barely blocking anymore because she's at the point of exhaustion, then yeah," Cole mocks. He was so right.

Kai continues on throwing flames at us, trying to stay focused as he watches us get hit more and more. "Well hopefully she'll have an outburst and that'll lead to her talking about her emotions or something. I don't know she works, I only know Nya."

"He's got a point."

They all shake their head, turning back their full attention to me, seeing me getting angrier and angrier. As much as they hate Jay's stupid idea, they knew it could work.

"I think it's working fellas," Cole says a bit nervously.

I swing my fan a lot more recklessly now, trying with all of my strength to either block or just break at any element that comes my way. But, at this point, I'm just getting hit by everything now. "Guys! Stop! I can't keep up! Please!"

It's no use though. When I falter for a second, I get hit in the face by a large piece of rock as I stumble backwards before falling to the ground. Exhausted and weakened, it felt nice to be on the ground. What didn't feel nice though was the fact that I was just hit in the face by a rock.

They all stop their attacks, now concerned over the fact that I wasn't getting up. They hesitate for a moment before Cole walks over to me. "I'm sorry kid! I didn't mean to hit you in the face! I'm sorry!"

I slowly look up at Cole, my eyes flash purple for a brief moment. I take a moment to try to calm down, but who would be calm in a situation where someone was just attacked by their brothers?!

Yeah, I was angry.

"What the hell was that?! Why did you all do that?! Are you insane?!"

Their eyes widen in terror as Cole tries to back away from me, but it's too late for him.

He's dead.

I quickly stand up, grabbing his arm, and throwing him to Jay rather roughly. I grab his fallen scythe and aim it at my siblings. They sure aren't going to mess with me now. After all, Sensei Wu taught me how to use the Golden Weapons just in case of emergencies. "Answer me now because I'm a child unhinged now!"

Jay and Cole groan in pain, getting up from each other. Jay rubs his head, turning to me. "Y/n, calm down, please. We'll tell you what we were planning."

Zane turns to his siblings. "So who's going to tell her? I would much rather not be the one to do so."

That's when Nya speaks up, angry now. "It's because we're worried about you! You've been training non-stop ever since Lloyd was left behind! And you haven't been taking any sort of break! You've even kept me awake through the night because of it! You're shutting yourself off! We don't want you to be isolated because of this!"

We all stay silent.

None of us has heard Nya have an outburst before. Well, Kai has, but only because he's had to deal with them throughout his life. But... the fact that she raised her voice to me was new. It didn't feel good...